Health update

Venting time!

Hi guys,
I hope this finds you well. I have been getting worse breathing wise. My doc finally got back to me today. I was so close to going back to the hospital. Had a hard time breathing when just sitting. Getting myself food or just walking a few feet had me gasping for air for a while. So scary, I mean it was just horrible.

My doc put me on a ten day course of dexamethazone this time. Hope it works. The bad part is it makes my body sore in spots, especially when I stop it. Swells me up in spots also. Another thing is it seems the breathing gets way worse again a few days after stopping ☹️

I really hope it helps my breathing because I won't have help tomorrow to get around, get food, feed the dogs and do Benny's meds.

Rocky says he's frustrated, but not because he feels bad about me being sick, it's because he has to help me and do the things I can't when he's here. Benny has been having diahreah and he had to clean poop when I was upstairs.. He said he wants to keep him outside. BENNY CAN'T SEE AND HE'S NOT WELL, HE'S ON HEART MEDS AND CAN'T PROTECT HIMSELF FROM ANYTHING. THAT'S SOME ASSHOLE SHIT. HE SAID I SHOULD STOP HIS MEDICATIONS AND LET NATURE TAKE ITS COURSE. 😡😡 HE SAID IT'S BECAUSE WHEN I'M SICK, I CAN'T CLEAN IT SO HE HAS TO😡 THAT'S CRUEL. HE'S PHYSICALLY CAPABLE OF DOING EVERYTHING. I'M NOT ANYMORE.

IT'S OK THAT I HAVE TO DEAL WITH HIS DOG PISSING ALL OVER THE FLOOR AND ATTACKING BENNY, A HELPLESS BLIND OLD DOG. SMH. HE JUST ATTACKED HIM THE OTHER DAY AGAIN WHILE HE LAID SLEEPING ON THE FLOOR😡 OUT OF NOWHERE.

I KNOW HE JUST WANTS MY OLD DOGS TO DIE SO HE DOESN'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THAT ANYMORE. IT'S HORRIBLE THAT ANYONE COULD BE THAT WAY FOR ALL OR THE WRONG REASONS.

NARCISSISTS ARE THE CLOSEST THING TO A SOULLESS DEMON. 😡

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Be safe be happy and be healthy 🙏