Safe
Added 2022-05-24 21:26:04 +0000 UTCCW: failed BDSM communication, dom drop, consentual impact play/whipping, tiny bit of blood & Hurt/Comfort.
Finished! I know I always talk about "SKETCH suggestions" but man, sometimes when I get my head wrapped around an idea I just feel i have to put in the effort to do it justice! And once I got the ball rolling this was an emotional joy to make.
Also, I'm gonna show my full bare ass here and be real with you: I don't know bdsm! Sure I can read fics and see art and and there are some aspects of it I've seen that I can be into but as a whole I don't feel like I understand it deep down, and sometimes - SOMETIMES- my failures to understand make me feel like, well, a silly prude to be honest with you. Like it's something I SHOULD be into, in order to be valid. I don't know why, it doesn't make sense, there's no one out there demanding these things of me, but the feeling lingers! So the reason making this little thing hit me so hard was because the more I thought about it, I felt like I wanted to channel that uncertainty that I DO understand, to depict something I DON'T understand. You know? Idk if any of that made sense, but I do like what I ended up drawing!
Many of you suggested more mermaids too, so I'll propably take the rest of the month to wind down a little bit and draw exactly that.💗,
[ Enji, Hawks, Endhawks ]
Comments
I love the way that you portray them so much. ❤️ They have such a loving and healthy (sexual)relationship.
Feyre
2023-09-09 11:16:03 +0000 UTCAnother perfect piece ;-; the eyes when he sees the blood. I am really into this stuff, but damn you made that perfectly soft in the end ♡ just great
ynot.hawks
2023-03-02 12:03:59 +0000 UTCIM CRYING THIS IS SO SWEET 😭😭😭
Blues
2022-05-28 00:15:33 +0000 UTCYour art holds as much feeling as always and I love the gentleness you used to treat the topic! also for the thought part: not having guts-deep liking/understanding in BDSM in practice sure doesn't take anything out of your art! Depicting feelings is all about how you handle your medium and you does this very VERY well, at the end your art is loved and touch a lot of people and it's what matter the most 😌 it's very honnest and courageous of you to tell us about it still! though, as an ace lesbian who doesn't have any interest either for sex nor for men in practice, I'm pretty sure imagination and creativity are enough when it comes to art >:)
Mattson Cunther
2022-05-26 16:03:23 +0000 UTC🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺💛💗
marie
2022-05-26 00:52:17 +0000 UTCOh Pete, this was so emotionally captivating... and I am happy to see Enji comfort Hawks. The lil bird burrito in the end. AHHH T___T
Serpentin
2022-05-25 23:02:42 +0000 UTCThis is such a soft comfort comic! I love that you addressed the guilt you feel when you can't do something for the person you love even though you know it's something they really desire. Also don't feel guilty yourself for not understanding BDSM. I only get it on a basic level from the little I read in fics or when I researched it, but I don't grasp the concept on a personal level iykwim. Probably because I'm really afraid of pain which seems such a major part of it. I used to read fics for my last OTP for it, but the initial curiosity about the topic changed to discomfort at some point because of the violence and degradation (even if it's asked for). The only fic I read since then was more about giving up control and following orders rather than punishment and it was quite refreshing.
Ashyscribbles
2022-05-25 18:10:07 +0000 UTCI like that you drew this: a dominant isn't necessarily "strong" outside of the game.
stahl
2022-05-25 16:38:50 +0000 UTCThank you so much! And that is good to hear, the good ol’ vanilla stuff is such a comfort for me so it’s lovely to hear that it’s still welcomed as well. But still, scenarios like this are fascinating to explore, perhaps for different reasons, to scratch different itches, but still! A lot of space for both.❤️
Pete
2022-05-25 14:20:21 +0000 UTCThat means a lot, thank you so much ❤️😭
Pete
2022-05-25 14:13:30 +0000 UTCThank you!💕 i love them a stupid amount too, and more than happy to share the emotions haha 🙏
Pete
2022-05-25 14:12:07 +0000 UTCThank you so much ❤️ I can’t type out everything I imagine going on inside a character’s head in a scene like this, so hearing it comes through regardless means a lot to me!
Pete
2022-05-25 14:10:09 +0000 UTCThank you! That’s really great to hear ❤️
Pete
2022-05-25 14:07:38 +0000 UTCHaha I’ll make sure to reveal it more often then hehe…. Really happy you liked it, thank you!❤️
Pete
2022-05-25 14:05:49 +0000 UTC💕thank you! There’s a charger inside that blanket that Hawks is plugged into. Powered by the energy from soft hair strokes haha
Pete
2022-05-25 14:04:23 +0000 UTCThank you so much Ellie💕 and i gotta admit it was surprising to me as well that it won! I didn’t even know what a dom/sub drop was a couple of months ago, i just know ppl commented that I drew Jeanist having it in the jaddy comic and i was like ”uh-huh! Sure! Absolutely! No idea what that means though-” but overall I think it did me good to look into it more purposfully and truly think about that world beyond the play. And as much fun purely just sexy and fun arts are, there is something so rewarding to create and enjoy something emotionally taxing once in a while, too.
Pete
2022-05-25 13:47:24 +0000 UTCThank you! And i really appreciate the care. Thankfully I think I’m pretty comfortble in knowing where my will-not-draw limits are, but some things like this just fall more to the damn-how-the-hell-should-I-do-this category and it can still take its toll…. But i only draw something if I want to draw it. And I appreciate you emphasizing that that’s okay 💕
Pete
2022-05-25 13:39:33 +0000 UTCHahaha I loved drawing that strapon in there, somehow it swinging there in the middle of a breakdown really highlights how bizarre it all is, in a sense. Thank you!❤️
Pete
2022-05-25 13:33:12 +0000 UTC🙏💕the knife is all love!
Pete
2022-05-25 12:43:49 +0000 UTCThank you! And yessss I just find something so.... idk, intriguing? In Enji and ropes, exactly because of the trust! He can break out and stop at any time! He could be tied down with however many loops and knots and still be the one with the upper hand, easily, but he ALLOWS it because of TRUST andjdhshjsh aaaa! It's just a lovely little dynamic quirk with between them...
Pete
2022-05-25 12:42:28 +0000 UTCQuick! Grab a blanket!!
Pete
2022-05-25 12:37:56 +0000 UTCi love this 🥺 thank you for drawing this and for being honest, i'm also in the same boat where im not sure if i completely understand bdsm and or if im into it, but what you depict always resonates with me! no matter if you will continue to dip your toes into it or not, it's a joy to see what you come up with!! and i love your vanilla stuff too, maybe even personally prefer it! ✨ thank u for your hard work!!
Vaixu
2022-05-25 12:37:48 +0000 UTCOhmy god thank you 🥺 aaaaAaa I'm emotional! So happy though to hear this, that the story (even a short scene like this) can still come through in meaning! 🙏💕
Pete
2022-05-25 12:36:56 +0000 UTCThank you 🥰
Pete
2022-05-25 12:32:47 +0000 UTC😎😭🙏
Pete
2022-05-25 12:32:30 +0000 UTCThank you💕
Pete
2022-05-25 12:31:51 +0000 UTCRight! There is something so incredibly sexy about safe but raw intimacy, even beyond just the sex of it all. I'm so happy to hear you got that from the comic! Thank you so much 💕
Pete
2022-05-25 12:31:11 +0000 UTCThis is so reassuring to read, thank you! I'm glad I did the emotions justice 🙏💕
Pete
2022-05-25 12:07:24 +0000 UTC🥰💕
Pete
2022-05-25 12:05:04 +0000 UTCThank you so much! That makes me happy to hear 💕
Pete
2022-05-25 12:04:47 +0000 UTCThank you 🥰
Pete
2022-05-25 12:02:33 +0000 UTCThank you💕💕 gotta feast on that blanket wrap comfort haha
Pete
2022-05-25 12:02:01 +0000 UTCThank you so much! 🥰
Pete
2022-05-25 12:00:47 +0000 UTCThank you! 💕
Pete
2022-05-25 12:00:07 +0000 UTCPineapple is right up there with Tabitha 🍍🍆💕
Pete
2022-05-25 11:19:02 +0000 UTCkevaAAAAA 😭💕💕 Thank you so much!
Pete
2022-05-25 11:18:04 +0000 UTCOh I hear ya, thank you 😂🙏💕 and let's be real.... aren't all the best ideas always started from the sneaky "oh this could be a cool little thing" then BAM. A full ass comic or 100k fic slammed on the desk haha
Pete
2022-05-25 11:05:56 +0000 UTCOh there is SO much under the surface here left unsaid, I'd totally read your take on that 👀🙏💕💕💕 And yeah it's a weird thing! And somehow it doesn't matter that much with stuff that is so off the wall unrealistically fantastical, but then with these things that ARE real and have an established culture and etiquette around them.... somehow that's more intimidating to portray than a 40yo man getting shrunk to the size of a twink's palm haha!
Pete
2022-05-25 11:03:19 +0000 UTCNothing like a little dose of perception on a fine May tuesday 😂🙏💕 Thank you so much, I just always swoon when I see a comment point out exactly what I was going for, like yes YEESSS you get it!
Pete
2022-05-25 10:58:14 +0000 UTC🙏💕
Pete
2022-05-25 10:54:34 +0000 UTCThank you and right there with you! It can feel like such a tricky separation to navigate emotionally sometimes.
Pete
2022-05-25 10:54:22 +0000 UTCThank you! This is really rewarding to hear💕
Pete
2022-05-25 10:47:31 +0000 UTCThank you so much💕
Pete
2022-05-25 10:45:50 +0000 UTCAaaaaaaaaa thank you!!👏💕
Pete
2022-05-25 10:43:05 +0000 UTC💕💕💕
Pete
2022-05-25 10:42:28 +0000 UTCThank you 🙏💕
Pete
2022-05-25 10:42:03 +0000 UTCOh Pete, you nailed it. This was perfectly executed, and the hard stop of the safe word, the way Enji immediately saw what Hawks couldn’t and abandoned his play role to comfort his partner was expertly done. I think even if kink isn’t in your personal repertoire, that you do understand the heart of what it is about ❤️❤️
blacknoise
2022-05-25 09:29:23 +0000 UTCSweet babies 🥺🥺🥺 I love their relationship so much and you really did manage to capture their sense of trust, Pete. Fucking beautiful. Thanks for working hard on it, it can’t have been easy ♥️♥️♥️
Nat
2022-05-25 08:14:22 +0000 UTCeverything you do hits me right in some special place and crawls deep into my heart and this is no different. all of Hawks’ microexpressions are so powerful and you can see how much is going on behind his eyes. so wonderful and sweet between them, and you’ve portrayed them with such trust and devotion, it makes me weak 🥹
Ren
2022-05-25 05:14:31 +0000 UTCAs someone who been in the bdsm scene a while. I think you handled this wonderfully xxxxxx
Trash
2022-05-25 04:40:47 +0000 UTCMy heart! 🥺🥺🥺
Z
2022-05-25 04:15:21 +0000 UTCOmg i love seeing your whole bare ass, it’s so soo honest and pure and heartfelt thank you for sharing 🍑 🥺❤️ lol but honestly this is amazing I love the feeling you’ve captured, the fear and uncertainty of it all and just the acceptance and understanding ☺️❤️☺️❤️☺️ as always amazing Pete
Ppbrain❤️
2022-05-25 03:08:08 +0000 UTCOmg my heart 😭 everything about this is immaculate. The expressions, the story, the hurt 🥺 and Hawks curled in such a little ball at the end! Thank you for sharing ♥️ I can’t wait to come back and stare at this 25 more times (at the least)
writeathome
2022-05-25 02:51:24 +0000 UTCTo be honest I had originally questioned why this suggestion prompt had won the polls, considering there was most certainly going to be no smut beyond the point of the dom drop. But i'm really glad that this was a way for you to show and express something that very rarely gets shown. I used to be a mod on a kink/nsfw server, and I was put in the section where we had to comfort people, and one of my jobs was explaining what dom/sub drops were, how important aftercare was and comforting people who had dropped by accident (many didn't even know they were having a drop, and many don't know that drops can happen outside of NSFW situations as well). Drops are hard, they aren't fun, some people just end up crying, some even faint or "loose time", and the emotions it can give people hurt, feelings of guilty, weakness among many other feelings. So seeing this, I hope that many who didn't know about drops, who do engage in sexual activities (or even non-sexual ones) come to know that it's okay, it's quite often normal to have them, and that aftercare is really REALLY fucken important. Also safewords! Very important, never be afraid to use them! Or if safewords are too hard, you can use the colour system (red = stop, orange = not sure, green= good to go) Remember kids, it's not just about safe sex, it's also about remembering the dom and sub are both human and need TLC as well :) This was a really lovely comic in the end, I can't imagine how emotionally taxing it was though, so I really do hope you give yourself some TLC Pete and draw some mother fucken pretty ass mermaids~!!!
Ellie
2022-05-25 01:54:38 +0000 UTCYour work - especially comics - are always incredible and so evocative of emotionality, and this is no exception. I do hope that you don't feel compelled to do or create things you aren't comfortable with, though; your wellbeing is super important!! No shame in being into (or not into) something
Erica Paisley
2022-05-25 01:30:03 +0000 UTCThis was absolutely beautiful as always. You always draw hawks so pretty. I do love that there's this very serious scene of him freaking out over causing Endeavor harm and he just has a huge dildo strapped to him poking straight out lol
Hiruma-devil
2022-05-25 00:38:51 +0000 UTCYou are so fucking amazing at subtle facial expressions this knifed me in the heart 😭
MelAncrath
2022-05-25 00:36:33 +0000 UTCOh my. The story you show here, I’m getting misty. And the way Endeavor breaks the ropes, because he always could do that and giving this power to Hawks was about trust. The cuddles at the end <3 beautiful, this was all so very beautiful
Robin
2022-05-25 00:25:56 +0000 UTCSOBBING, CRYING, SHAKING ON THE FLOOR
tiredratman
2022-05-24 23:25:41 +0000 UTCyou are truly such an amazing storyteller! the way you convey emotion both with words and the art combined is stunning!! I seriously consider you on par, often even above "professional" comic writers or mangaka and your ability to draw on your own lived experiences and feelings, even if they aren't exactly the same as the scenario you are depicting makes it feel so real!
Adwian
2022-05-24 23:00:58 +0000 UTC😭😭 Oh baby!! So cuuute!! And it really hits close to home, we've never gotten completely into domdrop but in our Emic Mic refuses physical violence outside of impact play. Zawa wants to be physically thrashed, beaten with fists and feet and that's just something Mic won't do. Can't do. He can't shift back and forth like that, force himself to be that angry and still be a good, solid dom for Shouta. That's actually how Enji got introduced into that play.
Thiriously
2022-05-24 22:44:27 +0000 UTCI haven't looked at the art yet but I totally get where you're coming from. My husband and I actually journeyed into BDSM, my interest came from seeing the deep relationships in stories though most of the interest was my husband. He's very into shibari which I enjoy and I do have a collar collection that I want to expand. The gear is definitely my favorite part. I actually found a collar I want to buy when I was looking for a specific one for Aizawa in an RP XD In the end we were very light and stay very light, I'm adhd/autistic with a lot of sensory issues and anxiety. Sometimes I'll ask for a shibari session just to feel the indescribable feelings that go with it. But for the most part I have low interest, low sex drive and I just don't make a good partner for him. We find our own way, of course and we are searching out a partner for him that can fulfil that part of him that I can't. We are a very strong couple and we communicate thoroughly and we're both happy with life even if none of that happens. But! To the part that's actually relevant and not TMI as hell... I love writing BDSM, my friend currently can't get into Hawks due to her mental health not being cared for so we haven't died.... DIVED in with them. But we have done scenes with Tsunagu and Enji on the comfort, confidence building side. Tsunagu is definitely his emotional support daddy x33 But in particular we go DEEP with EraserMic. And it is hard to know if you're doing it right especially getting into deep deep stuff. And it's really hard to really find information. There is a lot about contracts and such but that doesn't really fit a couple that's been married half their lives. So I kinda just find my own way and google specific things I need. Since we lean heavy towards impact play with a brat sub like Zawa I DID learn a lot about that, I actually found a lady on youtube that does demonstrations on dummies, really neat! But we learned like what tools are used for what and where and why. I learned quite a lot, I was surprised how much was a danger zone given my years of seeing fictional discipline and that a lot of it that was displayed was very serious and damaging. I really love digging into stuff I'm ignorant about. I was just talking to FishSticky recently about doing something genital removal sided with Enji. He'd been attacked and raped by Dabi and lost his arm and anywhere considered a sexual organ was destroyed. It was a really interesting journey learning about how all that works and what he would go through in his recovery and what his life would be like after. I really like RPing En-chan in those really serious medical situations, it just brings out all his sides and his vulnerability and brings their cute little family together lead by chirpy Hawks and I just really love it. I've learned about impact play, electricity injuries, PTSD, kid attitude disorders, tourrettes, what's realistically possible with insomnia (*squints at Levi Ackerman*) and honestly more then I could ever really say. I've learned so much from writing just in MHA, not to mention the several animes that came before it. Digging your teeth in and learning can be full of anxiety and I can't imagine how it is like you sharing with hundreds and thousands of people and leaving your mistakes out in the open. But honestly... That discovery creates the best and most thrilling time no matter what your art is. I really look forward to seeing what you've cooked up here!
Thiriously
2022-05-24 22:39:57 +0000 UTCThe hurt on hawks face, poor baby I know how he feels. The way you do shading and lighting always hits me in the best way.
Katelovesvlogg
2022-05-24 22:34:44 +0000 UTCoh hell yes
maggiekarp
2022-05-24 22:17:56 +0000 UTCThings like this need more attention. Its not all ssexy amd works out perfectly. Sometimes people have limits and discomforts . This is a fantastic piece Pete. Great job
Ghost
2022-05-24 22:13:02 +0000 UTCThis is gorgeous and so hot. Like there physical sexy and theres emotional intimacy sexy. Theres the genuine heat of feeling safe and comfortable enough TO safeword out. That should be a given but some of the time it unfortunately isn’t. This is such a beautiful scene and i love that you shared it with us. Thank you so much.
Emz
2022-05-24 22:10:50 +0000 UTCThis is beautifully done Pete, as someone who is into bdsm and has experienced dom drop quite badly this is experience this is beautiful written and drawn the emotions are beautiful shown. You've done amazingly Pete!
Swiftkill
2022-05-24 22:06:15 +0000 UTCPETE IM CRYINGG!!😭😭😭 This was so beautiful and well-written!!
ElderberryElias
2022-05-24 22:02:28 +0000 UTCBeautifully done!! The emotions were so raw, they were jumping out at us. Loved every bit of this. Thank you for your hard work as always!!!
Haha Hala
2022-05-24 21:57:24 +0000 UTCThis hits me in my core I love it so much, this is just a beautiful? You do great things, and even if you don't know things it shows that you put like at least some research into it? And that's like a great, but also this is like it's a hard comfort like feels right here? And it's great
Fall (Layne)
2022-05-24 21:52:26 +0000 UTCPETE THIS IS SO GOOD IT'S UNFAIR This is the best hurt/comfort, the communication, the bird blanket burito????! I couldn't ask for any better 😭💚
HexLex
2022-05-24 21:48:34 +0000 UTCAaaaw our little bird seems so SMOLL. Really I love the panel where Endeavor asks him what's wrong, you really show the full atmosphere switching it's perfect !!! Great job here and even if you don't know, you definitely do it nicely !
June
2022-05-24 21:45:14 +0000 UTCPete, you're amazing! This is so so beautiful. I love how you capture such complex emotions and the expressions are so visceral. Knocked it out of the park. ❣️
Cath
2022-05-24 21:44:16 +0000 UTCAhhhhhhhh Peeeeettteeeeee. This was so wonderful 😭😭😭 But also the legacy of pineapple continues and it brings a tear to my eye 😭😭😭
Koi
2022-05-24 21:42:44 +0000 UTCOKAY My jaw just dropped at the top notch art and the emotional roller coaster I didn’t recognize I needed, But the way you illustrated the feelings you mentioned, and the way you channeled that so vividly through this comic ….Your intelligence give me goosebumps, Pete🫂!!!!
Liltkeva
2022-05-24 21:40:43 +0000 UTCBoy howdy, you aren't the only one to have ideas about things you know nothing about. As long as there's a smidgen if research, and you don't half ass it, you should be good. As for starting with a "sketch idea" that takes over... Apparently that's how I write my fics, lol. This is the third time a "Hey, what if?" has bloomed into a full fledged fic. So I get it. All that being said! I like your bare ass... I mean Enji's bare ass! I mean, I like the way you draw bare asses? You get what I'm trying to say.
sleepdeprivedtechie .
2022-05-24 21:40:25 +0000 UTCAhhhhhhhhh this was so good 😭 As someone who writes so many things I’ve not done/am not into I completely understand what you’re saying in feeling like a sham. But this comic is good man. The nuances in the expressions makes it. I kinda wanna write a fic for this and go deeper into Hawks’ thoughts. You can tell there’s so much there bubbling to the surface
Blue
2022-05-24 21:37:18 +0000 UTCThis is so wonderful and made me feel so much. The uncertainty and the desperation to just do a good job and do something for someone else, and the feeling of failure when you can't are so relatable and PALPABLE in this. Thank you for drawing this, Pete. I feel a little more seen than I was expecting to on a random Tuesday afternoon ❤️❤️
taylalynn
2022-05-24 21:35:47 +0000 UTCOh my god this is perfect
MagpieCrime Fancy
2022-05-24 21:34:42 +0000 UTCIf it makes you feel any better Pete, me too. I enjoy seeing BDSM in art and am supportive of people who have it as their kink irl, but the thought of actively taking part in irl BDSM makes me feel really sick and on edge. Think I've seen too much and asexual awkwardness. Love your work 💗
Teddie
2022-05-24 21:32:52 +0000 UTCAwwwwhhhh 🥺
Becks
2022-05-24 21:32:46 +0000 UTCI absolutely love the array of emotions you managed to put on Hawks' face. You can see the emotional turmoil he's going through, you did a fantastic job. ❤
Sunshine
2022-05-24 21:31:39 +0000 UTCYour story telling is so wonderfully paced, the expressions and dialog is incredible. Such a great comic capturing so much emotion ❤️ I know next to nothing of BDSM as well, but you’ve done a great job.
Ryley Olson
2022-05-24 21:30:04 +0000 UTCpunching the air, I love them so much your honor
doon 🪬
2022-05-24 21:29:15 +0000 UTCThis 👏🏻 is 👏🏻 fucking 👏🏻 phenomenal 👏🏻
Sydmicky
2022-05-24 21:29:15 +0000 UTCBeautiful art. I just love what you do with them.
TheCottonCandyZombie
2022-05-24 21:28:30 +0000 UTC
