Faye Daniels

Situational Depression

Added 2019-12-08 15:34:43 +0000 UTC

For the last couple of weeks I haven't made any headway in my creative projects. On top of that I haven't shot anything in weeks. I haven't done any actual work on my art website either.

I've been really angry at myself because of this.

In therapy last week I expressed this and how I wished I could be better at getting over things. The camera stuff and the tax stuff that happened/is happening, I have no control over. None, however I wish knowing that could make me bounce back quicker.

I wish I could give myself a time limit. Like, ok - you have one day to feel down/bad/sad about this shit and then tomorrow it's back to fucking work! Only, the emotional side of me simply wont listen to that logic. I'm going on two weeks and today is my first day feeling semi-better about it.

Reading this article this morning made me feel a bit better because it made me feel as though I'm not the only one that goes through it and sometimes that's all I need. Knowing I'm not the only person who isn't the most creatively productive all the time and sometimes to say "THIS FUCKING SUCKS" with me when things happen but I can't change them.

Anyways....today I feel good. Today I might go to the office and get some things done. I feel hopeful about today.