Dear friends
Added 2018-09-08 02:11:58 +0000 UTCDear friends. I want to start be apologizing for not posting everything on the schedule this week. I had every intention of doing it but my mom's situation forced me to stay by her side.My mom is not a healthy person, there's a lot going on with her that I never shared with anyone because it's hard to do it. But what I can share right now is the terrible panic attack she suffered yesterday and again today.She has suffered from depression since my grandfather died many years ago and this is the first time something like this happened. At the moment it happened I was by myself with Josh, I had to call my brother to get out of work so he can help me out, Josh also had a breakdown because of it and I didn't know what to do at that moment. The ambulance took for ever to arrive but she got better once we got to the hospital and was able to come home.Today we went to get an appointment for her psychiatrist but before we got there she got another panic attack and we couldn't make it. So I hope by tomorrow she can get the proper care she needs.Mental illness it's so hard and devastating. Seeing my mom paralyze in fear was a terrible thing. And I hope she gets better once she is on a better medication and therapy.Thank you so much for your kind messages. They mean everything to me right now. I feel mentally exhausted right now. Not been able to cry because I don't want to upset my mom or Josh is hurting me so much right now but I feel like if I break everything would be even worst.I will do my best to record some reactions but I just don't have the energy to do it right now. Please forgive me for not been strong enough and not give you guys what I promise but I feel numb right now and I don't think I could make a good reaction.I'm sorry for writing all this here, I don't have friends who I would trust with anything without feeling judge but you guys always listen and never judge so I hope this doesn't upset anyone. If it does I apologise.Thank you for reading. I will be back don't worry about that, maybe I'll feel better tomorrow.Love you all! 😘
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JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:43:12 +0000 UTC♥
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:43:06 +0000 UTCHiiii Eden! Thank you for been here! You are so kind! You guys are amazing!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:42:30 +0000 UTCThank you Rob!!!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:41:53 +0000 UTCWow Bridget, I hope you know you also have a friend in me and I'm always a message away if you want to talk. Take care and thank you for been awesome!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:41:45 +0000 UTCThank you sm Marcella!!! I always worry I'm not delivering the content you guys want and this made me feel terrible but I knew I needed to be with my mom. Thank you for this because you guys will never know how much love I have for all of you!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:40:56 +0000 UTCI'm also like that Jessie. I sometimes feel like I can't talk to anyone, and to be honest I don't do it. This space feels safer, You guys are my rock!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:39:44 +0000 UTCYeah, I needed to be there for my mom. Thank you sm for understanding!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:38:39 +0000 UTCThank you Bria for your kind message. You are amazing!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:38:08 +0000 UTCThank you Marie. I worry sm about my videos because I hate not been able to deliver but at that moment I was a zombie just doing what my mom needed, I was in a bad mood to react and I just didn't feel like it. But I hope I can get back to it tomorrow.
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:37:06 +0000 UTCI always think about you guys and I want to keep you updated because I know you guys worry about me and my family. Thank you for your love! It makes me feel so good!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:35:53 +0000 UTCI will try, you guys help more than you know! Thank you!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:34:18 +0000 UTCThank you Alvin!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:33:37 +0000 UTCThank you Kendra! This means a lot to me. I hope I can post something new tomorrow!!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:33:22 +0000 UTCI might be crying as I read all this beautiful messages! Thank you!!!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:32:52 +0000 UTCThank you Quinn!!!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:32:16 +0000 UTCYou are so kind Jenny! Thank you!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:31:59 +0000 UTCThank you Brian!!!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:31:47 +0000 UTCThank you Nathan! You are an incredible person!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:31:33 +0000 UTCThank you Alice, I will :)
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:31:10 +0000 UTCThank you Sarah! That means a lot to me!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:30:37 +0000 UTCThank you! I feel like I don't deserve you guys! You are amazing!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:30:24 +0000 UTCThank you so much!!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:30:00 +0000 UTCThank you!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:29:46 +0000 UTCThank you!!!}
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:29:34 +0000 UTCThank you! Sometimes taking care of myself it's the hardest because I feel like to many ppl depend on me. But I will try :)
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:26:56 +0000 UTCThank you Frankie!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:26:18 +0000 UTCIt was the most awful thing to watch and not been able to help. Thank you for your love and support!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:26:06 +0000 UTCThank you Ritchie. I hope you know you also have a friend in me. Anxiety and depression are serious issues but I hope you are reciving the help you need. and I hope I'm doing my best to help my mom here. Thank you sm!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:25:28 +0000 UTCThank you!!! I think I might be able to react tomorrow. I was going to do it today but I had so many things to do with my mom that time just flew by so fast.
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:24:21 +0000 UTCIt really is. Even my mom hates going to the psychiatric bc she says she is not crazy. And I hate when she says that, mental illness is like any other illness that needs an specialist and medicine to help you get better. I really hope she listens to me and I can take her to all the appoitments she needs. Thank you for understanding.
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:23:15 +0000 UTCThank you!
JuliDG
2018-09-11 02:21:24 +0000 UTC<3 <3
iForeverFaithful
2018-09-10 00:29:36 +0000 UTC❤️
Marlene Beltran
2018-09-09 21:35:49 +0000 UTCYou are an amazing daughter and mother Juli 💗 sending so much love to your whole family and hope you all feel better soon. I’m sure all of your patrons and viewers on YT understand - they’re all here cuz they love and support you! So please don’t worry and just take it easy for now. 💗
Eden Singer
2018-09-09 19:17:11 +0000 UTC<3 to you
Rob Flynn
2018-09-09 05:47:55 +0000 UTCI hope everything gets better with your mom. Me and my mom live with anxiety and depression every day and it is hard. Your mom is lucky to have you and your family. Take as much time as you need. We all need a break sometimes.
Bridget b
2018-09-08 21:17:33 +0000 UTCGirl, we totally understand. Don't even worry about the reactions or schedual. You just focus on your mom, your kid and yourself. All of your loyal fans will still be here waiting for you when everything gets better and you are ready to comeback. We got your back <3
Marcella Fonseca
2018-09-08 21:01:12 +0000 UTCYou break my heart. I hope every things will be okay really soon for your mum, your son and you. This is a terrible situation. I feel your pain. I just lost my god mother, I feel weird. I don't know how to express my feelings and I have 3 youngs daughters, I also can't break down next to her or my husband. I don't want to pain/hurt them. I totally understand what you are going through. Be strong. We are always here for you and we can wait. Life is so much more important!!
Jessiesweetheart
2018-09-08 19:30:48 +0000 UTCIm so sorry that you're going through this right now, there is absolutely no rush and it's good that you're focusing on being there for your family. Sending my love. ♥
sinead hunte
2018-09-08 15:55:27 +0000 UTCI'm so sorry to hear that. Take your time there is no rush. Your mental health and family should always come first. I hope everything gets better for your mom and Josh.
Bria Bey
2018-09-08 10:52:30 +0000 UTCDon't even think about the schedule Juli it's not important, what is important is yours and your mom's mental health, take all the time you need and we'll be here whenever you're ready. Sending you love and virtual hugs !
Marie
2018-09-08 08:02:42 +0000 UTCI'm so sorry to hear this, but also a bit relieved that you sent us an update. Was getting very worried about you. Sending you hugs & best wishes. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong & let us know if you need anything.
Marvelous JJ
2018-09-08 06:57:23 +0000 UTCI'm so sorry that you and your family are going through this... But hopefully things will get better soon 🙏🏾. Sending my love to you, Josh and and your mother. Please take care of yourself as well Juli! ❤️❤️❤️
Billieboi
2018-09-08 06:31:45 +0000 UTCBig hug for you, and prayers for your family.
Alvin Cura
2018-09-08 05:29:41 +0000 UTCHey I totally understand. Your Mom and family is the priority as it should be. Take as much time as you need and come back to reacting when your ready. I’ll be here when you do. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Kendra Harper
2018-09-08 05:25:41 +0000 UTCgirl, you did everything right! family comes first and you taking care of yours is the best thing you can do. take your time. if you need to sleep or cry your heart out or whatever you need right now, just do it. we'll still be here tomorrow. :)
thisismaria27
2018-09-08 05:11:06 +0000 UTChope things get better!!
quinn rodriguez
2018-09-08 04:39:52 +0000 UTCPraying for your whole family.
Jenny
2018-09-08 04:02:00 +0000 UTCTake care of yourself and your family first! We’re not going anywhere. Sending love and prayers to you and your whole family. ❤️
Brian Jones
2018-09-08 04:00:14 +0000 UTCGonna sound like a broken record here but you never need to apologize to us given how much you provide. Hope everything works out for you and your family. 💜
Nathan
2018-09-08 03:44:08 +0000 UTCI sincerely hope that your mother gets better soon.Also,don't worry about us juli,you're an amazing person,and I feel so bad that you're having to go through this situation.Please take your time,love you<3
Alice Medeiros
2018-09-08 03:39:51 +0000 UTCI hope you and your family feel better soon. I'm going to pray for you and for them.
Sarah E
2018-09-08 03:32:32 +0000 UTCWe love you and we wish the best for your family, take as many time as you need, we won’t go anywhere❤️
Kun Lili
2018-09-08 02:33:47 +0000 UTCTake care of your family, that's what's important right now
Lens G Sol
2018-09-08 02:31:05 +0000 UTCDon’t bother explaining. We completely understand your situation. We are here if you need us.
Christopher simeon
2018-09-08 02:21:20 +0000 UTCTake care of you and your family! ♡
Triskel
2018-09-08 02:21:09 +0000 UTCAs others have said take all the time you need we will all be here whenever you come back. Mental health takes a toll on everyone just be there for your family but make sure you take care of yourself as well. ❤
Pickle9
2018-09-08 02:19:01 +0000 UTCI’m so sorry to hear all of this about your mom. I hope she gets better soon! I suffer from anxiety but I haven’t had panic attacks since I was younger but I remember how it feels and it’s awful. Please take the time to be with your mom and son and for yourself! Your well being and your family’s is always first. Reactions can wait. Much love 💕
Chase Narron
2018-09-08 02:16:04 +0000 UTCTake the time you need! Taking care of yourself and your family is more important and we fully understand you needing these moments away. <3
Blaze Cadwell
2018-09-08 02:16:04 +0000 UTCAs somebody who struggles with both anxiety and depression, I completely get where you are coming from. It's hard to understand from the outside looking in on what exactly is happening but you definitely have the compassion towards your mother to do your best. Getting help is a struggle in itself so I wish you and your entire family the best.
Ritchie
2018-09-08 02:15:23 +0000 UTCYou’re family is way more important, take your time and come back when you’re ready. We understand ❤️
Jasmine Reigns
2018-09-08 02:14:42 +0000 UTCI totally understand! People think mental illness and health is nothing but it is a big toll on life, if you don’t feel up to it, please don’t react
fry
2018-09-08 02:14:35 +0000 UTC🙏🙏
Daiane Dos Santos
2018-09-08 02:14:12 +0000 UTCTake your time, do what is best for you and your family. We understand
Dan Guisinger
2018-09-08 02:13:56 +0000 UTC
