Had to redo the patch in my tire today. Not the one that had the big ol bolt in it from a month or so back, but a different tire. It had been leaking air slowly so that I'd have to fill it up once a week just to keep it inflated. Decided to do something about it when I went out to fill it up and there was only 7.5 pounds of pressure in it (I usually have it set to 35 pounds).
Drew some last night with some pretty terrible results. Cooper gave me pointers on where to fix it, but I've been super frustrated about it since then. I look at other people's drawings and go "Man! Why does my stuff always turn out like shit compared to theres!?" Obviously it's a difference in skill level. I'm already aware of that. But it still pisses me off that I still can't draw something that I like the end result of. Makes me go why bother sometimes. You know?
I'm not looking for any "but your art is cute!" compliments and the like, because honestly that makes me feel worse. I know it's in good intentions and I'm happy when someone says so, but it doesn't help with my annoyance with myself and my ineptitude sometimes with my lack of art ability. Then there's days like today where I feel shitty about my art and just want to get shit done but Cooper won't allow that because I pay him to not let me slack off, which means redoing a bunch of shit multiple times over. Again, only have myself to blame with that.
Anyway I gave fuck all about my diet today and eating absolute terrible high calorie shit and about to eat more because fuck it all for today. Woo!
Perrin Rynning
2018-06-25 05:37:07 +0000 UTC