It mE!

Howdy doody everyone!

After a mind boggling amount of time, I have returned! and I must say, that I am quite shocked, humbled and tearful that there are those still supporting me after all this time.

So first and foremost, I want to say thank you, from the bottom of my lil chicky heart, Thank you, each and every one of you.  Simple words will never be able to express how much it means to me that yah'll stuck around <3 

As for where I've been? What I've been doing? Some of you may remember my old posts, disappearing more and more often due to illness @v@....well I kept on getting sick....and sicker and sicker, until my body could just not take it anymore, I was forced to give up everything to just focus on surviving, all the while having no idea what was going wrong with my body.

Turns out, quite a bit! Got a nice phat double helping of Chrohn's disease and Cyclic Vomiting syndrome! (CVS for short) Quite severe cases as that @c@ Ooooh lucky me~ s/

Unfortunately I'd only gotten those diagnosis's about 3-4 years in respectively, and aho boi, lemme tell yah damage was done, ladies and gents and everyone in between! I went from pushing 120kg to now currently 47kg, and it takes all my might to keep it from dropping  any more, me n food have a...tremulous relationship. 

My cognitive function and memory took quite the hit unfortunately thanks to the CVS, still is, but I consider myself having gotten off lucky despite that, the younger you are the more damage it can do; destroying the ability to read and write. In saying that, I sadly did not get off scot free, but I'd hardly let yah think as such! I work hard to keep these skills polished and practised! :> I dare say it's even forced an improvement out of necessity! :D You'd hardly think I was slurring, stuttering and straight up missing words~

I hope the above explains what's been going on in an informative yet not distressing manner :> I'm sorry it took so long for me to give you all an explanation, it's taken me a long time to get to this point, I needed to build my broken ass-self up anew and learn how to manage my health, which is something I'm still working at but now I feel that it's time to start  again, because I know now that I'm never going to be 100% again, there's no going back for me...sO I'LL JUST KEEP BUSTING ON FORTH, cAUSE BOI HOWDY LEMME TELL YAH THE CREATIVITY REMAINED, I GOTTA SHARE THIS SHIT WITH SOMEONE!!