Hi everyone

I know I haven't posted an ETA this month. This post may come across as oversharing a little but I want to keep you guys in the loop so you don't feel ignored. I likely won't be sharing these details anywhere else.

I'm under a lot of stress rn. I had to pull all my patreon earnings to pay my rent this month (thank you guys, I'm just sad I had to spend it on that). Fortunately I've just picked up a part time job which should take some of that pressure off and hopefully some erroneous casting work will come my way for a bit of an income boost. There are some more specific interpersonal things which have happened in my life recently which have affected me worse than I thought they would - namely, this week I've been on seizure alert for the first time in about five years. Idk if any of you are epileptic but if you are you'll get how that feels.

Tomorrow I start the new part time job and at the end of this week I have a cool photoshoot booked which I'm really excited about. Life hasn't ground to a halt I've just become a bit disordered in how I am handling things. Some of you have messaged me about the instagram story I posted saying I felt like I wanted to quit music. The amount of pressure I put on myself is hard, especially when I'm banking on relocating country based on the things I want to achieve. It's also quite rough with all the things in the news lately on that particular topic. It's not always easy to feel like things will work out how you imagined they would, and that can make me more frustrated with my current situation. Y'all know how sick I am of living in the UK lol.

Anyways you guys are on my mind a lot and I am pushing things along in the bg but this week in particular I am just becoming a bit concerned about my health. If I do end up having breakthrough seizures (that's what they call it when you have seizures despite being on medication) I will have to go to hospital and see my neurologist, and unfortunately I will lose my eligibility to drive as well as some other things. Perhaps I will try and see them before it comes to that, we'll see. I don't really want to have my life interrupted by epilepsy again hahah.

Hope you're all doing well, I love you very much. <3

Geo