Patreons please read! (I'd like your opinions)

So, I will try to keep this short and sweet (although there is a lot I could unpack about my life and the things I've been through this year).

I know that I am not producing PB pages as quickly as I (and you probably) would like me too. There's a number of reasons why, but what I want to focus on mainly is how to fix it for you. Particularly, if it is fixable at all. 

If i'm being completely honest, I HAVE lost a lot of interest in PB, unfortunately, and think that it has to do with multiple things (The comic has been going on for almost 4 years, the style of pages is hard to work with, I'm ambitious to do other things, ect). THIS DOES NOT MEAN THAT I AM GOING TO STOP UPDATING. Please don't think this is me asking you permission to quit, because I dont WANT to quit on PB. 

I love Luca and Drew and PB has been the most successful webcomic of mine to date. Hell, I've even had people cosplay from it! But its become pulling teeth for me and what I want to do is make sure YOU guys are getting content that makes you happy, while also making me happy. 

I am still going to update PB once a week, but... I would like to start planning another webcomic project along with it. I considered doing this totally in the dark and not telling anyone about it, (until I was ready to start posting and had a slew of pages stocked up) BUT, i think as patreons you deserve to see whats cooking in my brain. I shared Beau and Sage with you before the book was published (Friendly reminder to go read it!) and I'd like to share whatever the future holds too. 

I guess my question to you, is if youd rather see all the potential new ideas (characters design, illustrations, maybe even thumbnail sketches of new comic pages???) than not. Which might seem silly, but I know how attached a lot of you are to PB and it might be sad for you to know that, mentally, I've moved beyond it. I've been updating once a week for basically this entire year despite how little I want to work on it, so i'm fairly certain I can keep the same schedule.

I hope this all makes sense lol. Idk. Its hard to put into words how I feel, when this year has continued to drag me through the mud and I can barely keep my feet under me. 

Would you guys be excited for a new comic if I was to let you see it before its regularly posting??? Would you guys be excited to watch me fumble behind the scenes? Or should I keep that mess to myself lol. 

I'd love to know how you guys are feeling, and how (you think) I could give more to you while also making myself happy.

Thank you again. I know not all of you know me on a personal level, but you've been here for me through some of the worst things that have happened (Like what the fuck, lol, just a week ago I was in a car accident and they totaled my vehicle and i've been dealing with THAT. On top of losing my home in a fire, replacing my belongings, getting my wisdom teeth pulled, working fulltime at the hospital through this pandemic, ect ect ect).

I'll apologize for my transparency. ^^^^ This year has sucked. 

- Maddie