Chapter 44: Helen's Sorrow

At this moment, Li Yexing couldn't say anything.

Helen sat on the ground, crying and holding the bedroom access card in her hand, whimpering as if it was broken.

Li Yexing walked up and patted Helen's shoulder, softly saying, "Let's go."

Helen didn't move.

Li Yexing sighed and tried to help Helen up, but she seemed unwilling to leave and resisted him.

"Godammit!" Li Yexing cursed.

He reached out and grabbed Helen's collar, then forcefully pushed her against the wall and said viciously, "What? You want more of this?"

"Y-You...let me be alone for a while!" Helen cried while being pressed against the wall.

"Alone? Alone my ass! Can't you see where we are? If you don't want to die, then you better start walking!" Li Yexing shouted.

"You...you're a jerk! You're barbaric! You bad mercenary!" Helen pounded on Li Yexing while crying out, "I...I just lost my father! How could you treat me like this? Don't I even have the right to be sad?"

Li Yexing was slightly stunned by Helen's words, and then his face showed a sinister smile, a look that inexplicably reminded people of Garfield the cat, but with a bone-chilling malice that made Helen's face show a hint of fear.

"Come, look at them..." Li Yexing grabbed Helen's collar and dragged her through the piles of corpses. Every time they reached a corpse, Li Yexing would press her head close to it, and Helen's face was almost touching the bodies of the infected under Li Yexing's pressure.

Finally, Helen vomited.

"How is it?" Li Yexing asked while pulling Helen, who was struggling to stand, "Do you see it clearly now?"

"I...I see it clearly..." Helen replied.

"I was going to make you write a 3.000-word reflection, but now we don't have time, so let me tell you; you should understand something at this moment..." Li Yexing said coldly, "There's nothing fair in this world, just like you and me. You're the young lady of a wealthy family, living in luxury, while I'm a mercenary from a war-torn country, exchanging my life for money. But there's one thing that's fair, and in the face of it, people are not distinguished by their status... Death."

Lilith watched silently as Li Yexing spoke without interruption.

"You think you're so miserable, so pitiful because your father died. But in my eyes, your sadness is nothing more than child's play. At sixteen, you were enjoying the love of both your father and mother, sitting in a sunny mansion drinking coffee, and reading books that only middle-class white women would read. At my age of sixteen, I was fighting for my life with a Kalashnikov in the Golden Triangle! I was on a tiny boat with a knife, avenging my father's killer."

As he spoke, Li Yexing lightly patted Helen's face and said, "Life is always fragile, you have to get used to it, understand?"

"How could I understand... how could I get used to something like you, who is indifferent to human life?" Helen cried softly.

"Well, there's nothing to be done then..." Li Yexing released Helen's hand that he had been holding, "That's just how the world is. If you don't get used to it, you'll die. You can stay here and wait for those monsters to play house with you."

With a nod to Lilith, Li Yexing was about to hit the road. He didn't have that much time to waste on educating little kids.

"If it were Miss Lilith who died, could you easily accept it?" Helen, who was standing behind him, didn't know where she got the courage and shouted at Li Yexing.

Li Yexing stopped in his tracks.

"I will be mentally prepared for it..." After a long silence, Li Yexing whispered, "But I will never let such a thing happen."

The feeling of helplessness, when faced with Nemesis, was still engraved in Li Yexing's heart, and the incident had been enough for him.

Watching Li Yexing's back, the little yellow flower Helen didn't know what to say for a moment. She bit her lip and finally glanced at her father's corpse before catching up with Li Yexing and Lilith.

The group moved forward silently toward their destination.

The occasional gunfire could still be heard on the ship, and there were probably other survivors, but that was meaningless. They were destined to die. If they wanted to grab a lifeboat, Li Yexing would not hesitate to shoot them. Although he said that all beings were equal in the face of death, why should he rush to die if killing someone else could keep him alive?

Thinking of this, Li Yexing couldn't help but turn around and look at Helen behind him. The girl had lifeless eyes and dry tear streaks on her face. She was like a walking dead, following behind Li Yexing and Lilith step by step. At this moment, Li Yexing felt that even the zombies in Raccoon City seemed more lively than this girl.

Did he speak too harshly?

Li Yexing couldn't help but think that, in the end, it was his own experience, or rather, the experience of the heartless mercenary Li Yexing, that was abnormal. Forcing this abnormal way of thinking on a girl who had grown up in a greenhouse was unreasonable.

The pain of losing a father was not something that anyone could bear, but Li Yexing had no better way. He couldn't console the girl, nor did he have enough time to let her digest the pain in a stable environment. So Li Yexing could only use the simplest and most brutal method.

He had to make this girl understand as quickly as possible that this world was never gentle.

So why should he care about this girl's life and death?

With a hint of annoyance, Li Yexing easily killed the two infected people blocking his way. Li Yexing had completely adapted to these infected people. Although they could run fast, they did not sway like the Lickers in Resident Evil: Apocalypse. With some preparation, it was easier to hit them in the head, and once their heads were hit, one could take down an infected person with three shots.

The problem that troubled Li Yexing now was... he had very little ammunition left.

The ammunition he had collected before was all from the security guards' bodies, and after the infection area expanded, most of the infected people were ordinary crew members and passengers on the ship. They were unarmed and easier to attack and infect. The monsters they mutated into after infection could only consume Li Yexing and Lilith's ammunition without providing any supplies. At this rate, Li Yexing's bullets would run out soon.

"Lilith, how many bullets do you have left?" Li Yexing turned his head and asked.

Lilith held up two fingers.

"Really, you only have two bullets left..."

The ammunition for the MP5 had run out at the very beginning of the outbreak, and they had encountered many infected people on the way. Moreover, the battle with the mutated captain in the kitchen earlier had consumed some of the ammunition for their powerful weapons. Lilith's remaining few large-caliber revolver bullets had to be saved for the B.O.W.s in the lower decks.

The road ahead... was difficult to walk.