Gaming Issues

So I recently got into a computer game called marvel rivals.

Some of y'all have probably heard of it. It's a hero shooter that plays a lot like overwatch or League of legends, kinda.

My boyfriend introduced it to me around 2 months ago and I became completely obsessed.

I think I might actually be addicted. I regularly spend at least 3 hours playing, and if I really don't have anything else to do, it can be much longer.😬

I'm a bit embarrassed to say that I've let this new hobby take the place of the gym 😬😬...

Which of course comes with some issues related to my condition. 😬😬😬

Not only am I NOT burning the number of calories that I was a while going to the gym regularly, I feel like I've actually lost muscle. These two things combined have me feeling a bit less strong in my back, shoulder, arms, and glutes, and feeling heavier on my hips, tummy, and especially.... Yeah...

My tiddies😅🥹😭

My breasts are feeling fat as hell and I need to get back to the gym soon. It's becoming a bit of a vicious cycle since it's just easier to sit and game and snack than it is to go and get sore and sweaty.

I've noticed though that my breasts are now finally touching my thighs while I sit... Which is an odd and freaky thing that just crept up on me. I definitely didn't notice it the first time it happened, I just realized that it had been happening for some time and I don't remember exactly when it started.

But it started..

On the bright side, working out can actually make my hormones go haywire, and I definitely noticed more glandular and tissue growth while I was going regularly, and that slowed down a bit, however the girls seem to get what they want either way since now that I'm gaining weight, it seems to be accumulating there a lot faster than I anticipated.

My back has actually begun to hurt a bit if I game too long, definitely from their weight. In some sick way I'm actually kinda hoping that my lap can support them more soon since it's hard to play games when my back starts aching.

I also think that the vibrant colors, casino like transactions, and overly sexualized characters (see Emma Frost, her ASSets are ENORMOUS) kind of lull me into an addictive stupor where I play the game longer than I thought I would, lose, get frustrated, then order takeout, which is awful for my weight ...

Part of the issue right now is that I don't even really WANT to get out of the loop, the game is SO FUN, but I see that it's obviously not healthy.

I think I like dissociating into a new character, that's constantly in action, I don't have to think about every stressful thing in the real world. I don't even have to worry about how large my breasts have gotten, the fact that they're affecting my balance, walking, wardrobe, never mind every social interaction, I just get to be squirrel girl, throwing explosive nuts.

I realize that sounded more sexual than I anticipated 🙂‍↕️

But it's nice, except after 4 hours when my shoulders and back are killing me, and my tummy's growling.

If I didn't know better, I might think that my breasts were actually drinking up my musculature. I literally feel skinny, even though I know I've gained weight. My arms and shoulders don't feel as fit, but my breasts are just absolutely taking over my lap and torso. It's not normal ffs.

I need new bras BAD ..

Trying my best,

Aaaanyway,

Thx for reading. :)

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I have a picture of me in cow print coming out soon, and I had a recommendation for showing off how big they look from behind now. Yes they can be seen from behind. 😐

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