Thoughts (inner thoughts not necessary to read)
Added 2022-07-16 18:19:14 +0000 UTCYou know, I’ve been very scared lately for many things. As you know there is inflation going on and there’s also a problem with jobs and all that. Things are difficult. I understand that. This however is recent and it is something that worries me even more considering the amount of fluctuation my patreon has. It’s either very irregular or gets stagnant. I just know that in my time existing as an artist on the internet I haven’t had big pull or sometimes I dealt with some negative criticism. Tbh I always aimed to be a better artist, grow and all that.
Getting to the point, I just realized, in January next year I get to my 10 year Deviantart anniversary. Even if that may be gone, I remember when I first started, a decade of drawing and probably around 5 years of patreon and for me to have not grown in any way or form is kinda weighing on me. I am starting to get very depressing thoughts for a while now.
I’ll continue to draw with whatever drive I’ve still got left. But I did wanted to write this cause it’s always spinning in my head and better to let it out than to keep it inside and suddenly just blow up.
If you read this far thanks again for reading sorry for the gloomy mood and I hope I don’t have to write this kind of negative content in the future cause I really don’t like thinking and feeling this way and it is unfair to everyone who is here to have a good time and enjoy the content.
P.S. Expect the new Rent-a-Girlfriend gal in a couple of hours. Thanks again!
COG
Comments
Sorry you're feeling down. Hang in there.
Calybos
2022-07-17 01:29:03 +0000 UTCI'm sorry you've been feeling this way. It's like this for anyone in the arts... no matter how good you are, success is all about being the lucky bastard who strikes gold. I'm proud to have been your supporter all these years and I have no regrets.
Sage Mann
2022-07-16 23:13:02 +0000 UTCThings are tough, this might always be tough. An overwhelmingly small number of artists make it big enough to make it thief living (I'd say less than 0.1%). Don't get discouraged, you're not alone in your feelings and you're in good company. I hope things get better for you soon
Jon Fawkes
2022-07-16 19:07:34 +0000 UTCThe best advise I can provide is that you shouldn't forget to be compassionate with yourself. Take some time to understand the way you feel, accept it, and forgive yourself if you think you've fallen short of where you thunk you should be. We're all doing our best to survive day by day, including you. And I think you should be proud of that. I get the impression you're a very "do things myself" kind of guy and I am too. I've learned that while it's good to have high expectations of yourself, it's important to also be kind to yourself. Not doing so could wreck you. I really don't want to tell you what you should/shouldn't do with your career because I don't think I can give the best advice there. What I CAN tell you is how to help you emotionally.
ArthurCrane
2022-07-16 18:25:28 +0000 UTC
