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Q1: 5.00 I have been working on my sexuality in therapy, but don't seem to be getting anywhere. I am a mostly heterosexual man with as vanilla and boring a sexuality as one can have. Unfortunately, due to a trifecta of circumstances, I suffer from a powerful sense of sexual dysphoria and self hatred. First, I was raised in a strongly moralistic and sex negative environment. Second, I experienced a lot of physical punishments as a child and some of these punishments involved forced nudity Despite all this, I still have a libido and sexual desire. I wish I could just turn it off. Is there any hope for men with my upbringing? Q2: 13.20. Can you please talk about trauma that is tied to culture and politics rather than just specific people, e.g. in your childhood household? Because, I always just see that you have to get away from your abusers before you can heal. But what if you have racial trauma or trauma from abelism or from transphobia? What if you have trauma from something that is a systemic issue? How can you heal or even get better? I think the time I was a psychiatric hospital was traumatic for me. And again to me it seems like mental health professionals just not being trained how to handle or even recognize trauma (or at least certain trauma) and autism is a systemic thing, given how common misdiagnosis is. Q3: 24.37 You always talk about being a detective and checking your facts but when it comes to My Childhood sexual abuse I don't think that is completely possible. I am remembering more and more, but I don't know how I can be a detective and check the facts on my childhood. Any suggestions? Q4:29.30. I am asking for any advice about how to deal with false allegations in the workplace. This has serious implications on my life and future for work, potential for fostering or adoption and just my own sense of self has been fragmented by these people Q5. 35.37. When I was 14 I made a tumblr and posted a bunch of poems I wrote about eds on there. Many of these poems blew up (20,000-80,000 shares/likes/comments.) These poems always ended in death to purposefully deter from glorifying Ed’s. However, these poems soon started being shared with pro ana hashtags and on pro-Ana sites. Not only were my poems used as pro Ana but pictures of me were being cropped and shared by others as “thinspo.” In hindsight I can see how easily my poems that were meant to deter from Ed’s could be used as pro ana, but 14 year old me just wasn’t aware enough to realize that before posting. These poems are still all over the internet and have spread to other sites, I still come across them every now and then, (although luckily less now that a lot of pro Ana accounts are deleted). I’ve been holding onto this guilt for 8 years. I never meant to hurt anyone. How can I get over the guilt? Q6: 42.46. I feel like I’m constantly seeking out balance where there’s too much of something and not enough of the other. I get down on myself a lot because of it. Most of the time I find myself saying, “I just wanna be okay” although I’m not really sure what that is for me. How do I find my “okay”? I’ve been working on my thoughts and feelings lately through CPT (cognitive processing therapy). Q7: 46.20. It’s coming up a year since I lost my best friend to suicide, and more recently I am dissociating sometimes but overall I don’t get super sad, or if I do I don’t cry. Is this normal? Q8: 51.21. I have a friend that when she was a teenager she accidentally killed someone while she was driving. She was not under the influence and just over corrected on a turn but when she did she had a head on collision. Would DBT or CBT help with this type of trauma? Q9: 55.55 So my therapist is leaving, and I've been struggling with transference and attachment with her for over a year and a half now. my question is how can I make the most of my time with her and end on good terms? Q10: 1.06.30 What do you think about using Ritalin to study or work? And can Ritalin have any kind of effect on an eating disorder? Q11: 1.11.05 What's the difference between Superstition and OCD. Like, is OCD behavior always connected to numbers? Can superstitions become OCD? Q12: 1.17.28 My question this month is more to do with therapy. I struggle so so much with it. I have panic attacks before and am so anxious during I can't calm down. My therapist has brought up how anxious I am in therapy and I know calming down techniques. But I can't calm down enough to think or talk. Q13: 1.26.04 I am wondering what I can do to communicate what is going on when I get triggered by something, often many things at once and the world begins spinning and I can't make sense of anything anymore. I'm just completely overwhelmed and not in control of myself or anything around me. Q14: 1.32.05 I've been working through childhood trauma from my sibling's father since the beginning of the year. About halfway through our sessions, I check out and can't remember what was said. When it happens I still am able to answer anything she asks but afterward I couldn't tell anyone a single thing that was talked about. Any tips on how to combat this so I don't continue taking the first 15-20 minutes of the next session talking about the last session? Q15: 1.37.37 How do you deal with losing friendships when it is your choice to leave. I’ve been a part of a church for around 9-10 years now and have of course built up some good friendships over that time. I have moved churches which I think is the best thing for me, but I don’t know how to cope with the idea of losing so many friends at once. Q16: 1.47.17 I recently asked my husband for a divorce and was abused. That’s when I found out my 6 year old son saw me get jumped. Obviously the police had to involve DCSF because of what he witnessed. A few days later at our session, i went into more detail with her as to what happened, getting the restraining order... etc. i told her my son saw and they had to open an investigation, she told me that she now had to make a report as well. I didn’t know that she had to still report again on her end even if it was already reported. I felt so betrayed by this and this was definitely a therapeutic rupture. I guess I’m wondering how i can help shift things in my brain to replace this rupture because i know my therapist is doing her job but i still feel really betrayed and like moving forward, I’ll be super cautious on what i share when I’ve never felt the need to think twice when sharing before now. Q17. 1.47.38 Last Friday at work (I work in a preschool). A mum who was coming to pick up her son, began to feel unwell at the front gate. She went downhill really ast and I had to call an ambulance. When I told the 000 operator what was going on, and what I knew about the Mum, she told me if there was a Defibrillator near by I had to run and go get it right away. I ran to get a defibrillator. Why, in that moment, when I barely had time to think of anything, did I worry about interrupting people, being rude, and having to make a scene in front of people and speak up? I haven't been able to stop thinking about it all this past weekend. Then thinking about how I could have delayed getting help to her, all because I was worrying about stupid things. Q18: 1.52.30 How much working out is too much? My career is dependent on my physical health and fitness (I’m an actor, singer and dancer) and I’ve become super aware that my vocal and physical stamina is suffering. I started running (never thought I’d hear myself say that) and a more regular workout plan. Here’s the problem: with struggling with eating restriction and fighting impulses to purge for a while now, I don’t know if I’m working out because of that or because I need to stay in shape for my career.

Katie K