Nuki News #33: Taking the Big Risk

After going through October, I’ve come to the conclusion that it is time to move on from my day job, and do art full-time. Looking back at the start of October, I think that’s why I was so nervous initially. Because inside I knew I should pursue my calling, my heart’s desire sooner than later.

But why now? After working here for 4 years, I’ve found no joy in my day to day work- and emotionally I feel pretty numb or frustrated with it. Even if they paid me double, triple, etc, the money just no longer matters to me. There’s nothing left for me to get out of this job, and frankly, I find it is just blocking my path, or slowing me down to getting to do what makes me happy. There’s only so much I can (healthily) manage with a 40 hour a week time-sink my job presented itself as and try to grow my art career at the same time.

I know, now of all times, leaving a spot of security is crazy- but as well, it’s also been the ignition and catalyst for me to leave. With all that’s going on in the world, being stuck doing something that makes me stressed or unhappy makes even less sense. The meaning behind my day job’s work, to me, just seems even less worth doing and the pandemic certainly exacerbated my negative feelings toward it. I’d rather make art of chubby furry animal people even if I’m effectively making half of the money. I don’t make this decision lightly of course, and if you’re reading this you’ve probably been reading my previous posts and know that this has been my game plan since I started. After 10 months of building up my art hustle, I’m confident in my capability.

This isn’t going to be an easy transition either, but with what I’ve managed to save I’ve bought myself quite a bit of time to figure out how I’m going to grow and make this work. I know that if I can manage what I have with 160 hours per month sapped by my day job, it can only go up from here if I move to doing art full time. I am hungry to prove to myself I have what it takes to pursue art for a living. Over the course of the 4 years working at this job, I’ve grown a lot personally, found my artistic voice and style, my audience, and so much love and support. I want to show everyone the magic and power of intimacy and physical touch- real or imagined- through my art. I want this to be my next 4 years. There’s going to be struggles but I will learn a lot- when I’m 31, I know I’ll have put a lot of experience under my belt. I'll either regret making sucha crazy move, or be thankful I started when I did.

Thank YOU most of all for helping me get here. Whether you’ve been reading my NukiNews posts all this year, supported me with commissions or to this Patreon, following me on Furaffinity and Twitter. Doing these basically each week has helped me think critically about my next steps and kept me accountable. I think the following NukiNews posts I’ll be doing a decade-retrospective from 2010 to 2020 for my life and art development.