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Day 275 — ADHD is Hard.

Day 275 — ADHD is Hard.

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Probably most of us ADHDrs) completely get how SERIOUSLY hard it is to get out the door on time..... but probably even more of us understand the thoughts and emotion you share hear. The tools you share may help a good portion of your followers, but the emotional connection will help 100%. Thanks for sharing 🙏 Understanding as helpful to

Nurse John

I just found How to ADHD, getting out the door on time is incredibly challenging for me. Your content is really good, and deeply appreciated. At times because I deeply relate to what you are sharing, at times because it confirms that my "short comings" aren't simply I'm not doing good enough. At times it confirms that ways I have been approaching some of the challenges are on the mark. Even with all that, the getting out the door on time video is one that I'm not ready for just yet. I have tried so hard in the past to get out on time, and in order to make that happen, 95% of the time I would have to cut things off abruptly, and often leave things undone in order to leave on time. It has over the years become a massive wall of awful that I often need stress to force myself through, and high stress for too long can take an incredible toll if it isn't counterbalanced with good things / experiences. Hopefully I will soon be in a place I can watch it.

Nate

You have the most beautiful soul I believe I’ve ever encountered. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything you do and for just being an amazing person. Stay strong little one. You may not believe in yourself at times, but we all believe in you.

Roger Corley

Eh, forgot something... surprised? No? Hmm, well at least ACT like it! 😜 Those brainstorms would be where you get the details for the content of your videos. P.S. - You are seriously helping me SO much!!! I have some pretty serious medical issues going on right now, and I not only learn from you, but I’m also pleasantly entertained at the same time! Sending you lots of hugs, love, and at least few of my spoons (I would give you more, but again, there’s a budget I need to listen to... 🥄 🥄🥄🥄🥄

Susan K Findley

Jessica, first of all ((((a million gentle hugs))))! Second, I’m a little late to this party, since I only discovered you a couple weeks ago (gasp! 😳), so I haven’t yet gotten through every video and every comment on each video. Nor have I gotten through much on your Patreon yet, but I’m glad that I can support you even a little for the immeasurable magnitude of the hope that you impart through each of your videos. I wish I could help more, but my budget, fed only by my not-that-high, fixed income really doesn’t allow for more expenses right now. Third (is this point REALLY the third one? I lost count...), if you EVER would like to create compassionate brainstorms out of our ADHD experiences, I would be HONORED to FaceTime (up to you) with you so we could bounce our ADHD baggage off one another! Besides, misery loves company, right? 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗

Susan K Findley

Just watched this, and earlier today I was discussing with my therapist how HARD it is for me to develop and stick with a routine, even though I REALLY crave having a routine! I also totally get everything that you’re struggling with, but you are NOT alone, and I’m so glad I found you and that you are down to earth and “real” because now I no longer feel that I’m alone, and I actually feel “normal” compared to other “brains”! Don’t compare yourself to neuro-typical brains, even though it’s hard not to when you struggle. I totally understand what you’re going through, and I’m so thankful that you’ve been able to push through to create and provide us with such viable content!!! You rock!!!

Elizabeth Clark

I didn't realise that pressing enter would, you know, send my comment. I know, watching your video's, I was sobbing because I've felt so annoyed with myself since my Nan died, its' like my brain doesn't want to co--operate at all. I'm so grateful to you, and your channel. But only so long as it benefits YOU TOO.

Lexy Barrable

Jess, I'm a new Patreon and I just found your channel. I understand that you're feeling rough right now, and next month you'll probably feel like this too. But you are MORE than your ''failings'' you are more than the quirky girl on youtube, you're more than this channel and I appreciate it, I appreciate you so much but if it's hurting you, more than it's helping you - I don't want you to do it. Maybe that's backwards, because the happiness and joy that you've brought just myself even, I'll miss out, I'll feel more alone but I don't want you to feel like this! You deserve the world, you deserve everything you've dreamt of - unfortunately what we deserve and what we end up with.

Lexy Barrable

I really wish i could just fund you now. Seems Patreon wont’t deduct until the end of the month? Found you this past weekend, and I love this video you talk about here, and every other one I’ve watched! Thank you so much. It is so very helpful and you are making a difference. I hope that putting it ALL down on paper allows you to get some perspective on the “failures” and helps you reallize you were doing the best you could with what you knew or could access or remember at the time.

Tina from Berkeley

Best of luck to you and thanks for referring patients to Jess’s videos!

Jenn

Thank you so much for sharing this.

Jenn

Yep. Uhuh. Yep. I cry my way through most of your episodes. I got diagnosed in college 26 years ago. I've done meds several times but always quit after several months because it's too hard to see the doctor to get the prescription. I've read it all, including "ADD A Different Perception" when it was brand new. I'm just now, slowly, starting to find acceptance for my "lazy stupid, horrid, loser" self . That's in large part due to your videos. My favorite right now is the "Wall of Awful". Now, when I'm wasting 10 minutes at work trying to make a simple phone call, I have a name for it. "It's my wall of awful again. It'll fade in a minute." You're teaching me tolerance and self-forgiveness.

Wendy

It doesn't get easier. It just doesn't. Just know that we know that.

Eric Enniawl

Sending you so much love and gratitude. I just turned 45. I was diagnosed only a few months ago. But the day before my psychologist suggested I might want to look into it (and showed me one of your videos) I had googled "How do I do executive function for my kids when I can't do it for myself." I have 5 kids, two sets of twins. At least 2 have ADHD too (diagnosed after me at 17). Quite likely all of them do and my DH too but he won't look into it yet. I've accomplished a lot in some ways but our lives are stressful and anxiety runs rampant. We're all night owls, none of us seem to be able to stick to a routine. So here I am in bed, surrounded by my journals and calendars and planners (with a fractured ankle - don't go down stairs checking voicemail) trying to figure out how we're going to manage a new school for two kids and a new job for me starting on Tuesday and fighting with my DH about routines and looking down the barrel at all my past failings and all the morning battles... We have a lot of good things going too but this daily life stuff is brutal. Your videos have helped us understand ourselves so much better and explained so much. Thank you for all that you are doing. Your honesty and your courage. Digging so deep in these tender places every episode must be so hard and exhausting. For us they provide so much relief and hope and understanding. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts. ❤️

Kirsten Goa

If I have an appointment of any kind- I'm rarely late. That's from 14 years in the US Army. BUT- my hard part is believing in myself in many other ways. I've been toying with starting my own VLOG or maybe a podcast... but I struggle with "will anyone watch/listen?" What do I call it? I've toyed with this for over a year now- and maybe not starting it yet happened because this year has been a wild ride. My husband is deployed- thankfully he's in the states and we can talk every day at least. But his mom is now moving in with us- Sept 14th!!! I've been scrambling with decluttering- so that she will have a place to put her towels & linens, a drawer in the bathroom.... My husband took leave to come home and turn my son's old room - it was a dragon lair- into an appropriate space for his mom. This required me clearing the room of all I could before he came home & then him using a belt sander on the walls as I had put a brick pattern on there with a glaze. It took me a week to recover. It seems like everything new is always a hard start. Also I've cleaned up one area to mess up another... I've decluttered a lot of stuff- but it's still not enough. I want to be able to get back to crafting- I love to scrapbook, do mixed media, etc... but I've not been able to get back to it. :( Why is it when there is a change- I basically derail and spend more time picking up the pieces than moving forward... T

Charlene Ricketts

Ok, you have me crying. I am new to the realization that my routines are always needing to change and it is overwhelming but at least I am giving myself the permission to be okay with that and not beat myself up over it. Thank you...

Dana Lawrie

This is me! Thank you! We love me things and always think this new thing/idea is going to be our game changer. The new me. But it's just a band-aid. Temporary fix. But as you have said otherwise we would get bored. Stay strong!

Robert Silvestro

This vlog has so been resonating with me. I’m so sorry for the pain you’re feeling, and you are totally making sense to me.

Diane Welsh

Sigh...IT IS HARD, GETTING OUT THE DOOR! Not only do we need to check that everything needed for the day is in our bag as well as our "get up and go" for the day. Not too mention that niggling feeling we've forgotten something if things are not in place to get things done once we are out the door. So for mine at a minimum, KEYS ARE ALWAYS IN ONE PLACE TO COLLECT AND DROP OFF IN HOME. There you can build your own routine. HUGS <3

Kelda Kellie

Hi Elizabeth. I like what you said. Do you also do acceptance and compassionate therapy? You remind what my psychologist always say to me and I really loved it.

CHOSIC

I’m typing this done as I lying in my car. I managed to get up after an hour of my grandmother’s yelling & feeding breakfast to me in bed. I drove to school but cannot get out of my car. Today is just a normal day and I have no idea why getting off the car is so difficult. What is even more difficult is how I can achieve my dream of completing my research project, go and get a PhD scholarship and achieve being a research scientist. I do not know if I can walk that far. But when I look back, I can’t imaging how I did it through uni, and being the first in the family to do a science degree. The fact that I’m not feeling well today does not turn down the fact that I’ve been working so hard and achieved so many. I want to share this with you because you are an amazing person Jessica. You are absolutely talented and you’ve done so well so far. If you feel tired, it’s okay to take a break. You are still who you are, and our love for you will not change.

CHOSIC

This vlog came at just the right time for me. As a new school year is starting for my kids and I am on the hunt for a new job in a new career I am feeling the stress of getting, not just myself, but EVERYONE out the door on time. There are many mornings that feel like an epic fail even when we are on time. Thank you for your vulnerability & your willingness to face that head-on for this page.

Sara Ebberts

You helped me with this vlog. Somehow I keep forgetting I am not the only one struggling. Getting out of the door on time is a often recurring struggle for me. You are also not the only one struggling with this. Don’t forget!

Meinaart

We love you, Jessica. Thank you.

Timothy Underwood

Thank you for sharing all you are feeling. Your videos are incredible but so are your vlogs. This vlog helped me just as much as one of your videos. :)

Lisa Magro

How to get out the door is NOT a nothing topic. It's the #1 thing that has made me feel bad about myself in my adult life. The good old 'why can everyone else get their shit together and get to work on time, but I'm a chaotic mess and arrive places feeling like I've been dumped out of a laundry shute?' I know none of these topics are easy to confront, and you have to go deeper than you ever share with us in a video, but you help us all so much. Your chaos, your curiosity, your talking about your hard times (and your fun times) are what help us feel like we are ok. We appreciate what you do so much more than you know (even when we tell you, because words can only scratch the surface of how much you help us all) xxx

Clare Robinson

You are amazing. When I watched your TEDx talk I cried. Your struggles are not yours alone, please remember that. Thanks for your hard work, you are right that it is important.

Charlotte

Thank you so much for sharing - I am consistently amazed at how well you put together your videos and I appreciate them so much, just like all the other people here. You have gotten me through some difficult times, and I can't thank you enough! Take good care of yourself and practice self-compassion <3 And I can't wait for the next episode, cause the struggle of getting out of the house in time or at all to start my day is still my biggest struggle to date.

Claudia Glemser

Thank you for sharing! ~hug~

Squiggle

Sigh... yeah, some days are just really difficult. Mine was yesterday - I was just so overwhelmed that I couldn't get started. As others have stated, we just appreciate you so much, and that you're out there for us. I imagine you feel the pressure of a deadline looming, and that magnifies the awful dread. Just remember, we all love you and look up to you. You have more gifts than you even know, and they shine through. I'm glad you're not perfect... that would make us aspire to the unobtainable. Also, we're all BRAINS! Most of us probably wouldn't know if you missed a post. It's a lot of pressure. Frankly, I contribute because of who you are... not because of some high expectation of future content. I love your post; vulnerable, truthful, and real. A great lesson for all of us. Thank you!

Kevlar

Continued - We do have pretty cool cool superpowers too. Sorry for the break in my comment - my car knocked my phone! 😻 I’m sure you can relate) please get some rest - we are sending virtual hugs 🤗

Kelly Marchal

The fact that you complete this episodes is pretty amazing to me. Starting with a blank page, making it personal, gathering all the input, getting the insights, pulling together the script and visuals... and then there’s actually getting it over the finish line! Your video on self compassion was perfect as I had an especially slow morning today and got to my office at 1130 am. You are right - it’s hard, really hard sometimes. And I agree, I wouldn’t trade this - the

Kelly Marchal

Jessica, yes, more than a few of us cried with you. We know the struggle is real, and we know that as polished as your youtube videos come out, we know how extremely tough that road is. Going into our mind, facing our mistakes and failures, to figure out how to deal with it and move forward, is a big process and a never ending challenge. Everything you do, for us, for the ADHD community, to spread the awareness and clue people into the challenges that are unique to us, it is all loved and appreciated by every single one of us. Jessica, success never happens without mistakes or failures, which is easy to say but tough to actually deal with sometimes. Look at all of us here, supporting what you do, believing in you, that love you and cry with you. It takes a really strong person to do what you are doing, and put it out in the world. But, we wouldn't be here without you, you haven't just built a following, you've built an extended family here. (Group hug!)

Jason H

Second, I discovered your channel because I was looking for ways to help my grandson but as I learned more about ADHD I shared it with my 12 year old daughter. She watched and said “hey! That’s me!” I had her make a list of ADHD symptoms and then highlight all she felt applied to her... 14/15 of the most common. So we are going for testing soon. But even better, we learned ways to work together on the strategies you provide. So, thank you for that too! Now, when she feels like a meltdown is coming we can talk it out and work through whatever it is that’s making her feel overwhelmed. Finally, I want to say that in light of your recent share about your divorce... please make sure you’re taking good care of you. Get rest, talk to others, rebuild your routines just as you’ve instructed others. You’re very smart and wise. Trust what you KNOW and allow yourself to grieve. You’ve had a loss of what was AND what you dreamed of, hoped and planned, so your future self deserves a little mourning too. Above all, hang onto your true, beautiful self. You’re worth every ounce of your own investment! Big HUG!

Candy Russell

Coming out of “lurk” mode to let you know that I (like so many others) appreciate what you do SO MUCH. You were instrumental in helping me realize, while researching how best to help my 1st-grader through his ADHD struggles, that my own “character flaws” were signs of ADHD in myself. Now he and I both have diagnoses, and we’re both medicated, and I am SO GRATEFUL for what you do in helping us realize that our struggles are valid. Now he doesn’t have to learn everything the hard way, and I can come to terms with my own quirks. I’ve been chronically late for my entire life (wait, I’m not the only one?!), so I’m also looking forward to hearing your thoughts on that. :D

Diana M Schnuth

First, thank you for your vulnerability. It isn’t easy but you’re doing it.

Candy Russell

Yeah. What you said about having tools that work, and then having them stop working -- damn that's one of the hardest things to live with sometimes. Thanks for your honesty, for your persistence. Thanks for bringing us all together. Group hug!

Kristina D Knight

* Hugs Hugs Hugs * From a stranger and newer follower / Patron, but also so very much a Brain... and one who works in her field of passion and feels like a failure--so much a failure--because "I have this project, there's nothing I don't love about this project... why can't I start it?..." while all the failed projects pile their gravestones on me, suffocating me emotionally and physically from the anxiety. And getting out the door is, honestly, a trauma situation that sometimes has me stuck crying in the car because I can't executive function driving until pretty much a hard reset of forced meditation or something because I can't do anything else. So, I'm sorry the pain and awful parts are hitting you so hard right now. You are definitely not alone, and I'm sure more than a few of us have also grabbed our tissues and cried with you while watching. <3

Trisha Wooldridge

These struggles have been particularly intense for me as well lately. I get so tired and distressed that I have extra struggles that come with things I see so many around me tackle so much more simply and that’s not to say some things are not difficult for anyone but there is a complexity to the path I need to take that others don’t and it feels really defeating because it takes additional energy and resources that can be difficult to replenish and seems like a job or goal never gets accomplished when your in a world that moves along faster than you can keep up. I too wish there was a “fix”. Some days I don’t see the answer in tools I’ve adopted or being kinder to myself but I can say, like other’s commenting here, you are certainly not alone and your feelings on this a 100 percent valid. Here’s to a bit of solidarity. Thanks for all you do.

Wen Berlin

Jessica, Thank you for all you do. Your channel has helped me so much with so many different things. And I am looking forward to a video on leaving the house on time. It sounds easy in theory however it is something I have struggled with for years. I'm never on time...ever. I just want you to know how meaningful and important your videos are to me. I have been diagnosed with ADHD very recently. And your videos help alot.

Erin Schnitzer

Hang in there! I'm rooting for you, and so are a lot of other people. The thing that's always helped me more than even any of the tips is seeing you up in screen and saying "Hey, she's like me."

Joanna Huffaker

Dear Jessica, you’re not alone. I will struggle all my life with was appears so simple to others : not being late. « Just get out of home sooner », they say. It sure makes our everyday life harder. Sometimes we fail. Well, just remember that any time you succeed, it shows not only that you can be on time, but that you’re courageous, persistent, that you believe in your ability to get better and act on it. Those qualities are not that common and you can be proud you're that person.

Elise Dupeyrat

t's ok to not be ok. Your right were not like anyone else but, their also not like us. The difference is that we have different challenges to overcome and how we confront those challenges and adapt to them is so important. We are truly a remarkable sort. I don't for one moment believe you have failed. On the contrary, you have confronted and overcame the challenges. But what makes it truly exceptional is that you care enough to help others by building a strong community, Remember, the world is not made for us. It is made for the neurotypical among us. Ask yourself, the things your thinking. What would you tell your best friend if they were feeling this way? Your not alone and please take care of yourself today... you deserve it.

Elizabeth Steinke

Thank you so much for making your regular channel videos as well as these updates. I've only recently begun watching your videos but they are incredibly inspiring and helpful in so many ways.

Marco Perri

You're not alone, and we heckin' love you, and understand your struggles Personally, you're the reason I learnt about ADHD, the reason I started accepting myself and the reason that today, I love myself despite my failings, and also the reason I've revived my dreams. I'm not alone in that, in fact, far from it. You mean a lot to a lot of people, I just want you to know that

The person reading this is sexy and epic

Your work helps so many people, and while these seem like simple things to the rest of the world you are not alone. I 'm looking forward to your episode on how to get out the door. I am routinely ten minutes late to work. My boss had the fabulous tip of leaving ten minutes earlier. (He didn't mean it in a mean way. He was trying to be helpful) But you, and the rest of our tribe know, that some how, some way, it's not that easy. Somehow. Many hugs and know that you putting yourself and your struggles out there are helping many many people. Also, your videos help both brains and hearts. I often struggle to explain to my neurotypical friends and family why x is still an issue, I have on occasion shown them your videos in lieu of, or in addition to, explaining it myself. You are making the world a much better, and a much more understanding and inclusive place!

Cortland Bob Grzywinski

And keep up with your excellent and important work. I empathise with your struggle. Thank you for sharing. It is comforting because most days I also struggle with getting started, organised, keeping on track, not getting overwhelmed with things I have to do. You are right, no matter which ingenious tricks, apps, skills, medication we try, getting stuff done often turns out an upward struggle , Again, thank you for inspiration.

Eirik Moltu

In my better moments, I try to remind myself of a rephrased version of that quote by Edison - "I have not failed. I've found a thousand ways NOT to make a light bulb". Then, after spending 15 minutes searching online for the *actual* quote (and a few more minutes confirming the source if I can), I remember that many of my compensation techniques are works in progress. I'm allowed to experiment and find other (hopefully better!) ways of doing things. And those thousand versions before? They tell me what doesn't work for me. And I know from introspection what parts of that version before didn't work. I can take the pieces from them that I liked, that I know worked for me, and fit them into the new puzzle of my next version. There's other things, but I would end up rambling, and no need to punish you like that. Also wanted to say this - huge hugs. You are wonderful and strong. And human. I am so appreciative of all the amazing work you've done. Really. Oh, and cool side note: that pseudo-quote also works with "brownies" instead of "light bulbs". Just sayin'.

Pete Guion

Getting out the door is hard... My SO leaves himself no wiggle room in the morning... If you ever need a pick up you can always pop into discord and get the quarters you need... You got this girl <3

Melissa Rosano

Thank you for all the work you put in for these videos. I am sorry that it is so hard for each video, that sounds very rough. Wish you all the best, and all the self care you can manage. Thanks again for the help you've given us!

Chris James

Jessica, that was beautiful. We all have failings, we have to conquer them and be better than them. You motivate everyone who watches your videos and let's face it Jessica, you are the best. I always look forward to your videos, be they on the main channel or on here, the main channel is full of helpful stuff and the gritty coal face reality of ADHD that we all suffer from from time to time. Don't be afraid to tell the app developers how they can improve their app to your needs, because they can adapt to you, or if they can't another one will be able to make something that works best for you. Maybe one day there will be a How to ADHD app for us too! Just remember to take care of yourself.

John Crowhurst

I look forward to your video about getting out the door in time. I get up in time but always end up running out the door with bag, jacket, keys, papers and stuff dropper off me. No small topic. Your YouTube channel has been important to me since I discovered it last Christmas. A revelation. I recommend when ever I have the opportunity, to other professionals and clients. .

Eirik Moltu

I want you to know what these videos mean to me. You were the first person I found online who basically says everything that I think about myself and about my life. I haven’t been officially diagnosed yet (having trouble getting started on the process), but I recognize a life of being scatterbrained and assuming that I just wasn’t trying hard enough. That I was just lazy. I tried for 30+ years to change and to be like everybody else and it wasn’t until last year that it even occurred to me that it maybe wasn’t my own personal failing. You showed me that it is possible to be a grown up and find a way through the fog. All of your videos, even the ones that seem like throw always give me ideas, tricks I can try, and hope. They let me know that I’m not alone. That matters. So much. Thank you for your struggle. The effort is worth it. ❤️

Andrea Crossett

I am already donating $5.00 a month to you just in case nobody knows and wonders why I'm not, which I am and I hope it helps :-)

Kae(NWPA)

Jess, big huge hugs. I mean one of those long tight ones! I recently lost my job, so this facing your faults thing is something I'm going through too. I've generally been very open about my ADHD and struggles with it. I'm a Nurse in the UK, and qualified 18 months ago. I've just started my fourth job since I finished my studies almost 2 years ago. I had to fight 4 times to not be kicked off the Nurse training course. My last job was in a Primary Care centre (we call them GP surgeries here). I came across some patients who were either diagnosed with ADHD, or "stuck out like a sore thumb" needed to be checked out for it. You know what? I sent every single one of them to your video channel. I also sent amenable Doctors to it as well for their learning! Your hard work, as you already know, pays off big time

Catherine Neary

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Kae(NWPA)

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Kae(NWPA)

I also struggled for my whole life trying to get out the door and to school and then work on time. It's a wonder people put up with me! And not until YOU came along did I realize I have ADHD! I was 70 and now I'm 71 (and a half). You are so worthy and needed in this crazy of ours!

Kae(NWPA)

Thank you for pushing through this and continuing to make videos. They help a lot of people. But remember that none of those people want you to make more at the expense of your own emotional health. So push through when you think it's important to keep pushing... but take a break sometimes too, please! 🧠❤️

Delirium

I study/research ADHD and I FEEL you on everything you're saying. When I go to do my work, I also have to face all my failures and it IS a huge emotional challenge. But as you said, we do this work because it's IMPORTANT and because we CARE. Stay strong. Power forward. Your previous mistakes are your future success. Face them and show 'em who's boss! I believe in you. <3

Hannah Weisman

Huge hugs. You are a amazing, strong, generous, talented, and loving soul. I know how wrenching it must be to turn yourself inside out, but never for a moment think that you are in any way flawed. It's a good topic to discuss. I've struggled with it my whole life. Time distortion syndrome. I always think I have way more time than I do and can squeeze in another activity before leaving.

Alex Rain

YOU are my inspiration. Seriously. Thank you.

Hannah Weisman

Thank you for sharing with us. It's so important for us to remember that while you're something of an authority on ADHD and know more than most about strategies, you struggle too. It reminds us to forgive ourselves when we're struggling and when the strategies don't work. Being kind to myself and forgiving myself may be one of the hardest parts of being a brain for me, so it means a lot.

Meaghan Glynn


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