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Wishful Thinking ep. 37 🎙️ Valentine's Day Special 💘

Wishful Thinking ep. 37 🎙️ Valentine's Day Special 💘

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Okay, I finally have time to add more to what had been happening to lead to such a fast start. It all starts... hmmm I'm gonna say late 2019 at (at the time) my 2nd job I was there for a few months. We brought in a new hire, someone I already knew in a casual way because I was hanging out with his kids who were around my age albeit younger. His oldest child was the girl I had a crush on who would go on to be married to a guy that was pretty similar to me, but in late 2019, he was the employee I was training as he started off as a delivery driver for us and was equally new to the industry. He knew I had the ability to pick up knowledge fairly quickly and be able to teach it back to someone so after a couple of months we were both doing really well picking up a ton of slack left by the severe lack of staff. A year goes by, I'd have just turned 21, he was now 51 and it was that difference in age that lead the company to choose him over me as the new manager (our former manager had upgraded leaving the position open, we wanted to fill in the spot within the store, I knew more, handled operations better and faster, I wanted the position, but I wasn't old enough to land on the company's insurance yet as I had to be at least 26. I guess I was qualified way younger than the company had anticipated anyone else being so they gave it to him despite him not wanting to take it as it would take more time away from his family, something I could afford to have happen to me at the time). Another year goes by, we're doing as well as we can and we have a great working chemistry between us, he soon starts getting calls from other places to offer him more management positions. He eventually takes it, grabs one of our employees to join him in the process and I am STILL not qualified to be anything other than a guy at the counter who can do everything else that's complicated both physically and mentally. Nevertheless, I take the news well for about a month and then had to quit due to burnout 🫠 I bring all that up because he said I made such a good impression on him as a worker, that he saw me in a better lens after most of our talks and said he'd be willing to help me out with anything in the future. I reciprocated those thoughts as he's a fantastic guy to get to know in his own right. It's now the future, he (I think by means of her dad?) gets in touch with this girl (for the sake of not having to call her girl, her name will be Jane) after learning they were Falcons fans and grew up in Atlanta and moved across the country (I wanna say it was work related) near to us. My former manager immediately jumped on that fun fact and proceeded to be a wingman on my behalf before I even knew her name! Meeting Jane was such a a lightning in a bottle experience for me the first time. Come to find out she's a Surgical Application Specialist in the field of Opthalmology and she gets flown over in different parts of the country to be handling surgery situations for people's eyesight and go on meetings with reps! She does all that and she was STILL excited to see me?! I just work as a delivery driver for paint cuz it gives me a schedule I want. What was he saying about me?? 😳😆 We're still in the early stages of talking to one another, however we're texting late at night which is how I've been getting this information and she still makes it a point to be nearby on a weekly basis. Is there a lesson found in this? If I could find anything that I'd want those with a bad past with love (myself included) to understand that this opportunity seemed random, but the opportunity only existed when I put other people first. Even when it felt intimidating. Even when it felt unnecessary. Even when it felt unjustified. Even when it felt hopeless. I still used my position to advance people near me, it's something I continue to do, to push people to be better the best way I know how, by being my own good example. Is it easy? Heck no! That's what makes it so rewarding! I have to mention that we are in the same religious group too and that's the first thing I looked for, so now in our group she'll be surrounded by 100+ people who I've had great experiences with almost all of them, the rest has yet to happen. There's still ways this won't end in us being in an official relationship but I can't afford to let that cynical approach destroy my confidence in the process. So folks, I'm rooting for the rest of y'all's stories and lives to get better than how it was before. I'm truly of the belief now that if this could happen to me, it can happen to you, and I intend to breathe that belief in whatever capacity I can while we're all here. I mean, I wasn't even looking anymore! Someone else saw the vision and we got into contact quickly, from there we met eye to eye on crucial views and values, and we have our sights set towards seeing each other more often. Can you tell I've been brushing up on my eye puns? 😉😂

Noah T

“Ball is life. Isn’t that what the kids say? “ 2017 was my graduation year” Wish 😭🙏 cmon twin we’re reaching Unc status now you gotta chill gang (I’m enlightening you on the new lingo). Jk all in good spirits :). You’ll have to let me know if you’d rather hear more info on window co-worker girl or more on my ex and our past. Great video once again and amazing thoughtful responses as always! Your energy and commentary are truly unmatched compared other ASMRTs I watch or audio content creators. An hour and a half passed by like it was nothing. Can’t wait for the next Wishful Thinking! Here’s to a wonderful 2026 for everyone 🤞🤞

Tacitus_Kilgore

Also you told my story well despite my terrible storytelling ability so thank you for that! Even if you tried to say I was closeted 🤣

Demonpanther290

I'm surprised you remember the two ending audio I had you do! It felt really special to get shouted out when you first made that video and your community interaction is why you'll always have a fan in me! Now that the sappy stuff is out of the way :), It was a 6:30am class she had (not 6am like I had originally thought sorry about the mix up), and I only remembered that cause me and her were catching up these last few days and actually talked about that night funnily enough. She's convinced he was reaching into his pocket for something as I was dragging him down the hall and couldn't get to it so that's why he tried to go for my neck, I was so locked in that I only remember him going for my throat and back of my neck with his hands before I slammed him into the wall. As for me and her catching up it's been nice and kinda flirty. I don't think anything will come of it as she's a single mom (the situation with the dad is strange and truthfully I haven't had the stones to ask for the full story) and I'm in the process of buying my first house and have a nice paying job so we're both kinda locked in the states we are living in (though if she wanted a change of scenery I wouldn't hate that idea). We both have talked about how there are feelings there but life has made it difficult to pursue anything.

Demonpanther290

Sorry about my typo and the chair ad at the beginning of my comment. And yes going out as much as my lowest social battery has been helping for sure since I had to start the painful process of acceptance that its just never gonna happen between me and him. Its been a lot of smaller outings to keep my mind off of him and I actually spent my valentine's day bucking logs apart and splitting them into firewood for my mom's house to keep her warm through the cold season and delivered to a few elders in my community to so I got to see some family hung out with a few friends. Also got back into my mma a bit nothing crazy just some light sparring and rolling around on the mats for some fun. I will continue with the Doctors orders and work up the courage to do some therapist hunting after my last one retired to her lake house with her husband and I only see her when ever so often because shes a good person and became a friend who genuinely cares but its time to get back into therapy like you said its just healthy and healing during a time like this. Also its been about two months now it was just him getting a new girlfriend so soon after I told him how I felt and then valentines day all really just made the heart throbb...because yes ive been crying a lot lately. Gotta let it go slowly one step at a time 😊. Love you Wish thank you again from the bottom of my heart for always being here for us all 🙌🫶💐🫂

Phoenix Milburn

HE'S BAAAAACK, I have returned, my name was formerly just Michael, and I was the person that Noah T was generous enough to gift your highest Patreon membership tier to, I told you I'd be back :) Would've been nice to have something submitted, but I only just got my membership from the discount (thanks Wish!) I guess I'll add a little something here, I have this friend I've had feelings for, for quite a while, since we've known each other (middle school) I never had the courage to tell her how I felt, I'd like to, but well, having feelings for/falling in love with a friend is often very rough, like, I was literally dreaming and daydreaming about moving in with her, cooking for her, and things like that, like, I genuinely fell in love with her, whenever I see her say something cute on her Instagram notes, and my heart flutters and I smile uncontrollably. I don't think she feels the same so, feelsbadman, but hey, just gotta chalk it up to the game, take the L and keep it pushin 😅 Mirrorrirrorir Reer, you sound like a damn shy guy 😂 Yes we want a partner with a good personality, of course, but I have ALWAYS said, anyone who says looks don't matter is LYING, are looks the most important thing? No, of course not, HOWEVER saying looks doesn't matter at all? That just simply isn't true. Also, I agree with you on your sex worker partner example, I'd be fine if they were doing audio stuff, even someone who does the Vtuber fansly stuff, but if it were their actual, physical body showing and they were naked and stuff, I probably wouldn't be okay with that, that'd definitely make me feel uncomfortable, feel like some people might call me insecure for that, and well, I don't think that's entirely wrong, as I'm definitely not the most confident person, but I do feel pretty firm about feeling that way. Oof, that 4 part story was crazy, like, holy rollercoaster Batman! "Ball is life, ain't that what the kids say" is CRAZY 💀 Miss Ma'am, you not even that old fr Thanks for the episode of Wishful Thinking! 🧡🖤✨ Also Wish, if I may ask, what would you consider to be too young, for a potential romantic partner? I understand this is pretty personal, so if you don't want to answer then you of course, don't have to.

Michael_Star

When Wish said "its always these damn basketball players" I was like Damn what did I do 😭🤣 One more thing I'll add is that another reason I stayed around was also bc when she was going through depression she was also suicidal and admitted she even tried. I'll also admit it seemed like I was lowkey being used for attention or as a cushion so when you said you find it as a red flag when someone responds with youre always there for me I can understand why. She also mentioned that her boyfriend hated me bc of our history which I found funny bc the whole time she ghosted me and I was doing my own thing I was living in his head rent free🤣. For more context she mentioned he would yell at her to the point where she was scared to even leave the house or apartment bc he would set up cameras all over and would constantly check her phone to see who she was talking to(not as if I know where she lives but I found that hilarious) and she developed very bad anxiety from all of that. On another note my take on VDay is that its a regular ass day to me but I get a lot of gifts from the kids I work with at my job which is cool but I find unexpected bc its something I only celebrated with my ex gf the one time

Jason Rodriguez

Hey bucko we got another episode this month!

Wishy

British as in free education?!

Wishy

Happy Vday! 🫶🏻💕

Wishy

Haha, yeah I definitely need to work on the self positivity things, it’s getting there, kinda… enjoying the interaction episodes tho, cya guys next month!

AirStarJones

Thanks for you advice Doc, your positivity is most certainly contagious :) P.S what are they doing to you over there? 6am classes?!? 7 periods?! (British btw)

SadBoyHours

Happy Valentines Day, Imaginary Gf!

Koada

Jasmine doesn't know that you could've been her Aladdin but she ran off with Jafar instead

Wishy

Thanks for all your feed back at the end of my story ans I agree with everything you said, looking back on it tho it sucked back then I agree I dodged something, and the arrogant thing was supposed to be for my cousin which I should of made more clear cause we were joking around and that's were I mentioned the misunderstanding and not paying attention to who I was texting I should of specified better so sorry on that but thanks again for reading and leaving your thoughts❤️can't wait for more interaction posts in the future 🙂

Mika Shimada


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