Another-Talk-They-Had (II) [Chapter 242]

|Are you sure?| Harry asked hesitantly, not knowing what to say. To be honest, he never expected anything like this from his mother. He knew she was a possessive woman and she always wanted to have him all to herself, but now she was saying that she was alright with sharing him with other women… What the fuck?

|Yes, Hadrian, I am sure… I have given it a lot of thought and I have decided that yes, I am willing to share with others| Lily assured him in a firm tone.

|But why?| Harry asked in a frustrated tone. All this time, he only wanted to be with his mom. There was only one woman for him, but now that woman was telling him to get more. How was he supposed to react to that, or process that? For all of his intelligence, he didn’t know how to understand women. Unfortunately for him, even greater minds have failed to accomplish such a task.

|Hadrian, I have already answered that| Lily said with a sigh… |Fine! Let’s try something else. Don’t you find Tonks attractive? She can become whatever you want her to become| Lily pointed out, trying to entice him. What boy wouldn’t want a sexy shape-shifter as their lover?

|I find her attractive, but I am not going to ask her to turn into anyone. That would be wrong… If she turns into someone for me on her own accord then I wouldn’t mind| Harry answered firmly and Lily simply smiled smugly at his words.

|See… You already care about her. I don’t think there will be a problem if you accept her as your lover| Lily said and Harry could feel the smugness coming off her. His mom had tricked him into admitting that he wanted to sleep with her and he also cared about her. |And I want you to make me scream when I have a body. So, having more lovers is a definite bonus| Lily added with a toothy grin and Harry froze.

He didn’t know what to think, but the idea was really enticing… Just the thought of making his mother scream in pleasure was enough to make him hard. He liked the idea and he was liking the idea even more with each passing moment… Eventually, he decided to give it a try, but he decided not to use anyone just to gain experience.

He was better than that… If he is going to accept women other than his mother in his life then he was going to make it work. He wasn’t going to half-ass anything…

|Alright… I will give it a try, but not just because I want to gain experience. If I am doing this then I am going full-in. If I accept them then they are going to be my full-time lovers| Harry explained firmly, leaving no room for arguments and instead of becoming angry, Lily simply smiled proudly.

|I have raised you well, my son| Lily sighed in contentment, but if anyone else would have heard her words then they would have smacked her on the face. Lily might have been a good parent once upon a time, but after watching her son getting abused for six long years and after absorbing Voldemort’s Soul Shard, it became simply impossible for her.

Lily loved Hadrian more than anything… She happily laid down her life, so that he could live. Only that was enough to show how much she truly loved him, but the mental strain of watching the same son get tortured for years twisted her mind and Voldemort's Soul Shard twisted it further, turning her maternal love into something else, something unhealthy, and then she twisted her son’s mind.

|So, what now?| Harry asked, not knowing what to do. Yes, he agreed to accept Tonks as his lover, but he wasn’t sure how to do that… He couldn’t simply walk up to her and say that he was accepting her as his lover or could he?

|You need to talk to Tonks as soon as you can. She kissed you and then you left without saying anything… She is probably devastated right now| Lily answered grimly, making Harry scratch his head.

|Why?| Harry asked, sounding really confused.

|Ugh…| Lily groaned in frustration. Maybe, she should have taught him how to understand women along with everything else. |She kissed you, which means, she had feelings for you, but instead of saying anything, you simply left… What is she supposed to think?| Lily asked with a scowl and Harry finally started to understand his mistake.

|I see… I fucked up| Harry admitted with a nod of his head. He was yet to understand his mistake completely, but he was able to understand the basic gist of it… So, with a determined look on his face, he disappeared with a soft pop…

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~~Malfoy Manor~~ (A few minutes ago)

Tonks stared at the empty spot with a blank look on her face before everything finally clicked into place. Her whole body started to tremble before she slumped down to her knees. Her breathing became erratic and messy. She started to heave badly… Harry simply left, without saying anything to her. She didn’t need to be a genius to know that she messed up.

Her heart started to pound inside her head… Harry was gone. She didn’t know what to do if never returned. Just the thought of never seeing Harry again was making her heart clench in anguish… She had been in proper relationships before and she would admit that her relationship with Charlie ended on a bad note, but she had never felt like this.

Black Madness… That was the only thing she could think of. She became smitten with Harry in the first place because of the Black Madness and right now, the Black Madness was chipping away at her sanity… Instead of wasting any time, she immediately clamped down her Occlumency barriers and she immediately felt herself getting better.

Her mind was no longer filled with pain and anguish, but all of it wasn’t gone… Her Occlumency shields weren’t anything to write about, but they were holding for the time being. If her mother was right, then the Black Madness would become a part of her… She would no longer be able to differentiate between her own thoughts and the Madness-influenced thoughts.

Just the idea of turning into someone like her crazy aunt was revolting… It was making her sick. Tonks felt she was going to hurl, but she managed to direct her thoughts in another direction. Her thoughts went back to Harry, but this time, her mind wasn’t on the brink of collapse…

She knew that she had jumped the gun, even though it was a complete accident on her part. When Harry told her to keep everything she found in her aunt’s vault, she ended up kissing him without thinking… She shouldn't have done that. Harry was probably disgusted at her and the very thought of him being disgusted at her was heart-wrenching.

‘Positive thoughts! Positive thoughts!’ Tonks screamed inside her mind before she slapped her own cheeks to focus, but soon her mind started to drift away. ‘I need a fucking drink and then I can probably cry myself to sleep’ Tonks decided, giving up on trying to feel better. Her Occlumency was holding her mind together, but she could still feel the pain and anguish at the back of her mind.

She needed to get sloshed and maybe with some luck, forget everything? So, after grabbing a bottle of gin from her aunt’s stash, she decided to head toward her room, but only after taking a couple of steps, she stopped and turned around. Grabbing two more bottles of gin from the cupboard, she nodded her head in satisfaction and returned to her room…