I'm sorry

Once again a failed month in terms of content to a point where I'm not comfortable charging for that little bit I did. Because of that I paused the upcoming charge. As always just stay a Patron and the membership extends to the entirety of November without extra costs.

I'm currently really struggling with art. Everytime I get something done I still don't feel satisfied at all and every single time when I finish something like the comic pages I did this month I've a short-term burnout where I can't do anything productive for a couple days. I tried to get something done for Halloween but besides some bland pumpkin picture I just couldn't do it. I had a couple ideas where I started working on it and quit really fast and tried something new multiple times. Most of those ideas were not achievable in a quality I could be proud of due to time constraints and because I was pushing it too much. In the end I then tried something fairly simple and got pretty far but stopped, turned off my PC and went to bed early with headaches, writing this post now. Even if I would've finished it, the dissatifcation I'd feel from it would be worse for me than nothing.

I didn't play much games the past 2-3 weeks and there was like 1 real life activity for a day in total. I don't want you guys to think that I'm slacking off the entire month doing nothing but playing games. Most of the time I was spending in Blender, learning, trying and problem solving which is a form of procrastinating I guess. It's just way more comfortable than the thought of going back to work with a program which isn't made for animation at all because I want to keep it visually consistent. Speaking of that, I said "fuck it" and I now will animate the succubus TG animation in Blender. I'll try to be as consistent as possible to the rest but I figured / assume you guys probably don't even care if the end result looks good or better. I won't jump right at it tomorrow but more about that in the next paragraph. I got a few renders (including animations) which I did for testing purposes in Blender, I'll post them tomorrow.

During November I want to try something new. I want to do a daily challenge for the entire month or at least the first 2 weeks minimum, where I finish something every single day. Most of it is supposed to be animated and I want to do everything in Blender. I'll focus mostly on transformation in various ways, not always TG and probably not always human everytime either (can be something abstract). I want to stay true to my roots as much as possible if time allows it though. There may be some things which I technically finish in a day but they need the night to get rendered. In that case I'll post a WIP and the finished project the next day. I want to use this challenge to give you guys finally more TG/TF animations and also show off all the things I learned in Blender. Time has proven that my words are pretty empty and I hope I'll have the energy to proof it with my actions. I'm a pretty competitive guy though, so maybe a challenge doesn't seem that bad.

The issue with Dropbox seems to be solved and I'll switch back to it tomorrow by posting new reward folders.

Alright, that's it for now. Sorry once more for the huge wall of text. Most of you guys probably just want some content and don't want to put up with my rambling, but thank you to everyone who read it and thank you a lot for the support.

🎃🎃🎃Happy Halloween🎃🎃🎃