HBS 2-week Update (1)

I want these bi-weekly updates to be less an account of the himbo summer and more focusing on the areas which I'm maybe struggling with. I genuinely would love some advice if you’ve got it for these areas. I don’t want this to just be bitching and moaning.

In an overarching sense things do feel like they are on track. But the big wrench in the works is the Internship I'm currently doing. Don’t get me wrong, I'm grateful for it. It’s a part of a scholarship so I'm technically not doing free work (less than min. Wage tho). But it's just…so time consuming. Slightly boring too and not exactly fulfilling of my soul. And no matter how productive I am, they just keep giving me more work. I’ve completed 3 or 4 times the work of both my co-interns COMBINED(and helped them with some of theirs); and yet they just keep piling busy work on for me to do. So a 9-5 with 2 hours of commuting 5 days a week. Little bit time crunched is all, and it feels like it's been sorta difficult to focus on the vibes.

But onto more concrete struggles.

Set A

The biggest struggle here is definitely the social media task. It’s just such a struggle to pump out content at a rate the algorithm likes. Tho I’ve always heard that consistency is the really important thing here so maybe it’s just a matter of once a week. Maybe twice?
It’d be nice to just get some growth going, but the formula to get it feels so abstract and confusing.
But i’ve got a few ideas in terms of voiced content so lets try that out over the next few weeks.

Set B

I think the largest struggle here is 100% Task 3, Flirt, flaunt and fondle. I think the trouble is 2-fold.
1. I am very much not in a place where I can be doing a whole lot of it. Most of my internship coworkers are either women or very very old. I am doing okay in terms of flaunting just cause i’m kinda big enough now that even in more baggy clothes you can still kinda…tell.

2. Even with the himbo programming my natural inclination to kind of shy reservedness is constantly battling. So it rarely stays in the forefront of my mind. And when it is in the forefront I always chicken out.
I think the closest fondle/flirt I've had was when I jokingly punched the bicep of a pretty built gym regular who I talk to and told him he was looking good.

I think for this one i’ve just gotta try to take chances where i can. Maybe devote the time table for next week to it in one way or another

The time table tasks have helped me to keep some of the Himbull vibes as well as to maintain a level of consistency and accountability in some abyss production processes.
But I’m not as tightly tied to them as the major 8 tasks. And I'm just taking them as they come.

The last struggle i’ll talk about is Task 2. Semi-permanent changes. This is simultaneously a lesser and greater struggle. It’s just indecision frankly.
I’ve settled on the idea that I want to do something with my hair first; but what that is I have no clue.
Literally I've gone through a half dozen different options. Getting it cut. Going to a salon to get it treated. Dyeing parts of it. Getting finasteride for it. 

I kinda just settled on revamping my shampoo and conditioner regime with some new brands but that feels insufficient. If every semi permanent change is gonna be like this i’m gonna have a very bad time.