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22. 1:47:20 My ex was recently on a 5150 but has made huge strides in treatment and is doing MUCH better.  Because she’s been off work she’s having trouble paying her bills.  She’d never ask me for help but she did accept my offer.  I know finically supporting an ex is always a terrible idea, but considering our history, did I have much of a choice? 23. 1:49:10 I just realized a lot of my day to day is filled with intrusive thoughts. I always assumed it was some weird fantasy/imaginative thought. I’ll imagine situations where loved ones had died & I’ll start crying. Then I’ll call them just to make sure I made it all up & it didn’t really happen. It’s something I’ve done since childhood why do intrusive thoughts occur? Is it a form of disassociation? 24. 1:54:00 I’ve heard several times “ once a cutter, always a cutter “.   Meaning if you use cutting as a measure of self harm, you will do that for the rest of your life! I find this very discouraging! Please tell me this isn’t true. Please tell me that there is hope out there for us who have a problem with cutting.

TK

7. 38:35 What are ur thoughts on the official & unofficial blaming of “mental illness” for mass shootings in El Paso & Dayton. 8. 46:30 I don't have a good relationship w/ my body but not sure if I have an ED. I mostly have a problem w/ overeating & too much alcohol. When I manage to stick to an eating plan, the stricter it is, the better I do. How do I find a good balance? I thought about trying out the 16:8 intermittent fasting method but it’s hard w/ work travel. I’m thinking about food all the time. Do you think it's a good idea to try out this method instead of over eating? 9. 53:25 My Mom passed away recently & I’m feeling crushing, brutal intense physical pain. What is the purpose of the physical pain I feel in grief? It is so much more than any other illness or injury I have ever experienced. What is this pain trying to tell me to do, if anything? 10. 57: 50 What are our rights when it comes to HIPPA and our employer? What is "allowed" on our dr excuse? I recently had an issue because our work policy  states that the doctor excuse must state a condition as to why you missed a full day of work.  I missed one day due to mental health & they want to know why. I now had to hire an attorney because they just would not leave it alone. I’ve been with my job for 6yrs in civil service. 11. 1:03:40 Why do I have compassion or still care about the person that abused me? It's not that I love him nor that I can stand his presence. I once did love him, but now his presence  is a major trigger of my PTSD. Is there something wrong with me? Is it just my nature to care? 12. 1:08:15 My body image is so bad right now. How much is this linked to my eating disorder? is it best to work on it separately or will things happen as I begin recovery? Its consuming all my thoughts & I'm super triggered right now w/ upcoming events where there’ll be pics & ppl will tell me I look “healthy” (fat). where can I start to help with making peace with my body? 13. 1:12:10 Since middle school I’ve had obsessions w/ ppl, usually a female authority figure. It is not a romantic obsession, but like I look up to them & wish I had their attention.  I’d often say dream about them. Since starting on an SSRI for social anxiety & OCD I don’t have these obsessions or day dreams. Is it normal to have obsessions like this or when does it become abnormal? Is this daydreaming considered dissociation?  Are these obsessions/daydreaming caused by OCD or could something else be going on?  I don’t have any history of trauma but did live with some unhealthy family dynamics growing up. 14. 1:20:10 Can u talk about "Imposter syndrome/effect”. Is this something that is supposed to be only women or can guys have the same thing, and they just didn't talk about it? 15. 1:23:25 How do we accept that illness is long term? I have bipolar 2 disorder & I know it's a forever thing but every time I have a "flare up" of depression I just feel defeated. How does one accept that there will always be bouts of depression? 16. 1:27:45 Do the extreme emotions that come w/ BPD ever subside? I get that DBT teaches skills of how to manage them, but they can become so tiring. For me it seems to be ALL emotions, even the good ones such as gratitude. I’m also having boundary issues in therapy and I’m always trying to find creative ways to get my therapist to accept gifts. Is there a light at the end of the tunnel of extreme emotions? 17. 1:32:45 Why is my derealization classed as a “coping mechanism?” It doesn’t help me “cope” with the situation by making things seem not real and like I’m in a movie...if anything it makes me freak out even more because I just want to get back to reality and be real again. It can be pretty terrifying. 18. 1:35:55 I’m struggling w/ attachment at work. I'm a 1st year teacher & having a hard time. I always act super happy but the deputy principal saw through it, asked me if I was ok, said I could always talk to her. I have a terrible relationship w/ my mother, I want to be hugged & cared for by the deputy principal & I’m super attached to her. How do I fight these feelings of wanting so much of her support & affection. She is so busy & I don't want her to get sick of me or reject me. 19. 1:39:25 I’m really struggling. Everything is so hard, I am trapped with no good way out. I avoided the question of planning on doing anything w/ both my therapist & councilor. I am not strong, so why are they insisting on fighting for me to get better? 20. 1:41:55 Instead of beating yourself up after doing something you regret, what's a better way to deal with it? What's a healthy way to deal with regret? 21. 1:44:30 Cigarette smoke can trigger my panic attacks- can I be friends with a smoker?

TK

6. 33:20 I’ve had visions and “hearing” voices, as far back as I can remember- until I was about 28. what are the hallucinations like for people with schizophrenia or schizoaffective disorder? I didn’t hear voices/words audibly, but I could tell that I was “hearing” specific words...but through my feeling senses somehow. In the past, tkhe visions or hallucinations were both internal and external. Is this what schizophrenia is like? I don’t have these symptoms anymore, I’m just wondering.

TK

1. 8:10 I think I've outgrown my current therapist. She's WONDERFUL & she's helped me to get past a lot of trauma & issues in my life. However, I feel like she doesn't really give me tools or advice that help me w/ my current challenges. I want someone who will give me homework will kinda check in on me & hold me accountable. 2. 15:10 In therapy we’ve started to talk about childhood trauma. My entire childhood sexual abuse was surrounding secrecy & shame. My therapist encourages me to talk about it but i find myself leaving out chunks & brushing over things that happened because i don’t want to make my therapist uncomfortable. 3. 18:40 I’m leaving my 26-week eating disorder program soon & I’m terrified. Any advice for someone who is leaving something like this? It was helpful but intense. I’m slowly weaning off groups and meals there very soon, but I am so afraid I’m going to slip & very anxious about the future. Any advice? 4. 23:50 When I was younger I had an eating disorder & I wanted the thinnest body possible. Fast forward to my recent anorexia, caused by a big trauma. I thought I was just going to sit around drinking alcohol & eating cake but the opposite happened. I got really bad stomach pains from eating so I stopped eating. Do u think this would’ve been my response to traumatic grief if we didn't live in in a diet culture? My post-traumatic anorexia wasn't about getting thin, I liked my body, so why did this happen, & could it happen again? 5. 29:30 Is it possible to be chronically passively suicidal? It’s something that’s always there in the back of my mind. Could this also be a learned behavior? My mom attempted suicide & threatened suicide a lot. It’s hard to bring up in therapy w/o making it seem like I need hospitalization when I don’t. Any tips? Also, is this a thing or is just me?

TK

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TK


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