Self care is important I guess.

Hey guys, I hope you are doing well !

We are only at the middle of the year and things haven't been easy for anyone. I think I am right to say that a lot of people feel either anxious or depressed, or both, and with this pandemic going on, we don't have a choice but to stay stong and hopeful.

Fortunately, I am one of the lucky one. My boyfriend is an essential worker and I am an artist working from home, so we don't struggle with money too much for now. We are pretty much solitary and we don't need to see people too often, so on this side, we are good.

The thing is, I feel VERY depressed since a week or so. I don't know why, it just happens. All I want to do is sleep and cry, and if you are here, then I think you care enough about me/my art for me to tell you this.

I am on medication but I have ups and down pretty often. I suffer from anxiety and dissociative disorder. When I am depressed, I don't have the motivation to do anything, I even stop eating and I tend to go back in my alcohol dependence.

I am more or less mentally stable, and that whole Covid situation doesn't help. I look at my art most of the time and I want to puke. Pretty much all I do is drawing and I am starting to feel exausted, but each time I take a break, I feel bad and I feel like I should still be drawing. I know I shouldn't be worrying, but I am so scared to disappoint people who are following me. I just want to make people happy/horny with my art and to improve even more.

That being said, I talked to a few people and they advised me to take at least a week off. No commissions, little or none social medias, to avoid a burnout.

I thought about it and I think it will be good for me. I won't go for a whole month obviously because of my Patreon rewards (you will get them, don't worry) but I probably won't post anything for a week, either on here or social medias.

I just want to sleep and take care of myself.
So yeah, starting next week (October 4th), things will be on slow motion. I might post anyway but not as often as I usually do.

I am currently working on a Saria pinup and that will probably be the last drawing I post before my ''self care'' week.

Thank you for understanding <3