Patreon, R&P Q&A #208: Week 9

DIDNT KNOW HOW TO ANSWER ANY OF THIS OR WHAT IT MEANT. 2 THINGS IN THIS REPORT 1 10 year anniversary this weekend 2 verbal skills fail field report 1) 10 year anniversary is this weekend . the last few weeks ive been thinking to myself fuck her. why would i take her out when she is a shity wife. starfish sex, not on my team, disrespectful, contempt when i ask her to go out of her way for me. then today she sent me a text. should we get a babysitter so we can go to a festival show this weekend? fuck. until i got this text i thought i was getting the hang of saying no and not feeling guilty, but fuck me im not as far along as i thought. i started to justify in my head why i should go with all types of shit. then i got pretty dark kept telling myself fuck her. id rather hang out with the kids. it got to dinner time, and she mentioned it. I said, nah ya know what, id rather spend it with the kids. ... then i deered," ive got other stuff to do around here aswell. " instead of just saying no!! AND NOT FEELING GUILTY!!! i thought i had this down already. she doesn't deserve it. and i know that. so i half assed retard and mumbled my way half out of it, she brought it up later that night, it upset her that i didn't want to go. 2 Verbal skills freeze report i got home and the 6yo had some homework to do. the wife didnt understand what it was asking, i said i would take care of it. she hasn't read the instructions. simple spelling homework My daughter and i start on it. we get a minute in and wife comes over, getting involved. i say "we got it" she stays, interrupts again, "we got it, more firmly." she then starts sounding a letter wrong, repeatedly. i correct her, She says :your wrong" i tell her to back off, and leave it to me. She storms off rambling how im teaching it wrong. again, she has not read the instructions. my daughter is getting upset, the parents not being on the same team, and now my daughter thinks im wrong. she struggles through it, but she gets more upset near the end and runs over to mum. I tell my wife she started that whole thing. (i dont know why i said that, it started a back and forth infront of the kids) i was saying we need to be on the same page. This was all a cock up. i should have left the situation when the wife came up and interrupted multiple times. Later i still try to initiate anyway, close to shark week, been 5 bights of rejections in a row, so i dont even try to be subtle, i just grab her by the hand, come here. ( this has never worked before, and didnt now either) she is pissed. last night i got, you are only nice to me when you want something, I laughed it off. i cant be nice all the time. so tonight i get another no, then i get another "you are only nice to me when you want to have sex." "be nice to me for a full day and ill have sex." i laugh. then i witnessed what i havent seen in a long time, her throwing shit against the wall to see what sticks. -tonights Homework -i put her down in front of her dad -i talk rudely -I eat when i want to and organise my food selfishly -i dont message her during the day so she dosnt message me -im controlling about parenting and us spending money. -I didnt want ot go out for our anniversary through all of this i didn't really know what to say. i deered on the homework thing. i couldn't think quickly enough to know what to use, i stfu mostly. i just froze. tired to fuck her later too , she was still angry.

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