BlogPost:Updates, struggles and what to expect for August.

Hey guys,
I wish I could be writing you all from a positive standpoint and carry the tune of my last post with optimism, but I really can't help but think how this year has quite consistently pulled the rug from under my feet.
I know this year has been challenging for everyone, as well but I want to gather my feelings and thoughts to inform you all on what's going on for me currently.

As some of you know from twitter, I lost my Grandfather earlier this week (the 26th).
I'm still trying to process this fully. While I knew it would happen sooner rather than later since he was 97, he has always been remarkably strong. He wasn't in hospice care like my grandma was earlier this year. We didn't see this coming..I felt like he was gonna hit 100, no doubts no worries. What happened, however is that he had an infection in his gallbladder which rapidly developed into sepsis. Elderly people can develop this condition much quicker than younger people, I'm now learning..
I'm glad covid was NOT an actor in this. If it were, I don't know if I could handle the astounding level of sociopathy that I see from anti-maskers and deniers alike. I'm already upset on a pretty heavy level due to the fact that the pandemic has made it so I cannot go be with my grandmother during this time, which has made coping with this loss much more difficult. I can't get the closure I need, so It feels, overwhelmingly surreal.

I need to thank you all for being so caring and understanding with me as things have progressed this year and.. I need to be honest with myself and ask for some help.. I have to ask you for a bit more of that support. I need friends right now.. even if I can't reply, if you think of me, reach out.
Comment here, poke me on twitter or discord.. Just know that knowing you all are here is very grounding for me and will help me with motivation going forward.
I'm going to keep my sights set ahead. Keep doing whatever I can, even if it's just a little and I'll keep in touch here always. Blog posts, Wips, even if it's just sketches, this coming month I'll be sharing whatever I can since I am not sure I can deliver larger projects with my mental state right now. I will do what I need to remain healthy, I will promise you all this.

Above all else, please know that the support you've given me so far has carried me so much. I know I have mentioned these things a lot lately, but It just doesn't fade for me. You all being here is incredible to me and keeps me going with so much. Thank you, all of you, for continuing to be here.

I'll be posting more soon, and I hope to have the energy to stream soon to do freebies. Even if I cannot stream, I will be pulling from that list A LOT in August. I want to thank you all with more than just words.
💙, -G


(Pics attached are from a storm I watched come in yesterday. It was a big one that just missed me!)