Zackarias A.

Goodbye

Added 2019-05-27 06:23:11 +0000 UTC

TW: animal death, graphic description, depression

Today, early in the morning, my dog died

It was.... not a peaceful death, he ate a toad, and got medical complications.... I took him to the vet as soon as he got ill.... but due to a bad diagnosis his condition got worse

He was my best friend for over 7 years, a very sweet and loving dog, who helped me trough my worse times with his love and companionship, even on my worse days when I was ready to end it all, I always stopped myself because I didn’t wanted him to feel alone

We tried everything to save him, but unfortunately his condition spiraled out of control, and .... he started puking blood

He collapsed in my shoes, and even tho my family managed to get him to the vet.... he didn’t make it

I was asleep while all this happened, due to spending the night awake taking care of him and the puppy we are fostering, I got the news once I woke up

I feel guilty and heartbroken, that i couldn’t save him, and that i wasn’t even present during his last moments, he deserved better than that, he deserved so much better than that

My family tried to not tell me what happened, but the truth hit me when I put on my shoes this morning

I’m not sharing this to make anyone sad, I’m trying to find a way to cope and art is the only way I seem to deal with anything anymore

I wish I could had even got to say goodbye, to my best friend, to the one that loved me unconditionally

I’m sorry, I miss you already..... I love you.... I’ll see you in the afterlife