Reacting mode ON!

Thank you for your patience during this difficult time. My mental health is not at its best yet but at least the thought of not getting up is slowly going away. Maybe the meds are finally kicking in.

But anyways, I want to take the time to thank you. Not many people understand mental problems and they dismiss you as just been lazy when in reality sometimes you can’t see a way out of the dark place you are.

I have felt at my worst in the past few days. Nothing cheer me up. And I took pills just so I can sleep but my anxiety was so out of control that not even that helped me. I needed help and taking the step to actually go to my psychiatrist was a challenge but I did it.

But solutions for problems like mine (OCD and Anxiety) won’t just go away from one day to the other. So I gave myself a bit of time to heal, to process.

I’m not “cured” because I don’t think you can be cured from it but I am better. If I was a cellphone I’m not at 100% battery. I was at 2% before all of this and Incan say I feel at a 30% now.

Instead of having the need of just lay in bed and let the intrusive thoughts get the best of me, I’m trying really hard to find distractions! I didn’t even think about returning to bed AT ALL yesterday. Maybe it’s not much for some but it’s A LOT for me.

Anyways, this week I will be posting. Maybe not every day but enough to keep me distracted from the horrifying intrusive thoughts.

I’ve been sleeping a bit better too. I don’t wake up as much as I did before. So that’s also helping.

I’m taking my meds as well and listening to the doctor. No therapist for now (I don’t have the money yet) But I will do it. Hopefully next month.

Thank you all for the kind wishes and for staying this month with me.

I love you guys! I couldn’t have asked for a better community. Love you all ❤️❤️❤️

Juli ❤️