Some announcements and seeking advices

You’ve received a lot of great advice here. Seems as you can count your community among your reasons to keep your chin up. If you still struggle, or if it comes and goes I’d be happy to shoot you a DM rather than type up a wall here, but the quick version is if you’re in a routine, do something to break that routine. Whatever the reason you may feel bad do something positive for yourself... take a warm shower, eat a healthy meal, take a short walk on a sunny day; even if it’s just to your mailbox and back. Break up monotony and what ever it is you’re doing, take a break as your life allows. You deserve it.

I'm currently in the same boat hana I think about those things everyday

Nicholas Cronin

First at all, don't push yourself too much. Even if you feel that you need a break, just do it. Just take your time to see what's going on, and treat the situation step by step. You accomplished so much in what you love I guess. So take care of yourself. Do some things what you love, be proud of your works already done. From where I live in my little French Jura mountain, I can only send you some good vibes. Take care of yourself and take your time to reinforce your mental health, it's the most important after all !

Neko Taisen

Don't take too much of Patreons fault as your own! Your true fans will know that some times things don't always go as smoothly on this platform! I think you are an amazing and beautiful person! I wish someone as beautiful as you would never be sad! I hope things get better for you and maybe you should reach out like this more often when you do feel things are overwhelming! Love you and take care!

Take care of yourself

Take care of yourself hana, sending positive vibes from a belgian fan 😘

Sven

This sounds really rough, I hope Patreon gets it together soon! I find that staying active and engaging in physical activity will often help break me out of a bad state, as well as listening to music I like or watching TV shows I really enjoy. Things such as drawing can be nice too. Just remember there's people here to support you!!!

It’s very difficult to suggest a method which can actually be of benefit to your mental state as what can work for one person might not work for another. When I went through severe social anxiety; clinical depression, suicidal thoughts and agoraphobia I went through multiple therapists and anti-depressants yet I gave up as nothing was working for me. I gave up on finding help so I kept being consumed by darkness day by day where I was then diagnosed with severe depersonalization disorder. The attacks I had from this were the scariest I’ve ever witnessed, yet what was the scariest experience ended up being the cure for everything as it helped me find the reason as to why I was in that mental state in the first place. What can you take from this you might say? Never give up hope that things will get better, as you never know what comes your way that’ll be the light to your never ending darkness. A possible suggestion could be to go somewhere you can be alone and in peace, preferably around nature like near the sea if that works for you. Let your thoughts consume you and one by one, find the reason as to why you feel that way about a particular moment of your life. Think of it as a puzzle, you have to put all the little pieces together to see the bigger picture. There’s no need to overload your brain at one go with your entire life story, it’s important to take baby steps. A suggestion could be to take notes whilst you remember certain details about each specific moment. Set a goal for yourself, like trying to solve a particular moment of your life every week. Again, the most important thing is to not overload your brain and take baby steps. Take care Hana!

I am very sorry for your problem, for what is causing you, I do not really know how to help you but I give you a tip: stay away from antidepressants, are not help, can only hurt you and as Peter said, that of James Matthew Barrie, Thoughts Happy happy thoughts.... so you fly

kilowat

i dont know if id be much help but as ive dealt with the same thing. but for me me i think im just lucky as i cant confide with my family at all either nor some friends at time cus they just cannot understand how it feels to be going though those emotions the feelings ive just kinda been more to rely on myself. it good that you are very self aware of your situation and that you can understand it and thats a good step to be on i believe because you can self assess the situation as to how you can momentarily escape from that situation or adjust what you can do to make it better or to just temporarily suspend the feelings and or thoughts that you might have going on until you can figure out how you can overcome it or get away from it completely. expression is probably another helpful thing like to release your frustration or to let out some tears if you cant control the constant feeling of sadness that wont go away or just make some time for yourself away from other people like playing games all day or even just watching youtube videos all day something that you can basically just reset. talking to someone can be good too go to someone you can trust very well as they can more than likely tell if youre feeling down with a somewhat understanding but with that being said talking to a complete stranger might serve useful as well as to there is no attachment to each other but make sure its some one who can help as ive made those mistakes myself. also just having someone to vent out to without needing any responds could help as well. i would like to say more but i cant as i dont really know what you situation. but it is possible to over come it, it just takes time you can get though this keep on fighting as your not alone every one who is or not going though a similar situation will help you too as you would for them. wishing you the best and keep fighting. much love.

EJ

i'm sorry to hear that :( i'm blessed with a family that's helping me out with every problem i have - even if we often fight. But still we help each other out. so i can't give you any special tip or write like i know everything. I'm more of a good listener than an adviser (can help with that if you want, you will at least get some laughs with my english accent XD) if it's about payment, i can send you my pledge directly over paypal if you want, no hard feelings for that. There is a saying, in english it should go like this: if it rains, it pours, but the sunshine after it feels more refreshing than ever. (or something like this, but i hope you get the meaning) Pls just don't hurt yourself :(

Strange_B

Ugh hope they sort out the payment issues for good. And they should be more professional with their responses too. May help to just talk to someone, anyone about it. Of course, not anyone per se but if you can't talk to friends or family a counselor or hotline may help to let some of the negative feelings out. As others have mentioned taking a break is good too, be it from work, social media or just stuff. A holiday is good of course, but even if not or if you have obligations that you absolutely can't get away from, short breaks in the week can be a good change of pace too. Hope things get better!

Shiyang

hi hanna, im not going to tell you all the things you have to live for, i will give you some practical advice from some one with actual bipolar disorder and been in the place in my life where i was considering either having my self sectioned or terminating my self. Sorry there is not easy answear but things that have worked for me. Go to the gym work out it increases your endorphins so makes you feel good, take walks in nature its been show to increase the levels of serotonin in the brain and helps make us feel happy. Eat at regular times and eat well and healthy stay away from processed foods and ready meals. Thats about it sad to say but know we are here for you and if you needs to talk im shore we would all respect your privacy if you feel you want to reach out to us to talk. keep strong .

I think its great that you came out and spoke to us about your problem your open with your fans and we wouldn't like to see you go away or disappear. But if i was to give some advice i would agree with James Sohn give yourself some R & R and take your time in your walk in life, your most devoted fans can always wait for you and your damn sexyness anytime and we will understand. Bring yourself first its not bad being greedy yourself at times it will help out. As always we love you Hana_Bunny

I think its been a tough year for you, with all that has happened recently (getting mugged and Instagram troubles), maybe taking a break will do some good. Go on vacation and explore new places and expand your horizon. The most important part is that you are happy with what you're doing and you are taking care of yourself. If all of this is causing you to not take care of yourself and you're no longer happy with it, start over. But it is very important for you to take breaks and take your mind off things that are bothering you for awhile. Continuing to neglect yourself will only make things worse and it will consume you. Don't let that happen. Think about what is best for you and do exactly that. Put yourself first.

Im so sorry to hear that hana im not one to give advise or good with words but where all here to help hana and all the best ❤️❤️

Brenton

Depression rarely goes away and that's really painful. What's been helpful for me is setting easily attainable goals that ultimately build up to an even bigger goal in the long term. I feel like it's great to be productive and move on to other things when something goes wrong and you can't immediately find the solution. I am very proud of you for speaking up about this and I only hope that you pull through. Just like you fought hard against Red Bull recently, I am confident that you'll be able to get another win with Patreon next. Take care, Hana.

I am sorry you're going through this. Honestly, the best thing I can think of is to find a different therapist. One of the big things with therapy is that even a good therapist might just not mesh with you specifically, and that's no one's fault. For something like depression, especially with suicidal ideation, is professional help in sorting out your thoughts, feelings, and expectations. And it's always important to remember that TRYING to get better is always a positive step. Even if it doesn't pan out, the act of seeking help is a good thing. I do hope you can find some peace in all this. Take care of yourself.

Taylor Guest

The only advice I can offer is to get away from the source of your darkness for a while, gather yourself, and tackle it when you regain the strength to do so. I do not personally suffer through what you do, but some of my friends do and the only thing I've been able to do is make sure that they know I'm available for them if they need anything, sometimes by just visiting them and bringing them some food or something.

Chris Luong

it can be hard but it does get better!@

ive been through some tough things through out my life, identify the stressors and some other potential causes , some small things you may not consider being a problem (people too). remove and control what you can in a healthy way the rest let go of. find your center. What is you for yourself and well being. also ive spent less time in social media alot less and what a difference. healthier eating and exercise, meditate often, long walks, please avoid medication.

the best thing would be for you to take a break, away from all this, even without a cell phone! Maybe this gives you peace by not being worried about anything! you cure my drepesion !! be more relaxed please. That's the only thing I can say, even if it's not good at all. PS: maybe this is poorly written, but it is because it is not written in English

I am not good at giving advice. I just wish from my heart that all gets better for you in your personal and professional life. Have you tried Ko-fi? It's not the best platform but I've purchased some photosets without problem there.

Richer

I can only advise to go to Tipee which seem far more reliable and european friendly. Also we are all supporting you and hope for the best for you?

Alain Park Suk S.

As many of us are consumers of your content a lot of our input will be suspect. So always take any of our suggestions with a grain of salt. But you do have many people among us who would happily bend an ear or offer a shoulder to cry on. If therapy and meds didn't help I wonder how much of it is simply environment. Too much negativity and predatory behavior around you. If you are ever in Houston I'd be happy to introduce you around or buy you a drink, and my phone line is always open, I am on call 24/7 anyway for work. Mental and emotional health are far too important to ignore. Never put production over your health, and always be willing to quit or leave if you feel uncomfortable. You don't have to stay anywhere or with anyone who makes you uncomfortable or afraid. You always have the right to leave or disassociate yourself. And there will always be positive people who want the best for you or will sacrifice for your benefit even with hardly knowing you. No matter how long you've known someone or how close they seem to be, if they are a detriment to your health cut them out. Don't weigh yourself down unnecessarily. I sincerely hope you get to feeling more positively and are able to find yourself an inner circle of positive and supportive people. No one deserves to be surrounded by sharks.

Hal Gailey

It requires a great deal of strength to know the need for and to ask for help, thanks for giving us the chance to offer advice and we hope to be able to see you through this. I’ve read many of the replies here and I’m heartened to know that so many care about your well being, there is much wisdom given in the words offered, and perhaps something here may help.

Crawling Chaos

I have no way of offering advice because I do not endure what many others do, so I will not try to pretend to offer blanket advice under the guise of knowing about the subject. I will, however, do what I can and offer support and warm feelings sent your way. I hope you are able to find the self-help and positive feelings you desire and deserve. Sending good vibes, warm feelings, and all the support I am able to.

I be sad if Hana chan do self harm and I pray you good health so be strong. It be a waste to see you gone and your fans will be sad as well. Take a breather with breathing technique or take a swim in the pool will relieved some stress 🐯👍✨

Kilik Taiga

hello hana I have been in your situation and I must tell you that first you must reassure yourself recently I am getting up from another blow more emotional than financial but with the same magnitude you must think that this is not your fault because you are not suffering from the negligence of others and if it is something that affects you a lot and have the responsibility to fix it because you suffer for it in these cases my best advice is that you relax and see the whole panorama so you can give a quick and efficient solution I hope you serve.

Hello Hana! I'd suggest taking a break. Everything's been taking a toll on you lately, especially work related stuff. Take a vacation. Do something you enjoy doing, go somewhere you've wanted to go. Connect or reconnect with family and friends. Distance yourself from any form of stress. And no matter what, we all are always here for you 😊

I know how it feels , I've been through a similar situation and been completely honest to you I can't say I have overcome it but at most endure it, I'm not the kind of person that likes to talk about that with others whether is family, friends or even doctors and whatnot I've been alone for most of the time and like been alone and go through my things alone. So the only advice I can't give you is what I do, take some time for yourself read, clean, go out to take a walk or simply do nothing but rest I also say to myself "if there is something I can do to get over one problem then I'll take it easy and face it little by little and if not then I'll do the same", because the only difference that'll do is make you suffer more. So with problems that are so out of you control like those Patreon issues the best you can do is take it easy to not stress yourself more for that, the people here will understand what happened, we support you and care for you so that's the least we can do. And of course you can always talk to us we're anons available 24/7 to hear you out.

Recommendation for taking a break. Disconnecting for sometime. Relocate balance through a slower lifestyle. Read, and go to someplace less pressuring would defiantly be helpful. We all hope you feel better. Good Luck.

Tile

Hi miss Hana, first of all, i want you to know that you have all my support on whatever you decide to do; and second, as an advice, could be good to stay away from every kind of source of stress, like work, patreon, social medias, etc, and meanwhile, search a good way of treatment, every person is different, so search for something that work for you, personaly, I think that medicine is not very effective, when i was bad because the stress, the best treatment i tried was the psychotherapy, i found a good psychologist than help me to stay on the path of healing. Don't know what more to say hehe i really love your work Hana, but your own health and well being is much more important, your fans will wait for your return 💕 sending you all the positive energy and good vibes 🙌 take care miss Hana 🤗

Maddaux

My partner suffers from Anxiety and depression. Something I feel that can't be stressed enough is to maintain the goal to live. Do what you need to do to keep it going. For more direct advice a phrase I recently read is "anything worth doing is worth doing poorly". This translates to accepting losses where you can and doing what you feel like doing. Examples of this include eating a piece of bread if you don't feel like eating anything at all; washing your face and changing clothes if you don't feel like showering; saying one or two words to loved ones if you don't feel like having conversations. At the end of the day it's about seeking small victories and letting them keep you afloat. I hope you the best

Shiney

I messaged you with some advice. Feel better! ❤

Joshua F Moreno

Take some time off for some R&R. Does the soul good. Everybody has their struggles, the beauty of it is finding the strength to overcome any and all things in your way. Suicide isn’t the answer, even when life gets you down it’s a reminder to enjoy and love your family and friends and the little things that make life worth living.

Hey Hana, I’m diagnosed with anxiety since the last couple of years and can understand what you’re going through. 1- DO NOT give up, it’s alright. Find something you like, even a thought, and hold to it if you feel like something bad is going to happen. 2- Take a quick break. Even in an emergency, you need to think before acting. Breath and ask someone you trust to help with your Social media/Patreon for now. However, schedule the break and think of possible steps to take when you come back. 3- DON’T do everything at once, use this formula: What happened? > Why did it happen? > Ask why again to your answer and keep looking for small reasons/problems that you can handle. Transform the problem into small parts you can handle. Example: My employee didn’t do his papers correctly > because he left it for the last minute > because he didn’t know how to do it and felt pressured to ask > because I was not clear enough reforcing to always ask questions and give feedback. Solution = Set correct expectations for each project. 4- If you fell stressed or afraid to take action, breath and just talk to someone, doesn’t have to be about this. Focus on regaining your Sanity. Once that’s done, move to the next appointment. I’m just a message in the internet, but believe me when I say that you’re not alone. You can reach out to me on the DMs too if you feel comfortable. If not, it’s alright. You can do it.

Cautare

Find a hero/someone you admire, and read about them. I find reading about their struggles to success becomes a way to relate to another person indirectly and makes you realize that you have the same potential, thus lowering the need for such negative thoughts. We' re here for you Hana. Don't lock yourself in. Find someone to talk to. If not, you can always talk to me xd. I'm known for being very understanding and observant. Maybe I can bring a different light to the way you see things?

ongakuchan587

I've been at the point where you are a few times talking with people(not some therapist) it might work some times, but for myself I really needed to talk with people outside my own circle really. There's an artist named Aurora that recently inspired me; she said in her hardest times her goal was not die. She would go to the mirror look at herself and tell herself "it's fine. It's going to be ok. You won't die. I need to take a break from myself. Do something relaxing, but enjoyable for your own purpose, not for anyone else but you". Empty your mind for a bit take a few second to simply breath. Might be a little weird to tell you since I'm a stranger, but if you want to chat DM me. I've been in some deep shit and gotten out of it and I've also tried to help other people with some of the same issues. If people want advice I give it, if someone only needs someone to listen to them I do not so. Either way I hope you figure it out 😊

Both my wife and I have depression. If you don't have someone else to talk to, I recommend staying with therapy since that is someone to talk to. Try different therapists (psychiatrists prescribe meds and maybe there is one that can help) until you find one you're comfortable with. As far as Patreon payments, take a break for a day before tackling that problem again. Their saying you have to fix it somehow just isn't good enough. I often just call back another day in hopes of getting a better customer representative. Someone involved in payments (whether Patreon, bank, or another company should be able to give you better advice on what to do). Exercise, pets, and nature can all be good. They are not cure alls but are not worthless. I probably don't have the best coping mechanisms myself, but I try to distract myself until I feel like dealing with things.

Tony F

First of all, I would recommend you to take a break. It’s good to take one some times, so you can enjoy yourself and free all the stress you got working. Watch some series, movies, animes, etc. Try to hear some musics that motivate you, maybe your favorites. Also, I might recommend you to play videogames, that’s what helps me to free stress eeeeveryday. I’m not sure if you play them because my memory sometimes is dumb with what I see on the net 😅😂🤣 but it’s always good to try it something new 👍🏻 something that videogames taught me is to not give up, keep trying. I know we don’t have 2 or more lives, so just don’t give up, don’t get the life crush you. One last thing I would recommend you is to relate and trust others. I know you said it’s difficult for you to trust in someone, but try to find someone you feel comfortable to relate and spend time with. Maybe someone with your same hobbies, something both have in common, so you can keep communication with that person and, in your opinion, see if it’s someone you can trust in. Anything you need, I’m sure we all will be here to support and advice you. Hope you have a great week 😊 and be positive 😁👍🏻

Ricardo Fung

I don't have too much advice, but I'm a good ear to listen to your situation. I tried to keep things in perspective and only worry/stress over things I can't direct influence or effect. Things you can't control there is no reason to worry about because you can't effect it anyway. Let me know if you want to talk more. Hang in there and hold the line! 🤗🤗❤️

FrozoneUSMC

Always take time for yourself. Play some games, I’m always here to chat if you need anything. You have been really amazing and I supported you because of the amazing photos but stayed because of the awesome person you are! Things will be hard in life, but you have people here to support you! ❤️

Hipper

Hey Hana. I've been a long time supporting and have seen you grow. Keep up the good work. If you need to take time off we'll understand. Also, try looking for alternatives to Patreon. Just let us know in what other ways we can support you and we'll follow. Have a nice day!

Joshua San Gabriel

Hana, you are amazing and I love your work. I have been struggling for the past 5 or 6 years now in a similar mental state as you with very little support from my family. In fact working through my anxiety and my pride to finally ask them for help was hard and sadly when I did I just got pushed away even further. There is a stigma behind mental health in my family and the help I need is very much out of reach. In order to keep going I have learned to accept the demons I face. Instead of fighting them to defeat them you should fight them to help them. Maybe that idea sounds very cheesy but I strongly believe in it. In order for me to get to a better mental state I used to find myself escaping into a good video game, movie, or even a book. But I realized those are not fixing the root of my problem. So now I try to do something better for my self esteem. The thing I found makes me really feel good about myself is helping others in need such as you right now. I may not be able to offer you much except words of advice and comfort. I would love nothing more than to just give you a huge hug right now. But what I can do is encourage you to keep going with your whatever you are most passionate about. You have people here like me who admires your work not just because you're insanely beautiful but because in some ways you are an inspiration for me to help others when and if I can.

Everyone goes trough some difficult times from time to time, but I honestly believe that saying that you don't have any friends to confide in, might be a little extreme. I'm sure that everyone supporting you here wants you to be happy. I'm one of these people. I've dealt with these kinds of thoughts myself, thought I had to go trough everything alone, but the people that I least expected to help me, stayed by my side the entire time and helped me get my life back on track. If you ever feel like talking about whatever, I'm kinda available 24/7 (should probably go and see a doctor cause i've been suffering from terrible insomnia these last few months)

Take some time for yourself... definitely find a friend who you can trust. If you need someone to talk to I wouldn't mind helping, just reach out. Hope you feel better soon.

Only can say the generic things, do stuff that makes you happy, have fun, try not to think too much about it, there are things in life which won't go right but at least there are people who are willing and care for you even though not in person, such as your friends, family, fans. Just live for yourself, not for the sake of the others, but your own sake. Just know that there's people supporting you in things you wish to do, such as your friends, maybe family, and definitely your fans(not sure all but I'm one). So just do your best to live on, do your best in life, we'll support you. (≡^ω^≡)9

Listening to music and/or watching a good movie helps me when I feel a bit down. This is just my theory: Physically, you are probably not taking in as much oxygen as you should. So, anything that helps you taking more oxygen and improve blood circulation will help. Examples would be exercise, cardio or weight training. Easiest of them being simply walking. Take a stroll somewhere, but make sure you're in a pleasant area. You can also visit Buddhist temples or any where that is spiritual. That would help you find peace and solace. You need to get out of the house, but try to get back before sunset. Hope this helps.

Ming H. Lee

I have a new puppy and that work for me, before him i have suicidal thoughts, but now i have someone for how i am look. Another thing that help me is clean me place, start for organize your drawers and throw away the garbage. Try talk whit someone else, when i hit bottom i talk whit my thesis director and him was so understanding and kind that it helped me overcome my fears, is hard dont have friends that happend to me if you need i can be your friend i’m good listening and i really want to see you happy... (Sorry for bad english not my native language)

What helped me was learning about psychology. It helped me to order my thoughts somehow, showed me how to react to my environment and showed me how to recognize my own selfharming behaviour. Other than that learning musical instruments helped me alot. During practice my brain is so focused on the task that I am not able to have any other toughts. Also a healthy diet is important. Sugar and too many carbs give you a short high followed by a long low. I hope this somehow helps you. I know what it feels like and you are not alone. Sorry for my bad englisch and greetings from germany.

Don't have any advices, but I'm rooting for you to go through this!

Lucas Santos

If you couldn’t find a way of releasing the stress, I recommend going to the gym sometimes. It really helps out. And I actually know as a fact that talking to people even with strangers about your “personal life” or anything that stresses you out can be really helpful. Since that person doesn’t even know you.

I am here if you need some one to talk to. Never hesitate to reach out. We definitely all want to see you in a happy and healthy place. Mental health is just as important as your mental health. We are here to support you and get you through any hardships or difficulties.

Andrew Chi

To be honest, if this is about financial problems, there’s always a way out. However, if it’s about health, stress, anxiety, etc. I really recommend taking a break, hope you have saved some money to go on a trip, no matter by yourself or with friends and family. I can’t fully relate with you current mental state, but I’ve had friends with depression and anxiety. The best way to cure it is to be in their own confort zone and have a way to release the stress.

As much as it would suck for us, it sounds like you need some time to relax and focus on yourself. Do the things you love, listen to songs that make you happy, and try to open up to at least one person you care about, even if it's hard. That will help a ton. Also writing your feelings in a diary has been shown to help express yourself as well and release some negative thoughts. Best of luck!