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It's funny, the other day someone was speaking to me and asked me if I did OnlyFans or any other "model" sites. I said no because I wasn't a model and I didn't much care for showing my tits and ass most of the time. I was always trying to convey feeling through my body, through movement, through light. I wanted you to look at my photo and get a feeling, or understand the feeling I must have felt. It's odd to speak about - I don't know if I want the photo to have a feeling (within itself), to give you a feeling or to make you understand what I was feeling - may, I only care that there is feeling? 

That got me thinking, in general - I've been thinking of painting lately, only in a completely different way than I have ever before. I started thinking about expressionists who have always been my favorite. I started thinking about paintings that embodied feeling and the artists whom do that best in my opinion are Rothko, Basquiat and Bacon. 

Bacon being my favorite. 

I remember seeing his paintings in person and I am pulled to them each and every time. If I walk into a room with many paintings it's as if my soul feels his work and brings me there specifically to sit in the emotion of it. 

Maybe I like it because I feel very bare most of the time, walking through life. I used to have all this armor on but since I've found vulnerability I feel just that, bare. I feel soft and exposed all the time. With that I also always feel in danger of something piercing through me. In Bacon's work I see the same thing - the bareness, but it's different because he sees and fully takes in the danger, violence and evil of the world. 

Anyways, all that to say I thought about Bacon and I'm watching this little doc on him today while I eat lunch and I am sharing it with you because you may like it. 

Enjoy your day!

......my blogs don't often have a point, they are never well written, it's more just streaming thoughts in my head *shrug