November is going to be a dry month.

(TL:DR :: Mr. Negative's bad month, bad art, and grim future.)

I thank you all for your support, and I apologize but November is going to be a dry month. I'm faced with the persistent issue of my twitter being search/discover banned which has cut off my follower growth (and people seeing any of my tweets in general)

As I struggle to find a work around or alternative, I've had to confront the very real issue of the purpose of my twitter and this patreon.

I was never really in it to make it big. This was a therapy action for me to work out a lot of issues though art. As I started serializing and cataloging my work it became more and more about what I could do and how much I could do, and making other people happy.

That started a feedback loop which ultimately wasn't healthy. I got hungry to see new people, to do more, to interact with more people and so forth. But, particularly as my twitter has been isolated, pillowfort hasn't had any growth at all, and I just don't have the energy to post my stuff elsewhere consistently... I've had to look at how much of my life became dedicated to making art that only a few dozen people enjoyed.

Those people, you first and foremost among them, are my number 1 cheerleaders, and I am extremely grateful for the boosts, the interactions, and the donations, support, contribution, tips and more. However, again, this wasn't meant to be a thing I did, not as a career, not as a job, only as a hobby, and the more emphasis I've put on trying to find my "big thing" so I can "really take off", the more and more I've felt like I've hit a wall.

What I need, is some time to figure my stuff out, and decide where I want to go from here.

There is a very real possibility that I will not be able to, that what I want to do just isn't at the drawing tablet anymore. This was the longest, most consistent daily thing I've ever done. It was fantastic when it was working, but as it started to slip away, it's felt like trying to grab sand, and scramble to hold it as it goes through my fingers.

I hope to find a way to continue, and to grow again. And I hope to make a lot more art for you.