i´m tire of life and General F.Y.I about everything

I will  try to post more content everyday.

this month i lost at least 10 patrons and i don´t know if it was for that or other stuff! 

 last month i did a horrible typo that ressembled a racial slur and someone was upset (i didn´t noticed due to the "beautiful" notification system of this page)and i didn´t noticed until it was too late,i corrected the thing but the patron was lost already and i don´t know if more people left for that but i am NOT a racist and surely i would not put such a word as a joke on a post

I DONT WANT TO LOOSE YOU!  and i´m sorry! it´s not your fault i´m a sorry piece of sh*t uncapable of doing streams, give you more content like decent art, brushes or timelapses videos etc! i know! i don´t want to get you into my life problems or for you to feel pity and throw money at me! i just work with what i can and do as much as i can! i´m living with my retired parents, trying to take care of them, the house and work at the same time in this hell whole of country constantly having power outs (yes! they do happen and that often! i´m not lying) i work every day and i  only take 3 hours of for me (1 at the morning to excersise and 2 at night for me to relax and live) and i´m desperately triying to move out from here so i can run this page better for you and have a life of my own and i´m so tired that everything get´s in my way and i loose time constantly! getting a job every day becomes harder here and thanks to you i got to live from doing what i like after wasting 20 plus years of my life! i can´t afford to loose you!

now i´m doing one day comms/ one day pages and working several comms at the same time so i can post more content for you!

it´s the least i can do since i can provide much extra content as other patreon creators.

And i´m sorry i dump all of this on you but i just need a neutral place to get things of my chest and also, becuase you pay me so you deserve at least the truth!

again! i don´t post this as an excuse or for you to feel sorry! i just want you to know why things take so much frikin´ time for me (or why i don´t offer better stuff) anbd for you to konw that i´m sorry i can´t do better and that you do mean a lot to me! if this fail, without you, i don´t have nothing!