I know a lot of you are just here to see my body..
Added 2024-09-21 18:42:43 +0000 UTCI also know that a small group of you are genuinely here for me & want to support me however you can.
I've been seriously struggling lately. Physically, mentally, emotionally.. All the ways really.
Today everything kind of came to a head & it's just been one of those tremendously awful days where I can't stop crying & feel like an absolute failure at life/everything.
A ***SUPER SAD-urday*** if you will...
Even feeling devastatingly depressed will not keep this girlie from making a pun.π
Anyway.. All this is just to say, I'm not doing too good right now & I could really use some positive thoughts or words of encouragement.π
Thanks friends & I hope you're well,
because life can be REALLY hard sometimes..β€οΈβπ©Ήβ€οΈβπ©Ήβ€οΈβπ©Ή
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- L i v
Comments
Thank you Finbar.β€οΈβπ©Ήβ€οΈβπ©Ή I hope you are well, friend.π€π₯°
Liv
2024-09-22 14:55:43 +0000 UTCWelcome & hi! I'm really glad you're here. Thank you very much for your comment. I really needed to hear some of those things, so thank you. I've had depression & anxiety since I was an adolescent. Have seen between 10 - 15 various mental health specialists (counselors, therapists, social workers, life coaches, nurses, Drs, etc.) over the last 15 years. Sometimes things just get so bad I feel like I haven't made any growth or progress & it can feel quite catastrophic. I haven't had insurance for about 6 months so I had to stop my antidepressants that I was on for years "cold turkey." Also Fall is always just sad in general bc I know winter is coming & it is my arch nemesis, what with that lack of sunlight & all. I just feel like I've never had the right brain chemicals, ya know..? Sometimes (a lot of the time) I think about all the cool things I could accomplish if I had an actual 'properly functioning' brain & it makes me sad. But I also think if I had a "normal" brain then maybe I wouldn't be nearly as creative or interesting or caring even.. Who knows..? I know it's not great to think about all the "what-ifs" but it's something I still do quite a bit. I really want to get back to seeing a therapist but finding one is a whole other battle in itself. Anyway, thank you again for your kind & insightful comment. I'm sorry it's something you also struggle with, but it's at least a little comforting to know we are not alone in these feelings.β€οΈβπ©Ή
Liv
2024-09-22 14:46:29 +0000 UTCJust know life can be difficult but take your time know you doing your best . Take each day at a time believe in yourself .
Musicman
2024-09-22 14:39:41 +0000 UTCBrand new patron, long time depressed person here. What you're describing is extremely relatable to me; feelings of profound dread and doubt, it always comes in waves and it can leave just as quickly as it comes on. It really helped me when I stopped thinking about my life as a "failure or a win," that mindset breeds madness; we all fail more than we win. Life isn't a football game, you don't have to get out there and win everytime. Be kind to yourself and accept that some days will be awful but that doesn't negate all the positive change and growth you've been working towards your whole life. Let the bad days slip out of your memory and focus on the things that make you smile. Hope you're feeling better today.
Tapehead
2024-09-22 14:27:19 +0000 UTCAww thanks Terry. I hope so too.π₯°π€ & really wish I could've joined you at the beach!π§‘π
Liv
2024-09-22 14:11:55 +0000 UTCGood morning ,hope it's a happy Sunday. Beach was good, but missing something ( you ? ) Hope today finds you better
Terry Williams
2024-09-22 13:30:32 +0000 UTCThank you Terry.π€ It did get a bit better.β€οΈβπ©Ή How was the beach??! β±οΈ
Liv
2024-09-22 05:19:51 +0000 UTCHope your day got better
Terry Williams
2024-09-21 23:43:31 +0000 UTCThank you very much!π₯°ππ€
Liv
2024-09-21 23:29:04 +0000 UTCπ
Tom Weaver
2024-09-21 23:26:38 +0000 UTCI hope everything gets better for you sweet girl. You deserve itπ₯°βοΈ
KB
2024-09-21 22:15:10 +0000 UTCThank you Tomπππ
Liv
2024-09-21 20:39:16 +0000 UTCI for one love you very much Liv. You are a breath of fresh air in a crazy world. Please keep a positive attitude and I will be there to help you through the tough times. Please take care sweetheart. π
Tom Weaver
2024-09-21 19:51:31 +0000 UTCπ€π
Liv
2024-09-21 19:23:10 +0000 UTCπππππ
Liv
2024-09-21 19:22:56 +0000 UTCHugs Liv, π«
David Luscher
2024-09-21 19:13:01 +0000 UTCThings mostly always get better. Just don't give up hope. Wish I could take you to beach with me today. I think it could maybe cheer you up. You have been doing a great job, you make my days brighter. I try to do the same for you. Things will get better, your killing it. Don't doubt your self.
Terry Williams
2024-09-21 19:04:15 +0000 UTC
