❤️ Go Through the Motions ❤️ [Personal Tea]

Hey Teacups -

This is just a personal message from me to you, hoping to spread some solace, positivity and reassurance. So, I've just spent the past few hours trying to make content and failing miserably. Sometimes, I can churn out three-five audios in a session and afterwards I feel on top of the world. Other times (very much like today) I leave the booth feeling like a complete and total loser, who doesn't deserve her job and opportunities. 

HOWEVER, I am here to tell you and myself that I have been here many times before. I will be here again and again and probably again. And you know what, that's okay. Imposter Syndrome is real, I'm insecure and hyper self-critical. That's a part of me right now, but it's not all of me. There's other sides - happy sides, playful sides, creative sides - and clearly that's part of why I'm in this job. So, whilst right now feels undeniably "oh, for fuck's sake", I also know that it's not forever, because as I said, sometimes I leave that booth feeling like "I'M SO EXCITED TO GET THESE OUT". So, truly, to myself and to you guys, lean in to the motions. 

 If you're experiencing anything similar or you're just feeling shitty in general - I hear you. It sucks. It's painful and you just wanna slap yourself out of it. And whilst I'm not an expert on human behaviour by any means, I have learnt some things during my small stint of existence. 

So, to quote my fabulous, wise and most helpful counsellor - "being kind to yourself is the essence of healing". 

So, let's be kind to ourselves, whatever's going on, whatever we're dealign with - we need to show compassion, understanding and kindness towards us as people. It's the only one way to truly grow as a person. 

And if you're rolling your eyes, feeling the urge to tell me to "fuck off" - I get it. Self-care and kindness is hard and that's why so few of us do it. So, work on it, slowly, small steps, but do it - because no one else can, because you need it, because you deserve it. 

Best wishes, 

Tea