An Apology Post

Hello everyone, I hope you guys been doing well

I want to start by apologizing for my long absence. I know it's been a while since I posted or shared any updates, and I have been meaning to explain what been going on.

Lately, I have been busy dealing with my stress and my burnout while also pushing myself to make mods. But somewhere along the way, I found myself running on empty. I kept feeling overwhelmed, pushing myself alot to make mod without giving myself time to breathe. The stress and burnout piled up quickly, and it is became clear that I needed to step back and tend to my mental and emotional well-being before I could keep creating more mods

Sorry that it took me nearly a month to starting feel okay again as I don't want to rush myself again through my healing process and then get burnout right after 1 to 2 weeks and feeling like I'm a complete useless. Its taken a lot of patience and gentle self-talk to accept that healing isn’t linear—and that I needs to take things slow. I’m learning to treat myself with the care that I needs as a human.

I also want to apologize for just suddenly disappear without announcing. The breakdown from my burnout hit me much harder than I expected. It took an immense amount of effort just to drag myself out of bed each day. I felt so stuck and overwhelmed, both physically and emotionally. What confuses me the most is how I could be doing so well for the first time in months, finally making real progress, and then wake up the next day feeling totally dissociated, drained, and numb—as if all my strength gone overnight.

Finally, I want to give my thanks to everyone who have been supporting me and friends who been telling me to slow down and take rest, I really needs that even though I might sounded very avoidant about it. While I know I'm still not at my best shape yet, I still want to take on some slow project that I been left off for almost a month by now and this time I promise I wont rush myself like a horse again. Thank you! I'm truly appreciate every small supports you guys been giving me ^^!