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I'm no longer on onlyfans, I don't know how to comment on it, to be honest, I took it as given: well, they deactivated me and what? I'm tired of worrying about it, at least they allowed me to withdraw money, thanks for that. At least they did not just told me the page or a user didn't exist, as it was with instagram.

It's shitty, you work on it, you pay interest, but in fact, signing the user agreement, there is a lot told what is required of you, well, if you don't agree, fuck you) And all social networks are fragile, the world is fragile and the body is fragile, everything is fucking fragile, thank you for living))))

After the situation with coronavirus, the world seems to be twisted into some kind of funnel, and something strange and shocking constantly happens, like political conflicts, interesting acquaintances, or abrupt breakups, the loss of Instagram, the loss of onlyfans, music that I unexpectedly make, all this is strangely delicious and sometimes very sad and scary. The world is completely different. And I'm different, it may sound strange, but all these situations, they didn't really change me, but on the contrary, they got those parts of me that I always felt inside myself, but I didn't let them dissolve, because I don't know why, I probably thought a lot, I was afraid a lot. Now I feel like myself and I like it! This is important to me, and I'm also glad that my audience goes with me, because despite all the circumstances, you still stay with me and continue to support my art!

I want to share parts from a diary from different years, as if I wrote then about the feelings that I am experiencing now. There is a feeling that the space is shrinking somewhere, as if you can grab it and it will stretch and the colors will float, it is so liquid and crystalline, bright and frightening.

February 3, 2022

I have an interesting theory of the concept of bright flashes on the sensation board that we wear. The sensation board has its own time and it always moves, it can also have a different background and color depending on what a person is concentrating on now, for example, art or money. In past relationships, I created a great home, a homey feel and did it through a creative approach. I was forced to leave it due to the fact that I was not satisfied with my partner's attitude towards me.

I remember the brightest points of sensations, how good I felt, and I concentrated on them, because good memories are always better remembered than bad ones. And I think about it, I start remembering my other houses and realized that I was always trying to create and decorate something like that. Although I didn't notice these details before, but by changing the focus I took it away and not only in past relationships but in other past homes. Making up my grid of importance, I adjusted certain bright points. If they are replaced internally, then other things will become important. For example, that no one can stand my brain and I'm not waiting for anyone and in general I'm focused only on myself.

July 14, 2022

I was reviewing the notes today and realized that I even wrote about it, that I'm trying to split myself, that I'm not telling the truth, that I'm hiding everything, and now after a while I look at my old notes and seem to be talking in some kind of patterns, it seems to me if I have as an artist, it turns out to go beyond these templates, to go beyond the limits of the self, and my main thing, I will say it again and the most important thing is to do it with taste, then this is a real miracle!

March 12, 2012

I had a dream today that I needed to boot into a computer game to save myself. And this is probably one of my biggest fears of being in another Reality and knowing that there is my real one, but I can't return to it. So, I realized that I needed to split into two parts. I will live in this reality and computer at the same time. And that in the computer I will completely immerse myself in this Reality. And in this reality, my task is to observe my second part and help myself with my voice. With your voice. But my clone from the computer, in addition to this voice, hears his thoughts and he needs to figure out how to hear my voice among others. And when he loads, my clone, well, that is, I, he does not remember at all that somewhere in another reality there is the same exact me who sees and knows everything, and you need to listen to her to return home)

September 20, 2020

I came into this world with something inside me, it's called a soul, depth, a gift or something else. And I feel it all...

sometimes, it completely covers me. In the heart, in the veins, in the throat.

This feeling is neither pain nor joy, it is black as space, with small shining stars. When this feeling sleeps, I can go to him and take my ideas for creativity or just life. But when it comes and takes something from me, I burn with this feeling that I can't recognize.... And what if, when I come to him for my ideas, it feels the same way? What if we get mixed up like that? Does this feeling come into our world through me?

This feeling is insanely wild, and not curbed.

It is difficult for me as a person to understand all this depth, my body simply does not have enough space, and it is so difficult for this huge feeling to fit in this small body. That's how we live. But you know, it's easier not to touch this feeling, not to let it into your body! But what it gives is called beauty, and I am ready to pay for beauty, for the thin strings of sensations with which you can feel the world, people...

November 16, 2021

When creating a project, we try to understand who we are in it. When I create something, I'm looking for someone inside of me.

Someone who is willing to be responsible for it!

I choose this character who will tell you things you haven't read about.

Give out the story of your nude photoshoots and adventures. The story of how I came to this is not so difficult. Because it's already in me, in my memory.

But an interesting and strong person who is ready to tell his intimate story, who is ready to let it grow in other people, and realize that people will see this. Being naked with the body is very easy, but it's difficult for me with the soul!

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