PLS READ IMPORTANT UPDATES: health and rewards + all the bad things

Hey there, my Cosmian lovelies!

First off a big thank you for being here, especially now!
I know I’ve been supes quiet (almost TOO quiet) recently. I hope you haven't been too worried, I haven’t been kidnapped by Hydra and I’m not in solitary confinement from my double life as a sexy jewel thief...
Nope, nothing so exciting, I’m afraid. My radio silence is due to: BEING SUPER FUCKING SICK!
(Big shocker, I know!)

Let me ‘splain in TLDR format: I had serotonin syndrome all of January, and then akathisia, and then med withdrawals. It was hell on earth and some of the worst shit I've been through. I explain more in my GoFundMe (specifically update 3 here https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-give-clara-back-her-hands ) please read if you can, but the Cole’s Notes is that it has been an entire 2020 of Clara and The Horrible, No Good Bad Time. The good news is that thanks to an overwhelming amount of support from our community the GoFundMe is well on its way to having enough moneys for me to take some time off my hard hustle and grind... which is great timing as my medical professionals have very much advised me to take time off work to focus on health treatments and recovery for several weeks at least.

I've been in denial of the toll work was taking on my physical and mental health, and stubbornly continued to push through as I kept getting sicker as life clobbered me with a big spiky stick made of All The Bad Things. All I was doing was working, to the point I couldn't even take time to video chat with a friend or something and I kept thinking if I could just get past this latest life explosion I would have my head above water enough to manage to support myself and catch up on my work but I just kept getting hit with a strangely large number of bad luck happenings in my life (especially around my health!) and never got that breath of air I was waiting for. When I was almost hospitalized again a few weeks ago it was a big wakeup call that I’ve finally had to tap out so I can take time to heal properly.

So what’s that mean for you? Bottom line is I'm still honouring all the reward commitments, but as I’m currently too sick to work, unfortunately they’re still going to take a bit more time to be delivered. It breaks my heart how behind my ill health made me get despite working my ass off and I've been struggling with a lot of guilt and anxiety around it (which I'm sure anyone that also struggles with mental health issues can see how easy it is to spiral with sigh). I'm really lucky that I've got patrons that understand the importance of having to look after my failing health and I'm really grateful for how incredibly patient and understanding everyone has been already. I hate to ask for even more of it but I hope you understand why I need to.

So now that I'm too sick make and release any new content I've made the tough decision to pause my patreon (ironically on my 2 year anniversary which stings a bit I'll admit).
This means that all charges will be suspended until its restarted in several months time when I'm fit to work. Currently the plan is three months pause, to be extended indefinitely as depends on my health. Of course I'll do my best to keep everyone updated during this time, and I'll make a post and individually message everyone before I'm ready to restart so you won't be surprised by a charge!

So for extra Claraty no one will be charged after today but you still remain a Patron which means you can still browse the archives, be apart of this great community and see the posts and updates I still plan to make here as I'm in recovery. I've missed you all terrible these last few weeks and I don't want to go through my recovery without you 💕

I’ll get caught up on my rewards when my health is more stable. And although that exact time is a bit up in the air I just want to be clear this doesn't mean I'm abandoning my patrons at all! I still have big plans for this platform and I cannot wait till I'm healthy enough to catchup and relaunch! It's deepest my hope you'll stick around during this pause, as you have our other roadbumps, and be apart of this next unexpected journey with me.
If you have any questions about any of this just comment here!

FYI although I was too sick to distribute or even advertise digital content for February and March I do have it shot so fear not I'll be catching up in reverse order with digital first so they'll be released as soon as I can manage safely!

In the meantime, I’m still going to try my best to post not only some classic Clara content, but current updates too.
In case you’re wondering why I’m still even posting during all this, it’s because it’s taken me years to build my business and my brand, and even when I'm really sick, I’m gonna do the best I can to keep it afloat. I worked my ass off for five years to build my business up and I won't let it get taken away bcs of something that isn't my fault if I can help it. And as a sexy internet lady, that means I need to keep posting pretty looking content to keep things up and stop the algorithms sending my accounts to the graveyard!

On top of that my community is SO important to me. I LOVE you Cosmians! You’ve kept me going during some fucking rough times. So if I can prevent that from disappearing into the mist, I will. Plus especially in my extra debilitated state I still want to feel like a productive member of society. Even if that contribution is posting old content to try and keep people together (especially in the next little while, when a lot of people are gonna feel very isolated and lonely), that’s what my contribution will be 💪

Thank you all for understanding, and for your continued love and support - I literally wouldn't be here without you and it means everything to me! I love, appreciate, and value all of you so much.

BTW for those of you also on my onlyfans I'm going to be working on posting never before seen archived content to keep it going so I still have some little way to support myself during all this so if you miss regular lewd content (or still want to help support me financially) I'll be trying to keep it available there

Luv and spoons to you all in this scary time
Xoox
Clara

PS biggest of thank yous to my spoonie bestie Brandy (aka Overlady, you may remember my Fae shoot with her back in the summer) for helping me write this post as I've been too sick to manage it on my own (as with most things these days, sigh)