Status Update + Refund Explanation

It's time for a quick update from your favorite candy-based PED distributor.

First off, I'm super happy to see so many of you on my page, and I really hope to keep up the good work and keep everyone here for months and month to come. ^_^ I'm feeling kind of proud of myself, which is a rarity for sure. 

Last month was absolutely insane for commissions, and I haven't been able to keep up with the demand...which was a problem. I was spending all my time doing commissions like it was my real job, but I wasn't really getting paid. It was all-consuming in a way that I've never experienced before. 

It's great to know people love my art so much, but not so great to realize that I don't really love myself that much. For a long time, I've been really depressed, and I haven't had any faith in myself, or my art, and, as a result, I haven't felt like I had a right to charge a decent amount for my art. When you think of yourself as a hack, you set hack prices...but I've come to realize that I'm being disrespectful to myself. I wouldn't expect to buy a similar commission for the prices I'm charging, but I act like I'm only worth that much. (Or maybe so little is more appropriate?)

Because of this, I've decided that I'm not going to keep acting like I'm a third-rate artist that can't draw a hand, or makes lopsided faces, or can't shade, or any of that junk. In the past, that was true for sure. Yes, I started selling art way too early, before I had any quality to back it up, but it's been years  and years of diligent practice, and I need to recognize that for myself.

I will re-open commissions this month, but I will do so with real pricing. I guess we'll consider December as a "holiday blowout sale". I'll make a real commission sheet, with sensible, competitive pricing instead of my old "Flea Market" pricing. In the future, any "commission tiers" will be changed to fit that new pricing model.

In the back of my mind, I've got this little voice saying that I'm a fucking moron for thinking this, and that I'll kill my Patreon since the bulk of it comes from Commission Tiers...but if you can't pay yourself a decent wage, you never really had a business at all, right? Leap of faith time I guess.