The Future

Hello everyone! Hope you all are doing well.

I need a little bit of your time and attention to read this post because this post is really important for me. As the title suggests, I made this post to explain about my situation and the future of my patreon.

Actually I’ve been wanting to write this since earlier this year. But I couldn’t because I didn’t have enough courage and energy to make this kind of personal post. Also, I suck at communication (English is not my native). But after thinking about it for quite a long time battling with my mind. I think I should at least give it a try before it’s too late. So please bear with me, this is going to be a very long read.

First of all, I think it’s necessary to talk about myself and my background first. I am from a country called Myanmar (Burma). My country was unfortunately ruined by the military coup and civil war right after the global pandemic. I had a proper job and quite comfortable life before all of that. But things deteriorate very quickly after the pandemic, under the military junta and ongoing civil war.

I tried to endure it and hope things to be better but sadly it was not. I lost my main job and my livelihood just got worse. It was such an unfortunate series of events. And then at the start of 2024, the military government made a forced conscription law to draw all the young adults into war. That’s when I decided to left my country. The whole process was very hard but to make it short, I eventually managed to come to Thailand with all my savings.

Things are a lot better here. But, to get a stable life with a proper job in Thailand as a immigrant from Myanmar is nearly impossible. There are lot of limitations (language, visa, permits etc.). I tried to do a lot of odd and random jobs but all of them are temporary and not reliable enough to keep things on balance. Essentially I have to rely heavily on my  savings to live here.

In the other hand, making nsfw stuffs with koikatsu studio has been my fun hobby for quite a long time. Here in Thailand with proper electricity and internet access I wanted to make that fun hobby to become a more polished thing. That’s why I published this patreon and started making nsfw animation videos. I have a lot of fun making them and really glad to know people enjoy my works. Now It has been over a year since it started and I keep trying to improve my work little by little.

But at the same time, my struggles of living continue. I still have to rely on my savings to keep on living and all my savings left are running thin day after day. Costs of living in Thailand are way higher than my country. I constantly have to live on burden of stress, anxiety and exhaustion both physically and mentally. Some days I feel really sick to the point I can’t focus on anything other than existing.

But I still want to continue making videos because that’s what I enjoy doing the most. Those are the works I happily put a lot of efforts into making. I really don’t want to end just like that. There are patreons who stick with me and supporting me from the start. That really give me encouragement and motivation to keep on going. I am really thankful for that.

But to keep going further and to reach a form of stability with life. I do need your help. It’s really hard for me to keep on going without your support. I don’t have a lot of choices. I really don’t want to go back to my country. I am already tired of war and its consequences. I don’t have much time and resources left on my hand either.

I feel like I have to put my works and efforts into some direction at this point. A direction to get somewhere before it’s too late. That’s why I am trying to set a goal for the future of this patreon. After a lot of thinking and a bit of calculation. Here’s my first and starting goal.

First goal - $650/month.

To achieve this amount of earning is not only my first goal but also the most important goal for me. This amount of earning per month will greatly helps me to pay my bills and basic necessities. That will make my everyday struggles a lot lighter so that I can put my time and energy to continue making my videos and scenes every month. Also, I will be able to focus on patreon involvements such as character polls and scene ideas.

And this is just my starting goal. I want to do a lot of new stuffs and keep on expanding. Especially I really want to do more character and story oriented scenes. And eventually even a game! For that I have to reach my starting goal first. So, hopefully you can understand my situation and give me a chance to keep on going.

Finally, I am sorry for making such a long and heavy post, especially with poor grammar and sad contents. That’s just my reality and I want to be honest about it. And I completely understand that everyone has their own life stuffs to deal with. I am just a nsfw creator after all. So again, I am really sorry if this post is just a bother to you.

Thank you so much for giving your time to read. I hope we all have a better future!