Recorded Divers Death

I would like to suppose a different philosophy upon this tragedy: The risk everything in the nature world presents itself as usually does one of three things; 1. Almost instantly enact the primordial “fight or flight responses” you literally can’t help it unless it’s been trained out of or into you via expultation of brigadier structures. 2. Under circumstances as this tragedy, the individual in question clearly was experienced and not being reckless. His situational awareness is evident, if you know what you’re looking for. 3. Typically, the type of training required to even qualify for such a posting, essentially wears down your “F.E.A.R.” Reaction and allows cool and collected logical reasoning to overcome the individuals “fight or flight” response. The typical after effects are usually not being afraid to die. Most frontline service representatives would be able to articulate this feeling as well. I’m not thinking about myself because my cognitive abilities are elsewhere focused. It’s a training mechanism that can be related to “riding a bike”, once you learn it and the F.E.A.R. Is gone, you no longer worry about your personal safety because you’re not gonna lie to yourself about making it “out” alive because you already ate highly aware of the risk involved. Just like any service member that parishes in the line of duty, the individual already was prepared mentally and likely never had to fear death as most mortals do. 3. Remember philosopher Jean Pierre Camus suppositions upon life and the absurdity of it all. It doesn’t make sense It never will You just have to accept it and move on Then he’d probably chuckle a wee bit.

Sad and eye opening. There are invisible forces that kill without leaving any traces. My youngest brother (he was 29) passed away Nov 2017, him and Mom are having a conversation on his bed she said he just close his eyes laid back that was it. Last thing he said was he was sorry please don't yell at me. Growing up my parents told me no matter what keep him safe so from 5 or 7 yrs old to then I protected him. The words protect him are woven in my DNA but my parents never warned me that I can't protect from everything. Mom and dad couldn't resuscitate him and I told them I could've and still think ok I did and he's just on vacation, he'll be home next week I've been waiting for next week for almost 3.5 yrs. I haven't even properly mourned him. Being that I'm the only one who can work, I'm taking care of my folks being the rock of the family. Being strong for everyone is slowly deteriorating mind and physically tearing me apart but I just stay busy, I'm the worry free, stress free always happy with a smile from ear to ear. Nobody ask how I'm doing, I'd say great though even though I've been dead on the inside for these last 3 yrs. Nobody worries about the string guy. Your the only person I have actually told my state of mind to, thank you for reading this to this point, not getting mad it's so long😔🙇🥺

Billy