One black history / 黒歴史を一つ

I can't concentrate at all, so I'm making no progress. To warm up, I'll share some of my embarrassing past. Come to think of it, it was around this time last year that I was rushed to the emergency room.

A few years ago, I was thinking about becoming a Vtuber and designing various characters. I even made them in 3D because I thought I could turn my habit of working out into a streaming routine, forcing myself to keep up with it.

However, it didn't work out. My arrhythmia, which I mentioned before, got worse, making it hard to stick to a regular schedule. There were days when I'd stand there holding dumbbells for about 30 minutes, doing nothing, and eventually, I couldn't keep up with my workouts.

As for this virtual girl persona, I decided from the start that they would be a futanari. They have a left-leaning curve.

Besides having big breasts, they were meant to be a representation of my fitness journey, so they have a bit of a belly. But beneath that fat, there's real muscle.

When I was regularly working out, I had no issues with neck or shoulder pain, so I'd like to start again. However, it's more time-consuming than I thought, making schedule management difficult. Maybe I should use this character for a workout project. I feel like if I don't link it to my activities, I'll just think, "I shouldn't be doing this." Health is part of my activities, after all.

Also, working out makes my body more and more attractive, which is great.

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まったく集中が出来なくて何も進まないので、ウォーミングアップするのに黒歴史を少々語ります。そういえば救急車で運ばれたのも去年の今頃だったな。

数年前Vtuberをしてやろうとキャラを色々考えてました。しかも3Dで作ってまして、その理由も当時習慣化してた筋トレをどうせなら配信して半強制的に続けるようにしてやろうとの目論見です。

結局とん挫したし以前語ったリズム障害が酷くなって定時の習慣化が難しくなり、不調も出て、やろうとしてダンベルを持ったままボーっと30分ぐらい突っ立っているという日も増え筋トレそのものも続かなくなりました。

で、このバ美肉なのですがふたなりなのは当時から決めていました。左曲がりです。

巨乳はもちろんの事、身体を仕上げていくための存在だったのでお腹もぷにょっています。でも贅肉の下にはちゃんと筋肉があります。

筋トレしていたころは首や肩の痛みなどの悩みは一切なかったのでまた始めたいのですが、思っているより時間がとられるのでスケジュール管理が難しいんですよね。

このキャラ使って筋トレ企画をやってみようかな。なにせ活動をリンクさせないと「こんなことやってちゃダメだー」ってなっちゃうんよね。健康も活動の一つなんだけどね。

あと、筋トレすると身体がどんどんえっちになっていくので良きなのよね。