Muse...

M U S E…

mvooz/

noun

/mjuz/

(1) (verb) inspiration, creative influence, deep thought, thoughtful consideration, contemplation, stimulus

(2) (noun) capitalised: in Greek mythology any of the 9 sister goddesses of Zeus and Mnemosyne presiding over song and poetry and the arts and sciences;

(3) (noun) the source of an artist's inspiration;

I didn’t think I would ever model again, I didn’t think there was a place for someone like me… it certainly wasn’t that opportunity wasn’t knocking - I’ve been in and around the arts a lot for most of my life. I just didn’t have the confidence to even hear it, let alone do it! I have been asked the same questions over and over by a lot of different people because of this, my answer has varied but I regularly find myself saying “sometimes I think about writing my story as it’s too long to explain.” I haven’t started writing. But I have thought about it, and how to even begin… but this quote jumps out at me and I think probably helps begin to explain what happened:

"I think that we are like stars. Something happens to burst us open; but when we burst open and think we are dying; we’re actually turning into a supernova. And then when we look at ourselves again, we see that we’re suddenly more beautiful than we ever were before!”

- C. JoyBell C. -

The world was tearing me apart, everything was on fire and slowly but surely exploding around me, to the point that my ears opened to hearing what was being said to me, to what was being presented to me. I felt I had nothing to lose and potentially a lot to gain, so in the rubble of my life I burst out of my comfort zone and gave it a go. And here we are. But I still don’t understand being called a Muse… I don’t know if I will ever understand this stage of my life, maybe when I am old and wrinkly?… or maybe I won’t ever, but what I can say is that I am grateful. Truly deeply grateful to everyone I have met and worked with, every conversation and adventure, and the unique eclectic life I now have, and the humans in it that wouldn’t have been otherwise.

What would life in Melbourne have looked like if I hadn’t - or worse - if I had quit again after that 1st or 2nd not so great shoots...

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