Collar6 #1245

NEXT UPDATE: WEDNESDAY
NEXT NEXT UPDATE: FRIDAY

Just a reminder that I'm doing Mon/Wed/Fri updates again with each update consisting of 1-3 panels. I've used this approach before and I think it's better to have a regular trickle of content throughout the week than having a single update once a week.

I want to thank all of you for sticking by me these past few years despite the various hiatuses and holes in my update schedule. I'm fortunate to have an audience that sees me as a person first and foremost and I don't want y'all to think I don't realize how lucky I am for that. Or to be able to do this for a living because of your generosity and empathy. Thank you. Sincerely.

I feel like I owe y'all an explanation for my faltering in activity recently, and some of you who have the misfortune of knowing me on social media or Discord are probably already more than familiar with problems due to my unending whining. But to those who don't, or are just curious as to why I keep dropping off, well, I'll just put it out there:

As most of you know I've been struggling with my mental health for years, resulting in multiple hospitalizations, being rotated through every type of anti-depressant imaginable and as of late, intense therapy sessions. I also happen to be transgender and without going too much into my political views, recent events here in the US left me very concerned for the safety of myself and my partner, which sent me into a downward spiral. But that wasn't the only issue that came up.

I've been transparent about the fact that I have borderline personality disorder (BPD), which is a world of problems inofitself, but during one of my recent hospitalizations, I was diagnosed with 'elements of dissociative identity disorder (DID). And last week I was diagnosed with full blown DID. What they used to call multiple personality disorder. Cue the Harvey Dent jokes.

I'd had suspicions for years and have been operating under the idea that I likely had it, but for some reason having it laid out there for me without question just hit me harder than I imagined. Between that and the uncertain future both myself and my partner face in a country that's seemingly even more hostile to us lgbtq types I suffered a significant mental breakdown.

I'm struggling to put myself back together now and coping with the fact that I have yet one more mental illness to add to my seemingly perpetually-growing list of them. I'm now leaning into comic-making as a means of helping distract me from the uncertainty, fear, panic and hopelessness that are dominating my thoughts as of late which should at least make for a more productive me.

And let me add that I'm not looking for pity or trying to make excuses, I'm just being forthright about what the hold up has been. I like to think I've always been transparent about my behind the scenes reasons for hold-ups around here. But uh, yeah. That about sums up why I've been spazzing it up as of late here. Again, I apologize. And aim to push forward with as few hitches as possible for the immediate future. I absolutely need this strip to help keep me distracted and sane.

If any of you are still reading after all that blubbering on my end and would like to find me and read more of my self-pitying crying (for whatever reason) on social media or Discord, here's where you can find me:

Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/rubberfiona.bsky.social
Discord: https://discord.gg/5ntaw3hJ8B

I'll see y'all WEDNESDAY with a new one! Thank you again everyone, I couldn't do these without y'all making it possible. Love y'all. Stay safe out there everyone.