Update

My power and internet are back and I'm back at my place. But my medical problems have really flared up recently and I'm going to be a bit slow on posts. I have a lot of problems, and despite going to lots of doctors appointments, I don't have any answers about how to get better.

I'm leaning on family and friends right now because my physical well being has greatly affected my mental health. My days expire early because my body just can't do anymore. I haven't been finding joy in my recreational time lately because I'm always looking over my shoulder trying to avoid migraines. I'll list what I've been going through here:


- Pain in neck ( Popping and cracking just moving my neck around. )
- Pain in my neck right at the base of my head, where my head meets my neck. Feels like it causes me headaches and migraines a lot.

- Back pain ( popping and cracking a lot. )

- Trapezius muscle pain. Stiffness tingling.


- tingling behind my right shoulder blade.

- Honestly the tingling can happen anywhere that was previously painful too.



- Numbness and tingling in my wrists, fingers, trapezius, back, arms.

- Sometimes areas on my body will tense up. Like someones squeezing them and won't let go. Then it'll ease off for a sec and then start right back up. The areas that seems to happen are. My head muscles( Like the upper sides of my head. ), My wrists, palms, fingers, outsides of my legs, honestly anywhere. And what's weird is it can be on one wrist (numbness, tingling, or squeezing pain) and then swap to the other wrist.

- Muscle spasms like anywhere. My arms sometimes. My legs sometimes. Anything and I can't really pinpoint what's causing it. Sometimes stretching helps, or laying down, but if I retake the same position it'll come right back....and sometimes there's just nothing I can do and it just refuses to quit.


- Ringing in my ears ( Usually one or the other. ) I don't know if it's correlated but Sunday night was when my left trapezius hurt and I also had ringing in my left ear that same night.

- Dizziness. It doesn't happen all the time. And sometimes it's kinda there but I barely notice. And somedays I'll wake up and the moment I rotate my head my world will feel like its spinning. It'll usually settle if I maintain that head position for a while. But do it again if I move from it.


**Eye/visual symptoms include:**
- visual snow, sparks, migraines auras ( They come up in my vision after where I'm looking starts to look blurry, but stretching usually seems to help those go away. **Downward Dog, and Cobra pose** But sometimes stretching doesn't work and cracking/popping my neck is the only way to release it. But even then sometimes nothing seems to work, and it'll either continue worsening until I get a headache or migraine, or just randomly go away once I move my body a certain way. )

- shaky vision ( Like focusing on one spot seems to very hard for me lately )

- flickering/flashing vision ( Different lighting adjustments can trigger a spasm of flickering, but on some days my vision will be flickering all the time. It actually seems to be associated with whether my neck hurts that morning or not. And may get worse if my neck starts to hurt during the day. )

- light sensitivity. Lights stick around on my eyes as after images for a really long time. And even the things I look at for less then a second can be left as an after image over my eye. Lights just seem a whole lot brighter lately. And finally, double vision. Exactly what it sounds like. I'll see a slightly transparent version right next to whatever I'm looking at. It's been getting worse lately and it happens every night now. To the point where if I'm seeing double I just have to stop for the day and lay down.



This isn't everything, but I've been having hella neck pain and upper back pain lately.

While performing some physical therapy exercises I actually seemed to trigger numbness in my left hand that lasted for hours yesterday. It really freaked me out, but luckily my friend came over to help me.

To summarize, I have no idea what's happening to me. And I haven't gotten any concrete answers from my doctors. My symptoms have been getting worse over the last 4 years, that's why there are so many listed there. But it's become too much for me and I haven't been able to stop talking to friends over discord servers and calls. When I'm alone, I'm at my worst.

**Posts**
I'm trying to relax because I think I overdid it with physical therapy. I have Caffe Futanari teasers coming that have already been completed. Just have to find them and post them. My medical bills have really been scaring me lately so Commissions I will try to continue posting on here as I complete them. I really appreciate everyone lately, especially everyone here on Patreon. Without you guys I'd be much worse off. I hope I can repay your kindness as I get better. God I hope I get better. Thank you for listening to me and I'll try to keep you guys out of the dark in the future. The more people around me, the better.