WAIIIIIIIIT - Do we actually believe this stuff?

This is going to sound dumb!

I'm still new to spirituality and belief in the "universe" (meaning like, the universe instead of god, we are all connected type universe - not planets, I know those were always there). 

And if you actually read these, you know that I grew up with faith of any kind and had reached a point where I lost my hope. I am def more open, I have been reading and taking in this type of stuff and I would even say I'm kind of onboard. Doing these things, talking about them, doing the reading has gotten me to a place of balance and contentment that I've never had prior. 

So, I get random stuff like what I have posted above on my IG explore page every now and then. I don't know ANYTHING about numerology so I really don't pay attention to those. I tend to like the little quotes that remind me how much of a badass I am. LOL

But they've been popping up but only with 1 number on them.  11:11 and I hadn't taken much notice really. I may have read a couple but without focus so I totally forgot what they said. 

But I was just sitting at my desk and my phone vibrated so I look over and it doesn't even look like my regular clock. The screen went full black with just the numbers 11:11. When I picked it up and tapped my finger to unlock the phone it took longer than normal - until after it switched to 11:12. 

WHAT THE HECK?!?!?!?!??!?

I looked it up and that's what it said about it. 

Does this stuff really happen? Like for real? Is this real? Or am I crazy?

Kinda freakyyyyyyyyyyyy. 

I also think about those really spiritual women who tell stories like this (meaning the ones I see on TV), and they're always so calm. They're so open to the universe and relaxed. Living in completely balance. And they tell the stories so lovingly like "Oh yes dear, the universe is speaking to me. It's telling me that I'm on the right path. We should def continue with our joureny."

But things like this happen to me and I freak the hell out. 

Like I totally stop and I get all wide eyed and I'm looking around to see if anyone else saw it. And I'm testing the phone to see if it's broken or if it will do it again. And then I'm just like....sitting in my chair looking around waiting to see if anything else freaky happens. Like if there's fucking ghosts or something. 

LOL