In general, I caught something of my own in this movie…
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Hello, friends. I recently watched “Showgirls” 1995 directed by Paul Verhoeven (robocop and Instinct), I did it for the first time.
It's a film of erotic beauty, crazy dancing and natural movements.
The imperfections of the skin and the actions of the heroes, of lipstick going beyond the edges of delicate lips…
My friend, who's also a stylist, advised me to watch it. In fact, I learned various interesting things about taste, not only in clothes, but also in music, from her, she gave me a lot of interesting vibes.
She photographed me a lot, and she shot my 4th zine ohwhatawoman.
In general, I caught something of my own in this movie…
When you're young, handsome and full of sexual energy, when you're not, so to speak, from a prosperous family and neighborhood, then it's probably a wild mix: you get into various spicy situations and get involved with the same people. Only if you have a desire for something real and calm, then they, the hawks, have already decided on their place in the world. That's why they're trying to get something hot and fast right now, otherwise you, silly, will quickly realize what you got into. Therefore, we need to fuck you quickly, and let it sound literally and figuratively…
I can also be harsh, I don't know why I used to suppress it, and then I just stopped caring. I don't know what it depends on, why sometimes I am abrupt, arrogant and try to see that someone wants to offend me. Yes, perhaps I can be called a drama queen, or maybe it happens to everyone.
Well, in general, these men who came to see women undressing ... and these women who undress for money, it all dragged on and turned out to be a striptease or onlyfans, depends on who's asking
The main thing is what question is inside, what do you ask yourself, what do you say to yourself when you look inside yourself. And who you are: a woman who undresses, or a man who looks.
And no, this is not a question of causing a persecuting Christian shame, but rather just internal attention.
I have said it many times, I will say it again: I do not regret the naked photo, this is my own rock, my own high scale in emancipation. But the only reason I can get upset is that I didn't listen to myself at the beginning of the journey and chose someone else's taste, not my own, because my taste eventually led me to something cool that I like and it doesn't matter which angel I choose today: fallen or risen)
And in the “show girls” there is this taste, the beauty of the female body and movements, costumes, from here you can take for photography, dance and just the taste that characterizes you, as for me. Also, you know, even though this is a 1995 film, but in my opinion it's not about teenagers who have demons in their souls, or 25-year-olds, but about adults. I probably emphasize it this way because I love any continuation of life. I mean, if I'm 30 or older, it's just numbers, no matter how old you are. there is no criterion that you have to give birth or get married at some point. Or if you just moved out at 30 or moved out from your parents and went into a striptease, learned all the difficulties of life for 10 years and only by 45 decided to know the benefits of peace, or maybe not. I don't like numbers, I think it's still important, well, for me personally, to expand this state. I mean, old age is an inevitable process of the physical body, but this does not mean that with increasing numbers in my life there will be less of me and what I like. I think you understand what I mean.
Here I am 28, and I am just beginning my actual stage, I mean, a conscious choice of desire and responsibility for actions in creativity, and just in every day. But this is a test of action. I used to be filled with the meaning of Friday, meetings and champagne as a taste of life. Or I've been to Paris many times, and when I was last this summer after 4 years, I realized that he no longer gives me such importance for myself, I want to come here for another, I want to play my music here, I'm not interested in just sitting here and drinking wine or walking and take a picture: I want to play my music here. Everything is the same as everywhere else: alcohol and people. But I needed to realize this and move on to the next step. Someone is immediately born with such thoughts or comes to them faster, someone later, and someone does not come at all.
And there is also a moment where she dances a striptease herself, but she honestly gives herself to him, but at the same time she does it because she needs money, looks very beautiful. And the moment that the hero grows up in the cinema, but the original formula of her actions remains, she is also familiar to me: it's all about taste, taste can sell a lot.
When I started taking pictures, I gave myself away cheaply, and it's more likely that it's not about money, but just about misunderstanding and fear, about youth. Now I position myself as an artist. Not just as a person who is standing in front of someone naked. Watch the movie! But there is one funny cringe with a moment in the pool, I just laughed, it felt like someone on the set said, fuck, let's put this shit in here too))))
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