[ASMR] Please Stay [Gender Neutral] . [Whispers] . [Mental Health]

Here is a script I wrote for an Anti-Suicide audio. This is what it looked like on paper before I turned it into an audio. This audio got demonetized due to the nature of the audio, but I feel at least you guys can see what it looked like beforehand. Enjoy the read. 

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Hey, you there, what do you think you’re doing? Put that gun down, please put that knife down, please dont swallow those pills, please throw away that noose. Please dont do what I think you’re about to do. Please stay here. I know you’re having a tough time right now but please, it will get better. I know that’s the worst thing a person can say, but hear me out.

I know your partner just broke up with you and you just lost your job and you’re late on some bills, but please, this is not the solution. *heavy sigh* Let me tell you a story.

I too, was sucidial at one point. I tried killing myself in highschool. I used to cut myself because I felt it was the only way to relieve the pain. I was depressed every single day. For 3 out of the 4 years of high school, I was depressed and sucidial. I had to be placed in a mental hospital several times. I missed so much school, and my grades suffered. I felt like a burden to everybody: my parents, my friends, and even the people I used to go to church with back when I did. I told myself I was just a bug. You know how sometimes, when you’re out walking about and you accidentally step on a bee or one of those roly polies? Well that one bug, isn’t going to put an end to an entire species. There’s a million bugs to replace that one. And what’s one bug, meaning me, gone? There’s over 8 billion people in the world and the population is growing. And one person isn’t going to be the end of anyone’s world. I took up drinking, and I hid it pretty well. Anything to numb the pain….anything….anything...anything to numb the pain I did it. It was a gift I cherished. Oh and the mental hospitals didn’t do a damn thing. I only lied to get out because I didn’t want to repeat any years of high school. Plus, I was ready to bash some skulls in because the people in there kept messing with me. I nearly smashed a tray over a 13 to 14 year old’s head when I was 17. 

I had people, tell me they loved me, just to fuck me over. I had girlfriends leave me for the guys who were, “just a friend”. For all I know, they were cheating on me behind my back. I lost a lot of friends. Most of them are nothing but memories now. But here’s the kicker, even though I probably did and do have every reason to kill myself, I’m still here. And maybe, this is part of my purpose for being here. Maybe I might now have value as an individual, but maybe I’m here to talk you out of this because maybe, it’s your turn to save somebody important for the future. Or maybe I’m here to stop you because you’re going to be the person who finds the cure for cancer or maybe the creator of a life-changing invention. You just have to push through this. Don’t you have a friend who may need your help? I mean, don’t you remember having that one friend who you stayed up all night talking to, just to calm them down? What if you’re their only friend that they can confide in when they’re going through a dark time and you’re not there to save them? Would you want them to end their life? Think about that for a second. 

Do you never want to eat your favorite food again? Pepperoni pizza with extra pepperoni and sausage? Or maybe your favorite vegan food? Do you never want to watch and discover new tv shows or movies in the theaters or on Netflix? Do you never want to experience love and passion again? Do you never want to see the people you do actually care about and they love and care about you in return? Do you never want to visit your favorite beach and feel the sand on your feet? Do you never want to swim in your favorite ocean or lake again? 

Look, there may be all the reasons to leave this world, but you’re still here. You still have a purpose. You still have a purpose. And here’s the last thing I want you to think about. Had I successfully killed myself when I was 17, over almost 8 years ago, I would not be here trying to stop you from making the biggest mistake of your life. And if all my purpose is is just to stop you, don’t you think you have a purpose too?