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Added 2024-09-16 23:13:52 +0000 UTCHi patronites! Wishing you a lovely week ahead! 🥰 Did you enjoy your weekend?
On Saturday I went skating and then my mom invited me to her dance class a couple hours later! Guys– I've never sweated so much in my life 😂 Brazilian dance is hard! 🫠
My Sunday started well, did some cleaning and did chores, but in the afternoon forward I started to feel ill 😵 I always had some digestive problems, it's true... but yesterday I had a very serious bout of gastric reflux. I spent the rest of the day feeling BAD, and I even had to double my normal medication. I've been having bad bouts of reflux for a while now to be honest, but luckily I was able to schedule a doctor's appointment for Thursday. This is something I need to take very seriously since my brother had very advanced gastric cancer (if he had survived chemotherapy, he would have had to have his entire stomach removed to continue living) 😞
BUT ANYWAYS! This isn't what I wanted to talk today! 😅
Today I wanted to tell you what's on my mind lately! You know, losing Lia felt like losing a part of myself that I never thought it could be recovered. I felt adrift, as if the light at the end of the tunnel was just a distant mirage, unreachable... But among the pain, two unexpected things started pulling me back to life 🥺
The first was One Piece. Don't get me wrong, I've always known One Piece of course 😅 You know I've even done some cosplays from it (that you love btw). But I've never actually watched it properly... Like, I've only watched some random episodes that were further along and I've never progressed much chronologically (I hadn't even reached Alabasta for example). This time, I gave it another chance, and –wow. There’s no way to describe the impact Luffy had on me. He doesn’t just save his crew; he teaches us, inspires us, and somehow, he saved me too 😭 His determination, his unwavering strength in the face of adversity, made me realize that I could fight for my reasons to live as well 🥺 Luffy reignited a flame that I thought had been extinguished ❤️🔥
And the second thing that transformed me was something I already talked before, but let me say again! I never imagined myself skating 😂 It’s an activity I had never tried before (ok, maybe when I was a child, but it wasn't quad rollers like I wear now) – But suddenly, it became an essential part of who I am. I'm not even exaggerating 🥺 The feeling of stepping out of my comfort zone, of being deeply connected to the present moment as I glide, is freeing. Skating made me feel alive again, brought me into the now, into the constant motion, and showed me that even in the unknown, we can find ourselves. Now quoting Chrono Cross: "Let us open the door to the great unknown, come across another reality, and live another today... Even when the story has been told, life goes on..." – I couldn't agree more 🥺
These two "forces" rescued me from a darkness that seemed eternal. Today, I can say that I’m relearning how to live, relearning how to find joy in the small things, and above all, I’m rediscovering the Dani I thought I had lost. The journey is still long, but finally, I’m enjoying the walk ❤️
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Karolina Quevedo +18
2024-09-25 17:54:00 +0000 UTCAlright, im not used to vedo being this outwardly communicative and so much text from vedo 🤪 My previous log i was writing got deleted as the damn patreon app crashed, so just some important bullet points so i can focus on the main stuff - cheers for dancing time with mother vedo 🥹 - Regarding gastric issues = 🥺, antacid and probiotics vedo, especially with what i assume is a very carb heavy diet or a very protein heavy diet, thank god for a doctors appointment Thursday 🥺 “There’s no way to describe the impact Luffy had on me. He doesn’t just save his crew; he teaches us, inspires us, and somehow, he saved me too 😭 Its one of the beauties of the show, at the start, you’d never think, a rubber man can work his way to the top, especially against some wild powers in the show, but time after time he does, And oh vedo it gets soo much better, I am so happy for two reasons, one that the live action helped inspire jumping back into it, 2, you had your ‘’miles moment’’, where, it’s the right place, right time, and a anime and anime character just HITS HARD and rejuvenates ya, so cheers for it 🥹 as you know, the exact same magic happened for me with dragonball super and gintama ‘ I could fight for my reasons to live as well 🥺 Luffy reignited a flame that I thought had been extinguished ❤️🔥” I always keep it real, this kinda made my heart sink to hear though, 😣, shouldn’t be for vedo, 🥺 Skating = ‘The feeling of stepping out of my comfort zone, of being deeply connected to the present moment as I glide, is freeing. Skating made me feel alive again, brought me into the now, into the constant motion, and showed me that even in the unknown, we can find ourselves’’ I TOLD YOUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!! I SAID IT HERE EXACTLY THIS!!!!, that for vedos mind this is the closest thing to forcing a meditation state, KNEW IT!!!!! 🥹🥹🥹 “I’m rediscovering the Dani I thought I had lost. The journey is still long, but finally, I’m enjoying the walk ❤️”” Again…..its like a smile and a sad frown at the same time, 🥹🥺, shouldn’t be for vedo, but at least you found your version of a light at the end so that the darkness doesnt consume you, so thank god 🥹
Miles
2024-09-18 03:27:14 +0000 UTCJust ♥️
Milos
2024-09-17 06:44:35 +0000 UTCAll part of the healing process. It's so very nice to hear you're finding some energy again! Don't beat yourself up if you back step into a funk again as that is part of the process too. Funny how the tiniest bit of encouragement can go a long way. (One Piece was your rescue series; it was Welcome to the NHK for me haha)! You've always had the determination in you, sometimes just takes a spark. Part of the reason why it's so important to pass some positivity to your fellows and friends is because of that. Even so I'm happy you're finding the light at the end of the tunnel is becoming brighter for you. Don't overwork yourself though! I know the tendency is for folks like us to really dig into new activities to help distract us but sometimes it's okay to take it in small doses, especially so it doesn't work against you physically. I know you'll do just fine with that but still sending some good healing vibes for your psyche and body lol! Hands up for yah always Dani. Don't stop fighting but remember it's okay to put down your sword and take a breather so you can celebrate in a few victories :D!
HitsuBT
2024-09-17 01:18:23 +0000 UTCReading this post made me warm inside my heart, especially your words about rediscovering the Dani you thought you’d lost long ago. Truth be told, I know many people who have yet to find themselves from losing their loved one, myself and my Mom included. It was actually my father’s death anniversary yesterday, and although my Mom and I try to smile we’re still crippled by his loss. Reading such notes gives me hope that someday and one day we'll find ourselves again no matter how long it’ll take. Thank you, Danielle for the unexpected message that just somehow seems to lift away the misery and agony. Putting that aside, I saw the IG story of you and your mother, but I have never heard of Brazilian dancing before. Is it Samba or something else? As for your gastric reflux, I pray that it doesn’t get any more serious than it already is. I have a friend who has it frequently, and what helps him is to drink a watermelon-ginger-carrot-celery smoothie. He also uses pillows to elevate his body so it’s like he is sleeping on an incline bed. I know his and yours gastric reflux will be different, but I think leaving a little knowledge of what I know wouldn’t hurt anyone. At the end of the day, your doctor knows best and I hope he has a way to help. And perhaps I should stop with my chocolate emojis, huh? I know some people can’t eat chocolate because of it 😅 I really like your rollerskates, by the way. The color purple of the laces sold me as it's often my new favorite color these days... and you know exactly why 🤭
Fue_XG
2024-09-16 23:55:00 +0000 UTCDani, are you sure English isn't your first language? 😊 This entire post was beautifully written! Thank you as always for sharing these thoughts with us. I'm sincerely hoping the gastric reflux you're going through right now is temporary, possibly from over-exerting yourself. Waiting for some positive results from the doctor! The professionals know best, after all. 🙏 The way you speak about Luffy reminds me of how some people I used to know talked about Goku, how both characters inspire us to be the best people we can be. I also know someone that takes the same inspiration from Kamina from Gurren Lagann. Anime has no shortage of these sorts of role models for people like us. 🤗 Always wishing you the best. The people you have in your life will always cheer for you and those you have lost are still looking over you and cheering from afar. That will never change. ❤️
Victor
2024-09-16 23:32:33 +0000 UTCI'm wishing you a good week too Dani. I hope you feel better soon. That's great to hear about how you're doing skating.
Jon Phelps
2024-09-16 23:18:18 +0000 UTC
