Reading a letter (and freaking out a little).
Added 2015-02-13 05:42:04 +0000 UTCREAD THIS BEFORE WATCHING THE VIDEO. Let me explain to you what's going on first. I got a letter from one of my old patrons by the name of Ace. In his letter he congratulates my on my first, one year anniversary on Patreon. Also Ace was kind enough to list the most memorable events that marked the past year... When I was reading the letter I thought that it would be fun to print it out an read it out loud while I'm walking to my live-drawing classes today. So I did that, and printed out the letter... But then found myself face to face with a serious problem: apparently I feel very uncomfortable walking down the street an reading a letter in English out-loud to myself while filming. And when I say "uncomfortable" I mean VERY UNCOMFORTABLE. I had to literally force myself to finally make myself do that... Had to use all sorts of mind tricks that I usually use when I'm afraid of doing something but I need to act despite that. It actually reminded me of that one time (long time ago) when I took too long to approach this one girl I thought was really cute. I hesitated for too long, and when I finally did approach her I was completely terrified. I managed to force myself to start talking to her only to realize that I was actually stuttering... 0_0 That's how terrified I was of talking to this one girl. Since then never in my life I was ever afraid to the point I would actually start to stutter... And also later on (days later) I confessed to the girl that I was scared to talk to her that first time and she confessed to me in turn that it was very foolish on my part since she thought I was handsome and all... (No, we never did get together or anything). That experience stuck with me throughout the years. I think because it made me I realize that sometimes the obstacles that may scare the crap out of me exist only in my head. And my life is hugely affected by the way I think the things are, not the way they actually are. I also realized that despite being completely imaginary the said obstacles could be as difficult to overcome as any other real thing, or even more difficult at times. And finally it taught me that if you know that the scare in just in your head, you can overcome it... Well, it's easier said then done, and not always I am able to muster enough courage... but I still try... So now, watch the video and see me freak out slightly throughout the whole thing. But hey, I still did it. Next one should be easier. Go write me another letter, Ace. The LINK: http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x2h2xgt_reading_creation
Comments
It's all part of the learning process, I've found it can be easier to just try to talk to girls you find attractive as friends first. That way you don't spook yourself thinking about how attractive she is and/or let your mind go into all the possibilities of a relationship before you even know if it's possible. Hope this helps!
Horizon
2015-03-03 04:55:47 +0000 UTCHe-he. You poor bastard. :) I had to talk in front of the crowd of people twice in my life. Hated it. But It all depends on the crowd ^^
AKAMAN
2015-02-16 05:25:22 +0000 UTCWell, this certainly looked like fun ... first of all, receiving this kind of a letter after one year here on patreon, but second - reading this letter out loud, concentrate on your way to your class (and don´t run into any obstacles ;-)). I can image this kind of stuff with the comfort zone - years ago, I did a fan article and the publisher told me to get my sorry ass to a fair for fans and then they told me I have to introduce that fan article as well - and I was luck "whaaat?" ... they dropped me a microphone, showed me the way on the stage and told me "go for it!" ... I was scared as hell, because a lot of eyes where watching me with awe what this guy on the stage is going to tell now ... and I babbled a long and went for it. My better half was with me back then and she told me, I was awesome - fun thing was - till today I don´t remember anything in detail what I have told the people in front of that stage with a fragging microphone in my hand but then again, it must have been okay ... And you´re right - next ones in the future will be easier, mate! Thank you for your work! ;-)
2015-02-13 20:31:14 +0000 UTChehe... Think you need to earn the title of "Akabur #1 Fan". And you with this letter have earned it in my eyes. I only hope I can share the place with you when my project is done.
Nemesis Valentine
2015-02-13 17:39:52 +0000 UTCThanks, buddy^^
AKAMAN
2015-02-13 17:28:00 +0000 UTCDone 8)
AKAMAN
2015-02-13 17:27:37 +0000 UTCI am of the opinion that each one of us has to be the #1 fan, so you have to proclaim yourself, even if the rest no agree. As we live in different countries, the nest way to converse would be by mail, as patreon no seem to be able to send message between users, maybe the master can share my email with you, let me ask him.
Ace
2015-02-13 11:55:42 +0000 UTCI meet the crew only in november, but it has been a very joyful ride since then. Max respect to old patrons like Ace, 'cause they in some way started it all and opened the path to latecomers like me. And a brotherly hug to Akabur, our Robin Hood, who really deserves this growing company of Merry Men.
Skull616
2015-02-13 09:53:31 +0000 UTCACE! My arch-nemesis! Here I am writing a letter to akabur too and then you come and have your own letter... I want to be Akabur #1 Fan but you seem to beat me to it... Anyway, I want to discuss something with you about a thing I'm doing for akabur. Can we talk somewhere more private where "he-who-is-awesom" can't listen?
Nemesis Valentine
2015-02-13 09:45:16 +0000 UTCWell yes we call it "liikluskultuur" and the direct translation would be traffic culture. Basically the lower it is the more idiots you have on the roads.
Marko
2015-02-13 07:54:04 +0000 UTCAs long as I have guys like you to rally behind me there is (almost) literally no stopping us.
AKAMAN
2015-02-13 07:48:43 +0000 UTCHeh... The moment I heard myself saying "persona" I knew someone would make a joke about it.
AKAMAN
2015-02-13 07:47:05 +0000 UTCThanks for giving me an idea for this vid with your letter.
AKAMAN
2015-02-13 07:45:44 +0000 UTC"Traffic culture", huh? I like this term. Don't think I heard it before but I'm sure I will mention local traffic culture more then once in my future vids, so I'm taking it. And thanks :)
AKAMAN
2015-02-13 07:45:13 +0000 UTCL'chaim, cent'anni, good goin', molodets! You're the best arooooound Nothing's ever gonna keep you down
ComradeChrome
2015-02-13 06:54:59 +0000 UTCI remember when i joined and not only discovered a fix for my nsfw picture itch, but a community where we weren't afraid to be ourselves and be like "yes i'd fap to that".I love this community and how it has connected me to other who enjoy my habits and like. So as high priest/commander Ace has said, thank you for the great year and let us hope for more. ps. What is your persona?and why is it so shy? Evoker or non evoker?
Wanderer
2015-02-13 06:33:07 +0000 UTCAs many will state thank you for a great year of your work. Also great multitasking bro. You manage to navigate, work a camera, read a letter, look out for traffic and must important survive with that kind of traffic culture.
Marko
2015-02-13 06:15:48 +0000 UTCWell, this can be a future game were you go amount reading outloud but must avoid being Heard. Thanks for a great year man, let be the first of many.
Ace
2015-02-13 06:08:55 +0000 UTC
