I need a camera to show myself young

Hi, these are just my thoughts and notes from my instagram that I had to remove long ago along with the posts because as we all know, instagram has been changing its policy. Anyway, putting the pictures away, I saved my thoughts.

I am a woman, and nature has given me sexuality: it is within me, it is part of me, part of my heart. For me, the feeling of sexuality is harmony and unity within, my home, my strength. I'm glad that I can be free in my thoughts and actions now, glad that I meet the same open people who understand me. Who don't feel anger towards women, towards desire to share herself as something beautiful. I know it can be hard for someone to understand me. Sometimes I feel like a prisoner of desire, sometimes my mind and my sexuality are at conflict in me. It's like there's a pattern in my head where I have to decide for myself which side I'm on: sexuality or mind. Why is there a stereotype in my head that rational girls don't share their sexuality, only with the man they love? I guess I'm guessing, as are a huge cloud of others, but I'm learning to be me, learning to satisfy my desires to stay reasonable)

In fact, we often start out disliking or not accepting something because we were taught to do so, someone showed us. The hardest thing that can destroy a person when they are aware of themselves from the outside is their foolishness and flaws. And can't get over it, and gets scared and shuts down. I've had this happen many times when I've watched myself from the outside and couldn't immediately accept it......

I need a camera to show myself young, talented and beautiful. To tell myself about myself. I want to see myself beautiful, but as I am, and the more I allow myself to be natural in my bumps and blemishes and scars, the more I increase my time to be beautiful in each day.

At times I feel like a lot of interesting people live inside of me. Each one has his own opinion, each one lives my life and the lives of other earthlings.

From time to time I fly deep into space, where it is hard to think about human problems, but I quickly get tired of being away from people.

I love being a girl, and that feeling gets even stronger when I'm dressed only in my underwear and waiting for my boyfriend at home.

For me, my photography is a window through which I can give the viewer a vibe of my sexuality, to show my energy as it is. It's a game with the viewer and his thoughts) Because I just enjoy myself. I want to show the concept of sexuality and eroticism as Art, but without draining the feeling! The way I film myself is how I feel. I am my own instrument!

I spread out in my chair, my legs went under the table, and I looked out the window and thought, "What a fucking long way to go from people and things and places that I didn't like and didn't fit in at all. I go to my art that makes me feel good, to my environment that fills me up. And just inside running my gaze over my tape from the past to the present, my spotlight running through all those memories and understanding that great difference of being in my spot and not in my spot. The most important servant is to crap yourself, to the fear of the great god of change."

In pictures, I like to be beautiful both with and without my clothes on. Honestly, it doesn't make a difference to me. I guess the most important thing is that it fits! Freedom of expression! I believe that when I take nude photos I stay beautiful with clothes on as well! I don't have to choose, I like everything! And I like you too!

Interpretation is a long and complicated word. As a kid, I never thought about the fact that everyone's interpretation is different! And that it mattered. I just acted the way I thought I should, sometimes not understanding why other people were surprised by my behavior! Later, when I started thinking and analyzing a lot, I got scared that I was being unfair! And became very concerned about other people's perception of the world, completely forgetting about my own! First you go one way, then the other! Now because I have learned both sides well, I now try to be in between, in the middle!

I think this will be very interesting for you, it will open up a new facet of vision in you. The man who creates is his own factory, a machine. What a man puts down, that is what he will produce. Creating visualization, what you do is visual. You create a product from what you have seen and felt. If you add something like watching all those weird movies or pictures from a women's prison, it opens up a new vision in you. Anything that is unique and not many people have seen or tried is an interesting twist on your work. It's like a new paint on your canvas that makes the whole drawing matter! Or the dressing in a salad.

I've also decided to get my hair back ) To hold out this way ) I always cut it when I wanted to change myself very much, to look at my world with different eyes ) Last time it changed so much that it was like I even lost myself ) I do not want to get lost anymore, in general I realized that it is the easiest thing - to be constantly lost or renewed, hoping for impulse shots, in an attempt to grow quickly, to break through the dark gray clouds with my little star, but it is so cold for it)

Sometimes in the evenings, when I think that I did something right or wrong, I suddenly remember that here I am just a guest and no matter what I did and did not think about it later, I will die anyway.

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