July Update #1

So this move to another world is very much absorbing most of my  time, energy, ideas, and patience.  I have faced unexpected blowback  from people on social media and in private messages.  All of it is  Amerocentric bullshit telling me that I'm making a mistake or that I am  somehow offensive.  This absolutely astonishes me.  I never thought that  leaving the United States would be as controversial as it is.  I never  thought that saying "I've had enough" would be such a direct invitation  to MAGA trolls.  I'm processing so much cultural trauma right now I can  barely see my hand in front of my face.  Even though I am pretty scared  of all the unknown variables coming at me as I make this transition, the  uproar has helped make it clear that this is important to do, to  document, and to help others achieve.

Recently,  I had a brush with a cop that really stuck with me.  I'm still too  upset about it to write it out because the experience highlighted all of  the other experiences I have had with police since I was a child in the  ghetto of Long Beach, California.  The first time I saw a full SWAT  team in action, I was only five years old....and they were busting up  the crackhouse next door.  I'm so tired.  In my bones, in my heart, in  my very soul, I am exhausted by what I have witnessed and experienced in  this country.  The way that white police officer rolled up beside me  and stared into my little car to profile me before he started following  me is just another little painful reminder of why this dramatic move is  in my best interest.

To  transmute the avalanche of stress I have been under, I've been enjoying  the alchemy of my cousin's talent for blending cannabis terpenes.  By  matching several different strains to create unique harmonies, she has  mastered the art of making medicinal flower blends that truly relax and  elevate at the same time.  I've also been swimming in her chlorine-free  pool and petting her adorable poodles.  #BlackGirlMagic  I don't even  have to say goodbye when I leave for Europe, because she's planning to  come visit just a couple of months after I arrive!  Found family is the  best family, in my experience. 

I can't wait to travel all over  the world with Ruby.  From the local sights in our new home country to  big adventures in Southeast Asia, we have so many amazing places and  people to see!  I am so grateful to be with someone who shares my  passion for travel, music, art, fashion, food, and so much more.  Once  we finally get some stability and just a thin slice of peace, the  creativity is going to flow!  So, when we're not galavanting all over  the Earth, we will busy with projects ranging from personal vlogs to  music albums to novels to full-length features someday.  We both want to  wedge some formal education in there as well.  -smiles-  It might be a  bit chaotic, but I wouldn't have it any other way.  <3